Emotional Issues.

[heartsick]

I'm not entirely sure what's wrong with me, but I (in general) am a very nice person. Seriously, and I'm not trying to make myself look better than anyone else, but I'm a happy person. I don't judge people or anything, and I keep an open mind on a lot of things.

But lately, I've been having a lot of mood swings. And no, it's not PMS. It's all the time now, and I don't know what's wrong. It's like I'm a completely different person towards the people I love. (ie. Friends, family .. and such.) I have no idea what's going on with me. I'm confused with everything.

My love life's been a mess this past month, and I don't know if it's going to last because I'm getting fed up with my own attitude. My boyfriend is an amazing guy, and I don't want to put him through this anymore, even though he's been sticking with me. I don't know how long it's going to last. My friends have been noticing this too, but it's hard to talk to them about it.

It's like, one second I'm laughing and having fun with people, but then if they say something randomly, I blow up and get angry. I try not to, but something in my stomach like rages and then I'm pissed off. Then I'll eventually calm down and regret what I've done. Usually it's saying nasty things, hurt people's feelings and such. I really don't like this about myself, and I can't help doing it. I say I'll stop, and I'll apoligize, but it just keeps coming.

I don't like being angry. I just want to be my calm and normal self again ... help?

Oh, and please don't make sarcastic or stupid comments.

[buysoap]

therapy doesn't help as much as everyone says it will. trust me. i only go to therapy so i can tell someone about all the tons of fucked up problems i have and then go back to the world where nobody knows anything about me.

but hey. it could just be my therapist. but you know what it might be? it could be you're just anti-social and you don't realize it.

[BridgesFolly]

Mood swings like this sounds like a possible either personality disorder or anxiety disorder. Before i was diagnosed with my anxiety disorder if people did something to make me upset instead of just blowing it off like i normally did I'd get really hot in the face and get pretty bitchy.

I mean, that may not be whats up with you, but if you have other anxiety disorder type symptoms i'd look it up.

on the other hand you could be bipolar, i know this guy i was dating at one point did the exact same thing to me all the time. We'd be fine and id say one wrong thing and he'd blow up and freakout on me untill i was on the verge of tears. after he'd cool down he'd apologize and say he really didnt mean to and said he tried not to freak out on me like that.


good luck dear.

[Juliana101]

Just try to work through it, people muscle through it.

[heartsick]

therapy doesn't help as much as everyone says it will. trust me. i only go to therapy so i can tell someone about all the tons of fucked up problems i have and then go back to the world where nobody knows anything about me.

but hey. it could just be my therapist. but you know what it might be? it could be you're just anti-social and you don't realize it.

I've always wanted to go to therapy. For the same reason you just said you went, to talk to somebody. I can't talk to anyone and open myself completely to anyone. The only one that I almost open up entirely too is my boyfriend. But who can I talk to if I have troubles with him? And I still have problems telling him issues I'm having mentally because I don't want him telling me that it's nothing, or I'm overeating, because frankly that's not the solution I want to hear. Atleast with my therapist it's completely confidental and I won't have trouble talking to them with fear of rejection because I barely know the person as it is.

And the fact is, I'm afraid to ask my Mom about it because she's going to think I'm a complete nut. It's really complicated, but yeah. Life sucks.

[ForeverInADay]

This is completely unrelated to anything in this thread, but where in Ontario?

[BridgesFolly]

This is completely unrelated to anything in this thread, but where in Ontario?

California. :giverose:

[heartsick]

Mood swings like this sounds like a possible either personality disorder or anxiety disorder. Before i was diagnosed with my anxiety disorder if people did something to make me upset instead of just blowing it off like i normally did I'd get really hot in the face and get pretty bitchy.

I mean, that may not be whats up with you, but if you have other anxiety disorder type symptoms i'd look it up.

on the other hand you could be bipolar, i know this guy i was dating at one point did the exact same thing to me all the time. We'd be fine and id say one wrong thing and he'd blow up and freakout on me untill i was on the verge of tears. after he'd cool down he'd apologize and say he really didnt mean to and said he tried not to freak out on me like that.


good luck dear.

