decade

[to kill this]

so i don't have the best relationship with my dad, my mom's ex husband.

So escape, so escape
Into the bottles and boxes you call home,
That you call home.
So breathe, breathe in the toxins
And leave all the carcinogens for me.
Crush a bill, shove it in my hand
It's never been enough
But I've never wanted it all.
No, no I've never, never wanted it all.

So scream, inside the bloodstream
The brain forgets the other half
You're stumbling on just enough to get by
On just enough, just enough to get by
Cause you don't wanna run
You wanna just crumble, crumble on by
And everytime that I, everytime that I
Try, try, try...

I hear the sob in every breath
That escapes the smoke of the cigarette
I hear the wrenching break inside the chest
Everytime, everytime eyes met.

So dream, so dream
Past leaking into your bed
Guilt is a silent movie in your head
Play it over and over again
Until popcorn isn't a perk anymore
Screen rips, the picture hits the floor
The picture, hits the floor
And nothing matters anymore.

So entangle yourself in it all
Watch the way the feet collapse
Can't hold it up, can't hold yourself up
I wonder, sometimes I wonder
If you look at me, and what you see
Is everything, everything you broke.

I hear the sob in every breath
That escapes the smoke of the cigarette
I hear the wrenching break inside the chest
Everytime, everytime eyes met.