Seven months

[spansen]

Hey all you dudes and dudettes. I don't post hardly at all anymore, because I don't feel like it much anymore. But, I am presently way bored, because I came to my hometown.. To the home I grew up in... For the first time in seven months.

I got to that point in the moving Garden State.. Where home stops feeling like home.

I feel like I'm a guest in a hotel that has a room of stuff I used to be into.. This is weird.

[thespearkid]

You should listen to Christmas Lights by Paul Baribeau.

fresh snow on the suburbs
staying at my parents
it hasn't been a good year
but things are all right here

sleeping in the spare room
that used to be my bedroom
even though I'm home now
I feel completely homeless

[spansen]

i'm going to download that song as soon as i find it.

[.invisible ink.]

ugh, i can relate. after i went to college my mom sold the house i lived in when i went to high school - the only house i really loved and the only bedroom that i ever felt was truly my own (i had decorated it perfectly, had a million memories in that room). coming back on breaks to stay at this totally unfamiliar house in a part of town i had no connection to was sooooo painful. i resented my mom for years over it. i still miss my old house and that feeling of "home" but eventually i got over it when i began to treat where i lived most of the time as my real home. the cliche is sad but true, you can never go home again.

[spansen]

You should listen to Christmas Lights by Paul Baribeau.

fresh snow on the suburbs
staying at my parents
it hasn't been a good year
but things are all right here

sleeping in the spare room
that used to be my bedroom
even though I'm home now
I feel completely homeless
i give up. you should send me that song.

[spansen]

ugh, i can relate. after i went to college my mom sold the house i lived in when i went to high school - the only house i really loved and the only bedroom that i ever felt was truly my own (i had decorated it perfectly, had a million memories in that room). coming back on breaks to stay at this totally unfamiliar house in a part of town i had no connection to was sooooo painful. i resented my mom for years over it. i still miss my old house and that feeling of "home" but eventually i got over it when i began to treat where i lived most of the time as my real home. the cliche is sad but true, you can never go home again.
i don't have anything or anyone to resent. i've just grown up. my apartment for 5 more months is more home than this..

[.invisible ink.]

i don't have anything or anyone to resent. i've just grown up. my apartment for 5 more months is more home than this..

yeah, i didn't realize i was implying you should resent anyone or anything, that was just part of my own experience and it didn't encapsulate everything else i felt, it was just one powerful emotion i dealt with at the time.

it sucks to feel like you don't fit in at your house anymore. :(

[spansen]

yeah, i didn't realize i was implying you should resent anyone or anything, that was just part of my own experience and it didn't encapsulate everything else i felt, it was just one powerful emotion i dealt with at the time.

it sucks to feel like you don't fit in at your house anymore. :(
it took three tries to find the right key to open the door. haha

[spansen]

You should listen to Christmas Lights by Paul Baribeau.

fresh snow on the suburbs
staying at my parents
it hasn't been a good year
but things are all right here

sleeping in the spare room
that used to be my bedroom
even though I'm home now
I feel completely homeless

paul actually just moved to bloomington, i saw him at my work tonight-- looks like i'll have to catch him play sometime.

[Trioxide]

i can relate. The less time i spend at home, the less like home it feels. Everyone elses house seems to feel more like home, as do hotel rooms, my room just feels like a stop over... even spending three straight days in it hasnt helped.

[bailmeout13]

I feel like this all the time. Today is day six of me being at home, longest I've been here in quite some time. My cats are afraid of me, bedroom is unfamiliar everything is weird.

[thespearkid]

paul actually just moved to bloomington, i saw him at my work tonight-- looks like i'll have to catch him play sometime.
that's amazing. hah.

[phil19]

ive never moved any further than around the corner so ive never experienced this

[spansen]

look at everyone wanting a piece of the action now. this wasn't so popular last month! ha

but. yeah. it's funny that that happened in about a month's time, huh?

[spansen]

so i met paul yesterday.