I guess I'll have to look something up, just to see what I might have. But it will be hard to diagnose myself with a disorder without a professional, you know? But I will try, and thanks for the advice, hopefully I can feel less uneasy about the whole thing afterwards.

[ForeverInADay]

California.
Isn't Ontario, California just a city?

[BridgesFolly]

Isn't Ontario, California just a city?

i believe so.

[ForeverInADay]

i believe so.
Let's go and find out?

[heartsick]

This is completely unrelated to anything in this thread, but where in Ontario?

Ottawa.

[BridgesFolly]

Let's go and find out?

:-) i'd love to

[ForeverInADay]

I've always wanted to go to therapy. For the same reason you just said you went, to talk to somebody. I can't talk to anyone and open myself completely to anyone. The only one that I almost open up entirely too is my boyfriend. But who can I talk to if I have troubles with him? And I still have problems telling him issues I'm having mentally because I don't want him telling me that it's nothing, or I'm overeating, because frankly that's not the solution I want to hear. Atleast with my therapist it's completely confidental and I won't have trouble talking to them with fear of rejection because I barely know the person as it is.

And the fact is, I'm afraid to ask my Mom about it because she's going to think I'm a complete nut. It's really complicated, but yeah. Life sucks.
You should talk to your mom about it regardless if she'll think you're a complete psycho or not. Chances are, she'll understand where you're coming and try to do anything she can to help you get through it, whether that be trying to get you to open up with her or getting you a therapist.

I mean, you are her daughter and all, how badly could she react?

[ForeverInADay]

Ottawa.
Awesome, Ottawa's a great city. Quebec being so close by is probably another bonus.

You were way off with your California talk, Lexi.

[ForeverInADay]

:-) i'd love to
YAY! I got me a date.
I bet Ontario, Cal. is a bum town and nothing at all like San Diego or San Fran.

[BridgesFolly]

Awesome, Ottawa's a great city. Quebec being so close by is probably another bonus.

You were way off with your California talk, Lexi.

i googled it. there is a place in california, look it up sweetheart.

[BridgesFolly]

YAY! I got me a date.
I bet Ontario, Cal. is a bum town and nothing at all like San Diego or San Fran.

your probably right. Lets go somewhere more romantic.

[ForeverInADay]

i googled it. there is a place in california, look it up sweetheart.
Haha, I know there's a place in California called Ontario. :-)

[ForeverInADay]

your probably right. Lets go somewhere more romantic.
Compton?

[heartsick]

You should talk to your mom about it regardless if she'll think you're a complete psycho or not. Chances are, she'll understand where you're coming and try to do anything she can to help you get through it, whether that be trying to get you to open up with her or getting you a therapist.

I mean, you are her daughter and all, how badly could she react?

The thing is, I never speak to my Mother about stuff like this. I rarely speak with my Mother at all. If I ever struck a conversation with her like this, it would go along the lines of her giving me like a, "Wow, you're crazy" look, with the following words, "You're just growing up, it'll blow over."

I don't have the heart in telling her everything, because I know she will be asking me what's wrong, and that I should talk to her about it.

But really, I don't feel comfortable talking to my Mom or my Dad about these things, it's way too embarassing, plus I don't know, I just can't. Rather a complete stranger, as sad as that sounds.

[BridgesFolly]

Compton?


compton california?

[heartsick]

Awesome, Ottawa's a great city. Quebec being so close by is probably another bonus.

You were way off with your California talk, Lexi.

I'd rather live in a bigger city though, but Ottawa's okay. I don't mind it, even though there's been a lot more violence over the years. I plan to more to Toronto or New York when I'm older, haha.

[ForeverInADay]

The thing is, I never speak to my Mother about stuff like this. I rarely speak with my Mother at all. If I ever struck a conversation with her like this, it would go along the lines of her giving me like a, "Wow, you're crazy" look, with the following words, "You're just growing up, it'll blow over."

I don't have the heart in telling her everything, because I know she will be asking me what's wrong, and that I should talk to her about it.

But really, I don't feel comfortable talking to my Mom or my Dad about these things, it's way too embarassing, plus I don't know, I just can't. Rather a complete stranger, as sad as that sounds.

