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[thetrueblood]

going out another night, this makes seven straight tonight,
a fight against twelve hour shifts that replace your blood with Novocain,
then it comes to 2am, hug goodbye your next of kin
time to start the loneliness that replaces life with thoughts of ghosts

if introspect is so important, i think i must be missing organs
and i'll keep searching for a purpose and returning empty handed
does it help to find belonging, or does it just increase the longing
a sheep in the herd, lost in the hills, I'm the only one not branded.

I go off searching for a prize, find it in the brightest eyes,
hoping they will be the pair that will validate my existence.
the signals sent in solitude only lead me to conclude,
that my life will not wait around for my permission.

working hard another day, medical bills left unpaid,
fighting for four hour nights, that replace your days with "I'm okay"
then it comes to 9pm, punch your card you're off again,
time to start the happiness that replaces struggle with a friend