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[punklet2101]

"The Pain Of Me"

I can remember when I last cried out loud
Disease-ridden feeling; shame ceased the sound
Wasn’t aware you could crave it or love
As we didn’t love feeling ‘till our hearts were numb

And the pain is my pleasure -
Stinging sensation -
Sick realisation -
That I’ve done it again

I’ve done it again
I’ve done it again
“You’ve done it again!” -

The angry eyes,
Detecting the lies
Don’t want to understand -

What’s hidden by my hand
Reinforcing the pain -
I did it again

Remember the time when we loved each other?
When I was your daughter and you were my mother?
But the pain in me is too strong and I’m lost
What’s my life wasted, tell me, what is the cost?

Reinforce the pain of me,
And life of teenage drear
Worthless counting and worthless keeping -
Don’t bother shed your tears

Reinforce the life of me,
Worthless for so long
My life: to this place; and to you -
Sixteen years gone wrong.


Second thing .. not good or anything .. but oh well. parts of it probably don't work at all but yeh im not really gonna fix it. so here you go:

(dont have a title)

broke open my razor
i wanted the blade
what will i do now?
i'm so full of shame

looking up at the sky
my world turns blood red
all that i see are
constant reminders

knife from the kitchen draw,
a temporary release
and it's getting hot now,
i must wear long sleeves

* what will become of this?
permanent scars, are here on my heart
traintracks on my wrist. *

i know you've seen them now,
because i saw you crying
i breathed you in today
you're honestly killing me

you know it's all their fault,
they handed me the knife
invited me to cut
please take me away

your eyes intoxicate,
you rip me apart.
your love's impossible,
you tread on my heart.

* what will become of this?
permanent scars, are here on my heart
traintracks on my wrist. *



So yeah, that's all I have at the moment .. first time ive ever written stuff so i dunno how bad it is

[punklet2101]

here's more .. i dont write good, but i suppose that's not the important thing ( ? ) comment though if you want .. id like to hear what everyone is thinking .. :/

create more scars,
you say goodbye.
dont take my tears;
just let them dry.

my skin is bleeding
and my heart so weak,
I stay up all night
and painfully weep.

you said you'd be here,
but where are you now?
i close my eyes and see you,
but you're nowhere to be found.
saturday night, and you left me all alone
to die in this place;
my so-called home.

you dont know how
much i love you.
you say you love me,
but they do too.

just please don't say
that you're sorry
because i deserve
the pain that's me

you make me
you break me
seems so unkind.

you're coming
you're going
please make up your mind.

you're leaving,
you're staying,
don't leave me behind.