Yeah, I totally understand what you mean. But if you actually think you need a therapist, then you've got to go about telling one of your parents that you feel like you need it, or at least want to try it and see if it's helping you or what not.
I've never been to therapy or been prescribed drugs or anything, so I can't really give you any solid advice on what you should actually do..

But just talk to your mom or dad, I'm sure they'd understand. They're your parents. They may not really be fond of the idea at first, but if you're persistant then they'll see that you're not just fucking around.

[BridgesFolly]

The thing is, I never speak to my Mother about stuff like this. I rarely speak with my Mother at all. If I ever struck a conversation with her like this, it would go along the lines of her giving me like a, "Wow, you're crazy" look, with the following words, "You're just growing up, it'll blow over."

I don't have the heart in telling her everything, because I know she will be asking me what's wrong, and that I should talk to her about it.

But really, I don't feel comfortable talking to my Mom or my Dad about these things, it's way too embarassing, plus I don't know, I just can't. Rather a complete stranger, as sad as that sounds.


honey believe it or not your best bet is to tell your parents. Your parents do love you and will help you, you just need to put faith in them.

[ForeverInADay]

compton california?
Yeah, but fuck that I changed my mind.

Let's go to Switzerland or New Zeland. Word?

[ForeverInADay]

I'd rather live in a bigger city though, but Ottawa's okay. I don't mind it, even though there's been a lot more violence over the years. I plan to more to Toronto or New York when I'm older, haha.
Toronto's not that great of a city... There are a shit load of douchebags and morons who flood into the streets, and there's not much to do if you don't have money which is pretty lame. haha

[BridgesFolly]

Yeah, but fuck that I changed my mind.

Let's go to Switzerland or New Zeland. Word?


that would be amazing. Honestly, if you'd want to go i'd even buy your ticket.

[ForeverInADay]

that would be amazing. Honestly, if you'd want to go i'd even buy your ticket.
I wish so much that you were being 100% serious with that. hahahahaha

I've always wanted to go to both of those countries.

[BridgesFolly]

I wish so much that you were being 100% serious with that. hahahahaha

I've always wanted to go to both of those countries.

im about 98.99% serious. I've always wanted to travel the world

[AlyssaAsthenia]

Mood swings like this sounds like a possible either personality disorder or anxiety disorder. Before i was diagnosed with my anxiety disorder if people did something to make me upset instead of just blowing it off like i normally did I'd get really hot in the face and get pretty bitchy.

I mean, that may not be whats up with you, but if you have other anxiety disorder type symptoms i'd look it up.

on the other hand you could be bipolar, i know this guy i was dating at one point did the exact same thing to me all the time. We'd be fine and id say one wrong thing and he'd blow up and freakout on me untill i was on the verge of tears. after he'd cool down he'd apologize and say he really didnt mean to and said he tried not to freak out on me like that.


good luck dear.
I was just diagnosed with aniexty disorder...
:(

I was like... not myself at all for a few weeks
And I was having panic attacks.
I'm afraid to go to therapy
hahaha.

[XxLoVeLy4UxX]

okay i have some big boy problems: my "friend" (lets call her K) just got out of a relationship with this guy (lets call him J) he is in ninth grade and K is in 8th. well i have known J since forever and i developed a crush on him over the summer and in band class this year K said "J is fat" "J is ugly" well since J is my best friend i told him what she said. homecoming was coming up and J was going with one of K's friends. k said "I won't break up with J till either after homecoming or after my b-day" i got nervous and told J. i know i was a bad friend to K but J needed to know. After they broke up i realized my real feelings for J so i confided in K. she was mad. i didn't understand this. she hated him when they were dating and now she put a claim on him? i feel bad for K but then again do i ignore my feelings. also J told me that K is trying to ruin me by telling kids at the high school that i am a slut and stuff. who do i believe?
thank you
morgan

[BridgesFolly]

okay i have some big boy problems: my "friend" (lets call her K) just got out of a relationship with this guy (lets call him J) he is in ninth grade and K is in 8th. well i have known J since forever and i developed a crush on him over the summer and in band class this year K said "J is fat" "J is ugly" well since J is my best friend i told him what she said. homecoming was coming up and J was going with one of K's friends. k said "I won't break up with J till either after homecoming or after my b-day" i got nervous and told J. i know i was a bad friend to K but J needed to know. After they broke up i realized my real feelings for J so i confided in K. she was mad. i didn't understand this. she hated him when they were dating and now she put a claim on him? i feel bad for K but then again do i ignore my feelings. also J told me that K is trying to ruin me by telling kids at the high school that i am a slut and stuff. who do i believe?
thank you
morgan


oh my god.

