Calvin's Shadow
12/13/09, 04:11 PM
(Rap)
All my life I've been tryin, to leave this frame
Moved astray by the fear, it won't be the same
But life changes makin way for an empty page
To step in, and take away our forgotten pain
But it's so damn hard, when it just isn't forgotten
Bleedin my vains dry until my body's rotten
Now I'm fightin hard just to keep me from stoppin
Like lookin in the dark - not knowin the problem
I might faint, life greys while I'm stuck in this maze
Creates a place in my mind as I find it's too late
These thoughts are so fucked up, I gotta get some help
Leavin the pain behind, though my mind is fadin still
Tis unreal when I still can't figure it out
Not a noise don't matter, even if I scream and shout
Like lightnin' strikin down, on my worthless place
I'm cryin I'm cryin to you I'm just another disgrace
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin
Fightin, and what does it do
It tightens my knot to this noose
(Rap)
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
(Rap)
The very fibre of time, slowly, slippin my mind
The only, thing I claim mine, is safety, lost inside
And my life is right to those, extremely blind with twists
How could you ever want this? The fuckin shame to even exist?
You see, everything I ever said before
And all the things I said to adore
Pours oil and flames to my core
And you're sayin you want some more?!
Well then just fuck it,
Cause then all your hopes and dreams
Are so damn dead to me, my head's internal screams
My life's never where the grass is green
Die inside and I don't know why
Always lose sight in spite of bind
Sighs emptied on the stormy sky
Like lightnin strikes on the coldest night
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin
Fightin, and what does it do
It tightens my knot to this noose
(Rap)
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
(Vocals)
I'm... sick of feeling like this
I'm... sick of an unfulfilled wish
I've... been dieing inside for too long
Dieing without rights, you've just gone-so wrong
Making everything worth it,
Is not the perfect way.
I'm not strong-even on the surface,
But still have some to say.
Making everything worthless,
Is not the perfect way.
I'm not strong-even sometimes nervous
But I have strength to stay
(Vocals)
I'm not gonna face abuse
I'm not gonna neck this noose
I ain't no neglective fool
In the shed I'm the sharpest tool
I'm not gonna face abuse
I'm not gonna neck this noose
I'm not gonna be the neglective fool
In the shed I'm the sharpest tool
(Rap)
This is not out of, self admiration
This is not supposed, to trigger your impatience
These are my thoughts and everything around you
Leaving hurtful words from you that stick just like glue
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, just like, some titan
Fightin, over again just for you
When I should be tryin, to get loose
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, just like, some titan
Fightin, over again just for you
When I should be tryin, to get loose
(Rap)
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
Get loose from the noose of abuse!
All my life I've been tryin, to leave this frame
Moved astray by the fear, it won't be the same
But life changes makin way for an empty page
To step in, and take away our forgotten pain
But it's so damn hard, when it just isn't forgotten
Bleedin my vains dry until my body's rotten
Now I'm fightin hard just to keep me from stoppin
Like lookin in the dark - not knowin the problem
I might faint, life greys while I'm stuck in this maze
Creates a place in my mind as I find it's too late
These thoughts are so fucked up, I gotta get some help
Leavin the pain behind, though my mind is fadin still
Tis unreal when I still can't figure it out
Not a noise don't matter, even if I scream and shout
Like lightnin' strikin down, on my worthless place
I'm cryin I'm cryin to you I'm just another disgrace
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin
Fightin, and what does it do
It tightens my knot to this noose
(Rap)
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
(Rap)
The very fibre of time, slowly, slippin my mind
The only, thing I claim mine, is safety, lost inside
And my life is right to those, extremely blind with twists
How could you ever want this? The fuckin shame to even exist?
You see, everything I ever said before
And all the things I said to adore
Pours oil and flames to my core
And you're sayin you want some more?!
Well then just fuck it,
Cause then all your hopes and dreams
Are so damn dead to me, my head's internal screams
My life's never where the grass is green
Die inside and I don't know why
Always lose sight in spite of bind
Sighs emptied on the stormy sky
Like lightnin strikes on the coldest night
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin
Fightin, and what does it do
It tightens my knot to this noose
(Rap)
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
(Vocals)
I'm... sick of feeling like this
I'm... sick of an unfulfilled wish
I've... been dieing inside for too long
Dieing without rights, you've just gone-so wrong
Making everything worth it,
Is not the perfect way.
I'm not strong-even on the surface,
But still have some to say.
Making everything worthless,
Is not the perfect way.
I'm not strong-even sometimes nervous
But I have strength to stay
(Vocals)
I'm not gonna face abuse
I'm not gonna neck this noose
I ain't no neglective fool
In the shed I'm the sharpest tool
I'm not gonna face abuse
I'm not gonna neck this noose
I'm not gonna be the neglective fool
In the shed I'm the sharpest tool
(Rap)
This is not out of, self admiration
This is not supposed, to trigger your impatience
These are my thoughts and everything around you
Leaving hurtful words from you that stick just like glue
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, just like, some titan
Fightin, over again just for you
When I should be tryin, to get loose
Fightin, I'm fightin I'm fightin,
Fightin, just like, some titan
Fightin, over again just for you
When I should be tryin, to get loose
(Rap)
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
Abuse is not what I agreed
Abuse bein complimentary need
Abuse is what you've done to me
I choose to fight but not to bleed
Abuse is how I've been wronged
Escape has been for so long gone
Made me somethin I'm ashamed to be
I choosed to fight but hoped to leave
Get loose from the noose of abuse!