lets see if anyone else can get this right for me.

[mickmadethelist]

Well, seeing as how ive always turned to the scene for help like its my religion what the hell, lets see what everyone has to say.

Rewind to january. I live in CT, things with me and my mom have gone south. I rarely see her, and i dont want to. I start asking my boss for a transfer to chicago. I hope to be gone by febuary. My bday.

April-may. Still in CT. I break down. Im sick of my mom asking for my entire paycheck. At this point I manage my own store, so its a big paycheck. I go home 1 last time. feel unwelcome as hell. dont go back for months. I decide im leaving...transfer or not.

june. i ask my boss 1 last time for a transfer. He replies faster than im able to put my sidekick away. He isnt trying. I call my friend in chicago and say i know it will suck, but can i live with you on your couch until i get settled. she abliges. I pack up all my shit, ship it out (through the company haha), buy a 1 way train ticket. I have 1000 dollars. + 1 paycheck. anyone who has ever wanted to just pack up and leave...its easier than you think. at this point i hadent talked to my mom in months who i used to be close with and i have been sleeping on the floor of my store for days at a time. homeless sucks.

recent. ive been here a month. just after running out of money i get a job. The virgin megastore. not too shabby i must say. cant argue with free cds. overalll lonliness has started getting to me. all the friends i had here kinda disappeared. some cant hang out cuz they have boyfriends (which is fucking stupid), or just disappear. since i have a lack of friends getting an apartment is proving hard. Ive tried classifieds but for the price i may as well find a studio. which would be expensive anyway. but now i needa save up for an apartment downpayment and am pretty broke. bitchy roomate(not friend )wants me out like now. Im at my end. severe lack of friends or hope anymore. i dont know what im asking for. friends, roomates... or just answers. everyone says they would love to pack up and leave...i actually had the balls to do it and its not getting any easier.


ps. mom and i are no longer speaking. period.

[FondestMemory]

i up and left two days after i graduated high school. except i came to a place where i didn't know anybody. it's rough at first. especially if you suck at asking for help like i do.

but it's worth it to stick it out. getting the balls to leave is one thing, having the backbone to do what it takes to stay is the real test.

swallow your pride for a little bit. make sure everybody you work with knows your situation, you never know if they can, or know somebody who can help you out. check the papers and see if you can even just find a room in somebody's house for rent. even if you have to sleep in your car a few nights a week, don't give up.

[ForeverInADay]

That's a tough situation.

Stick it out though, I'm stil living at home in Toronto, but I want to leave desperately to the US.
I know I couldn't make it though, I can barely find a decent job in Toronto right now, and I've barely got any cash that isn't being spent on school or transportation.

I respect you for having the balls to up and leave though.

Tell someone at work about your situation and ask them if they know anyone or whatever that is looking for a room mate.
With regards to friends, you've got a new job so I'm sure it won't take much time before you're friends with everyone at the store.

[xvszero]

Hmm, Chicago.

If things were different you could probably come live out in the suburbs with my family for a bit.

But my sister and her husband and two babies moved in, so... no.

[we are cured]

Tough, man. everyone always complains about their town/city as the most boring place ever and wishes they could leave, but you actually had a legitimate reason.

My advice to you is to get involved in something you truly enjoy- for example, find a record label and intern for them a few nights a week so you can go to shows for free, and meet people that are into the same stuff as you. The only way you can make new friends that share your interests (or even ones that don't) is to put yourself in a position to meet them. It says sleep is for suckers under your name..so it shouldn't be that big of a deal if you're working full time and heading up to the label/venue/whatever afterwards. That way you're out of your friend's place more often and you can stay out of the bitchy roommate's way. And while it's easy to just sit around after work and sulk about how things have gone down, it's not much harder to get out there and put something meaningful in your life.

[Colin Farrell]

We are cured makes some good points, I say perhaps try something along those lines, good luck either way though dude, I think you can make it.

[mickmadethelist]

*UPDATE* I have looked into interning at a few labels, but most want some college class thing to do it. kinda lame but what can you do right? I have found a roomate and apartment which wont cost me a shitton of money as i previously thought i was going to spend. one of the managers is a dick but i told him if he talked to me like that again i would spin kick him across his face (yes..exact quote....it was all i could think of), so he pretty much leaves me alone now. last week i got 10 free cds....not too shabby. my apartment will be pretty big so i actually tyhink im going to take up screenprinting clothes and starting up my own buissness. Im trying to think of a theme. I need something iconic and im sooo fucking sick of guns, hearts, stars, etc. my favorite companies are paul frank and johnny cupcakes....so im trying to think along those lines without ripping them off. I wanna thank everyone who posted on here. this is why i love the scene...iev never met any of you and youre trying to help. anyways...the next step is furniture...but that is another adventure.


also...my roomate is badass. were going to build forts, and it was her idea. seriously.

[StartingLine182]

Im glad things picked up for you.

[ForeverInADay]

You told your manager that you'd spin kick him across the face, and you didn't get fired? haha Fucking so rad.
What 10 CD's did you get for free?

And congrats on things looking up, dude! I was planning on starting to look at internships at labels as well, what class did they say you needed?

[mikeford]

sell coke.

[mickmadethelist]

You told your manager that you'd spin kick him across the face, and you didn't get fired? haha Fucking so rad.
What 10 CD's did you get for free?

And congrats on things looking up, dude! I was planning on starting to look at internships at labels as well, what class did they say you needed?


I didnt get fired because noone likes this kid. the turnaround ratio is really bad there so they just wanted me to stay. well...we get new cds for free every tuesday..i picked up reissue of over it, billy talent, kaddisfly, ever we fall, head automatica, plain white t's, superman ST, zox, cartel (again) riverboat gamblers, greeley estates, rookie of the year, and alot more. also...i just picked up a job at hard rock cafe.

[mickmadethelist]

they didnt say class....they just wanted someone in college.