Is it bad...

[Make Out Kid]

That I'm depressed on Christmas Eve?

This seriously sucks, and Its all because of a girl.
Goddamnit.

[apoemtothedead]

I hate this time of year.

[preppyak]

That I'm depressed on Christmas Eve?

This seriously sucks, and Its all because of a girl.
Goddamnit.

Bad, not really. Holidays always bring out the loneliness for me, especially when I am on campus.

[Make Out Kid]

I dunno. It just sucks because i've done something really bad to her, but I dont remember what, because I black out when I get emotional, and we were fighting, and apparently I called her 14 times, and Ive ruined all of my chances of getting back together with her, and dont remember any of it, and in the meantime, she puts up a new picture on her myspace that makes her look gorgeous, and i ran across it, and....i dunno, Im just missing her to death right now.

[preppyak]

I dunno. It just sucks because i've done something really bad to her, but I dont remember what, because I black out when I get emotional, and we were fighting, and apparently I called her 14 times, and Ive ruined all of my chances of getting back together with her, and dont remember any of it, and in the meantime, she puts up a new picture on her myspace that makes her look gorgeous, and i ran across it, and....i dunno, Im just missing her to death right now.

That sucks man. I know what it's like getting locked out of conversation, I made a mistake with my one girlfriend, and all I got was a message saying that we were over, haven't been able to talk to her since. That was two years ago, I've moved on, but it still haunts me a bit from time to time.

I guess all I can say is listen to whatever music makes you happy and helps you forget her. I got lucky that music took over for me within the last year, and it gets me through almost anything.

Plus, you always have the people on AP for a laugh if you need it.

[ticklemyfancy]

That I'm depressed on Christmas Eve?

This seriously sucks, and Its all because of a girl.
Goddamnit.

at least you dont have to spend money on her

[Make Out Kid]

That sucks man. I know what it's like getting locked out of conversation, I made a mistake with my one girlfriend, and all I got was a message saying that we were over, haven't been able to talk to her since. That was two years ago, I've moved on, but it still haunts me a bit from time to time.

I guess all I can say is listen to whatever music makes you happy and helps you forget her. I got lucky that music took over for me within the last year, and it gets me through almost anything.

Plus, you always have the people on AP for a laugh if you need it.
Yeah, it just sucks, because I want to explain to her whats going on, but either way, Im fucked, because its either, Im a royal douchebag, or she finds out I have serious psychological issues that I refuse to have dealt with because Im afraid of shrinks, and neuroligists (both for different reasons)

Music usually gets me through, and I've been almost perfect all day, but I saw that picture, and it broke me.

Thats why im still on. I keep telling myself Im just going to go to sleep, but when i get depressed, i just hang out on here, because i cant sleep in a state like this.

Fuck, im only fifteen, i cant think of how its going to be when i get older.

[Make Out Kid]

at least you dont have to spend money on her
I already did, and I broke the fucking thing in half.

[preppyak]

Yeah, it just sucks, because I want to explain to her whats going on, but either way, Im fucked, because its either, Im a royal douchebag, or she finds out I have serious psychological issues that I refuse to have dealt with because Im afraid of shrinks, and neuroligists (both for different reasons)

I hate going to doctors with a passion, so I understand you there. But yeah, I think hearing that you have psychological issues, she probably isn't sticking around either.


Fuck, im only fifteen, i cant think of how its going to be when i get older.
Well, there's two ways to look at it. There's the view where nothing is gonna change and only get worse. Since you are only 15, you have a lot ahead of you, so I doubt that things won't get better. If you were a 30-40 year old man with these issues, I'd be worried.

You still have most of high school ahead of you, and I know a lot of things changed for me in that time. At 15, you probably aren't losing the "one" girl. When I lost my girlfriend for my mistake, I was 18 and I thought I had lost the girl I would marry. Two years later I've already found 5 or 6 girls at my small college that are better for me than her.

Things will turn around for you, it just sucks to not have things going real well around Christmas, because it seems to amplify it when everyone else is happy

[Make Out Kid]

I hate going to doctors with a passion, so I understand you there. But yeah, I think hearing that you have psychological issues, she probably isn't sticking around either.


Well, there's two ways to look at it. There's the view where nothing is gonna change and only get worse. Since you are only 15, you have a lot ahead of you, so I doubt that things won't get better. If you were a 30-40 year old man with these issues, I'd be worried.

You still have most of high school ahead of you, and I know a lot of things changed for me in that time. At 15, you probably aren't losing the "one" girl. When I lost my girlfriend for my mistake, I was 18 and I thought I had lost the girl I would marry. Two years later I've already found 5 or 6 girls at my small college that are better for me than her.