[ForeverInADay]

okay i have some big boy problems: my "friend" (lets call her K) just got out of a relationship with this guy (lets call him J) he is in ninth grade and K is in 8th. well i have known J since forever and i developed a crush on him over the summer and in band class this year K said "J is fat" "J is ugly" well since J is my best friend i told him what she said. homecoming was coming up and J was going with one of K's friends. k said "I won't break up with J till either after homecoming or after my b-day" i got nervous and told J. i know i was a bad friend to K but J needed to know. After they broke up i realized my real feelings for J so i confided in K. she was mad. i didn't understand this. she hated him when they were dating and now she put a claim on him? i feel bad for K but then again do i ignore my feelings. also J told me that K is trying to ruin me by telling kids at the high school that i am a slut and stuff. who do i believe?
thank you
morgan
Well Morgan, that's a pretty shitty thing to do and it seems as though you're going to go through life as being a huge slut. The best thing you can do is realize you're fucking 14 and none of this matters.

[BridgesFolly]

Well Morgan, that's a pretty shitty thing to do and it seems as though you're going to go through life as being a huge slut. The best thing you can do is realize you're fucking 14 and none of this matters.

took the words right from my lips.
i was sort of dumbfounded at her stupidity there for a moment and couldnt quite get them out.

[XxLoVeLy4UxX]

erm....thanks i am not a slut first of all

[Juliana101]

erm....thanks i am not a slut first of all

Your name makes me want to die.

[concernedparent]

I'm not entirely sure what's wrong with me, but I (in general) am a very nice person. Seriously, and I'm not trying to make myself look better than anyone else, but I'm a happy person. I don't judge people or anything, and I keep an open mind on a lot of things.

But lately, I've been having a lot of mood swings. And no, it's not PMS. It's all the time now, and I don't know what's wrong. It's like I'm a completely different person towards the people I love. (ie. Friends, family .. and such.) I have no idea what's going on with me. I'm confused with everything.

My love life's been a mess this past month, and I don't know if it's going to last because I'm getting fed up with my own attitude. My boyfriend is an amazing guy, and I don't want to put him through this anymore, even though he's been sticking with me. I don't know how long it's going to last. My friends have been noticing this too, but it's hard to talk to them about it.

It's like, one second I'm laughing and having fun with people, but then if they say something randomly, I blow up and get angry. I try not to, but something in my stomach like rages and then I'm pissed off. Then I'll eventually calm down and regret what I've done. Usually it's saying nasty things, hurt people's feelings and such. I really don't like this about myself, and I can't help doing it. I say I'll stop, and I'll apoligize, but it just keeps coming.

I don't like being angry. I just want to be my calm and normal self again ... help?

Oh, and please don't make sarcastic or stupid comments.
You could have a brain tumor, seriously.

[XxLoVeLy4UxX]

Your name makes me want to die.
ok then

[ForeverInADay]

erm....thanks i am not a slut first of all
No, not yet you're not.
But what you did makes it seem like there will be a lot of whore-ish adventures in your future.

[mixTape.romance]

before you go dumping your boyfriend, I would talk to him and see if he really cares that much.

other than that, I have no idea what you should do. Maybe see a therapist or counseler? I've been to them, and it really helps. I highly reccomend that.

[mixTape.romance]

erm....thanks i am not a slut first of all

are you some very naive fangirl? 'cause it sure as hell seems like it. fourteen-year-olds.

[XxLoVeLy4UxX]

ok then thanks im not a slut ask any of my friends and again i am a kiss virgin and a virgin in general so don't call me a whore