Things will turn around for you, it just sucks to not have things going real well around Christmas, because it seems to amplify it when everyone else is happy
Yeah, I dont think she was the one, I just miss her. And yeah, basically either way Im not getting her back.

Im sure things will get better too, Its just wierd thinking that Im dealing with Shit like this at 15.

[preppyak]

Yeah, I dont think she was the one, I just miss her. And yeah, basically either way Im not getting her back.

Im sure things will get better too, Its just wierd thinking that Im dealing with Shit like this at 15.

Yeah, it sucks to deal with it that early, I'm kinda glad I didn't date anyone til my senior year in high school. Everyone goes through it though, as much as it sucks.

I just remember when I was 15, I was really good at Math and I think I wanted to be a Park Ranger at the time. Now I'm an English/Communications major and I want to teach Film. I still secretly want to be a Park Ranger though, even if it's just in the summer when school is out of session.

[Make Out Kid]

Yeah, it sucks to deal with it that early, I'm kinda glad I didn't date anyone til my senior year in high school. Everyone goes through it though, as much as it sucks.

I just remember when I was 15, I was really good at Math and I think I wanted to be a Park Ranger at the time. Now I'm an English/Communications major and I want to teach Film. I still secretly want to be a Park Ranger though, even if it's just in the summer when school is out of session.
go for it. Im pretty sure no matter what, Im going to end up doing something that involves music. I've wanted to play music professionally since I was 8. The taste has changed (favorite band then:Hanson, Now:Rx Bandits) but the aspirations are the same.

[Greg]

im depressed

doesnt have too much to do with girls. i mean it adds on. but there is worse shit im dealing with

[Make Out Kid]

im depressed

doesnt have too much to do with girls. i mean it adds on. but there is worse shit im dealing with
want to go into detail?

Theres alot more shit with me too, but this is the stuff im ok saying to random people online.

[Greg]

want to go into detail?

Theres alot more shit with me too, but this is the stuff im ok saying to random people online.
well my dad died almost 7 years ago
my bro died last december
my sister is a pycho. and hasnt been home since the funeral last year.

and thats just my family problems

[Make Out Kid]

well my dad died almost 7 years ago
my bro died last december
my sister is a pycho. and hasnt been home since the funeral last year.

and thats just my family problems
wow, shit dude, that makes me feel really stupid for being depressed over a stupid girl...

[oldwirehands]

www.intellectualwhores.com

[theMATEOlife]

this is what they do man...infiltrate, recon, destroy.

i'm sorry it happened on christmas eve bro. feel better about it because chances this whack-ass ho isn't worth it, even though she seems like it now.


merry christmas.

[troublelovesme]

is it bad that i'm depressed on christmas?

[Coronary Parasite]

i don't know your name first off, even though i should, so, makeoutkid, if you really do black out when you get emotional like that to the point where you really don't remember anything, get it checked out. as scary as it might be, it could get worse, or beyond repair. you can't just shrug things off and hope they go away.

second off, i now know why people kill themselves this time of year. i am so depressed and i really can't wait for all these stupid holidays to be over. last year was amazing, and the plans i had this year would have been amazing, but i have been fucked in the ass by life lately and i want the happy time of year to be done.

[de la sympathie]

the holidays are hell. but we can provde laughs here at ap.

[splitsecond]

women are whores, learn to live with it

[InochiSagashi]

women are whores, learn to live with it

hahaha this made me laugh..which kinda worries me cause I'm a girl?

[Make Out Kid]

Ugh, I feel so fucking emo. Fuck, Im crying, and its fucking Christmas.
I know shes not going to mean anything in a year or two, but I fucking miss her so god damned bad right now. This fucking sucks so bad. And I feel so stupid, because Im bitching, and crying when I have people like Cj and Greg who actually have good reason, and mine is over a girl I went out with for 2 1/2 months.

[InochiSagashi]

It's alright. I think we've all been depressed or cried about a girl/boy before.

[Coronary Parasite]

Ugh, I feel so fucking emo. Fuck, Im crying, and its fucking Christmas.
I know shes not going to mean anything in a year or two, but I fucking miss her so god damned bad right now. This fucking sucks so bad. And I feel so stupid, because Im bitching, and crying when I have people like Cj and Greg who actually have good reason, and mine is over a girl I went out with for 2 1/2 months.
in my opinion, something is wrong, and you need to get help soon. please talk to someone.

[Make Out Kid]

in my opinion, something is wrong, and you need to get help soon. please talk to someone.
Actually I talked to my parents about the blacking out earlier today, my mom is going to try to get me into a shrink as soon as possible. Thanks to you :)

I just miss her like hell right now.

[Coronary Parasite]

Actually I talked to my parents about the blacking out earlier today, my mom is going to try to get me into a shrink as soon as possible. Thanks to you :)

I just miss her like hell right now.
wow, really? i actually feel good about that.

as far as the girl goes, maybe you should tell her that you don't remember what you did, or that you black out. it may not help your relationship, but she may not be as angry at you. which will help.

but don't worry, you'll get over it. i may hate my ex right now, and i'll probably hate him forever, but i won't miss him in 6 months. give it a week and you might not miss her.

[Make Out Kid]

wow, really? i actually feel good about that.

as far as the girl goes, maybe you should tell her that you don't remember what you did, or that you black out. it may not help your relationship, but she may not be as angry at you. which will help.

but don't worry, you'll get over it. i may hate my ex right now, and i'll probably hate him forever, but i won't miss him in 6 months. give it a week and you might not miss her.
You should, thanks a ton. My mom was really understanding, she just got worried (I dont know if I was expecting anything different, but im thankful thats what i got) and she told my dadbefore they went to sleep.

Ive told her I dont remember. She thinks Im BS'ing. As much as that should piss me off, it still doesnt.

I know I'll get over her. I'm not at all worried about that. Im already figuring out shows in the future to go to because im at my social peak in that atmosphere. Im just having trouble dealing with her right now, it will be more than a week unless I get a rebound to at least make me think I love someone else, becaue I got really attached to her. I dunno, Ill move on, and talking about it, and actually seeing me saying that Ill get over her helps in itself, but for now, im listening to Brand New, and going back and forth between crying and getting pissed. Hell of a Christmas eh?

[preppyak]

hahaha this made me laugh..which kinda worries me cause I'm a girl?

It's always nice to be able to laugh at reality. Split, what is that like post 1000 about girls being whores, you're on fire with those.

[InochiSagashi]

It's always nice to be able to laugh at reality. Split, what is that like post 1000 about girls being whores, you're on fire with those.
ouch, lol.

[Greg]

all day i either watched Family Guy season 4 or played Tony Hawk American Wasteland

[Juliet R Delta]

i hate this time of year too. i met this awesome guy on the 23rd, we fooled around a little and parted ways because he thinks i'm hung up on his housemate. now i'm in an edgy nervous period where i just need to see him again and convince him that i want to be with him. the extent of me liking his housemate was he's hot, nice, and likes stuff i do. lets call it a flight of fancy. any advice? i really like this guy.

[Joanna187]

You should, thanks a ton. My mom was really understanding, she just got worried (I dont know if I was expecting anything different, but im thankful thats what i got) and she told my dadbefore they went to sleep.

Ive told her I dont remember. She thinks Im BS'ing. As much as that should piss me off, it still doesnt.

I know I'll get over her. I'm not at all worried about that. Im already figuring out shows in the future to go to because im at my social peak in that atmosphere. Im just having trouble dealing with her right now, it will be more than a week unless I get a rebound to at least make me think I love someone else, becaue I got really attached to her. I dunno, Ill move on, and talking about it, and actually seeing me saying that Ill get over her helps in itself, but for now, im listening to Brand New, and going back and forth between crying and getting pissed. Hell of a Christmas eh?Oh, god no. Brand New has to be the worst band to listen to in a situation such as yours. True, you get everything out, but it sucks so bad. I can't listen to them anymore without crying. Well, I might be somewhat alright now, but I don't even want to take the chance. Try and listen to more upbeat and happy stuff I guess. Maybe hang out with some friends to get your mind off of things for awhile.

[XDeath By SageX]

hey you know what every one of my friends cried on crismas eve i might as well cry ....being depressed is not bad but if it drives you to suicide then there might be a problem there

[Greg]

hey you know what every one of my friends cried on crismas eve i might as well cry ....being depressed is not bad but if it drives you to suicide then there might be a problem there
why would ALL of your friends cry? thats pathetic.

[XDeath By SageX]

well one of my friends dad commited suicide and my other friend got dumped and then my other friend got her hand smashed when she fell down the stairs

[preppyak]

well one of my friends dad commited suicide and my other friend got dumped and then my other friend got her hand smashed when she fell down the stairs

All on Christmas Eve, damn

[Jra1]

all day i either watched Family Guy season 4 or played Tony Hawk American Wasteland
sounds deeply fulfilling

[save_me]

im always depressed arouns the holidays

[Jra1]

im always depressed arouns the holidays

because you suck

[Greg]

well one of my friends dad commited suicide and my other friend got dumped and then my other friend got her hand smashed when she fell down the stairs
way to hold back a crucial detail like that

[preppyak]

im always depressed arouns the holidays
Meh, I'd figure you were always getting stuffed like your stocking around holidays, guess I was wrong

[preppyak]

way to hold back a crucial detail like that
fake account, ignore it

[Greg]

fake account, ignore it
yea i figured that out recently after the post