This is my therapy

[The Nephilm]

I've gone through so many shitty things in my life in the past few months, and to cope with the pain that I have been feeling I've been writing.... i have a word pad document that is 120 pages long... this is a small portion of some things in there.... i'm sharing it with you because I need to share it with someone... and there is no one in my immediate presence that I feel comfortable enough with to show them...

I could scream a scream to end all tears
A haunted voice of misery
Listen close and you shall hear
An empty shattered soul
Omnipotence replaced by fear
A dark shroud surrounds me
Malevolence is now my dear
And yet I have to reason

A latent life fell from the sky
It burned a hole through seven eyes
Wings dissipate without air.

What force of wind blew the cloud
That blocked the vine of light
Or was a seed even to be found
To grace my life that night

A latent life fell from the sky
It burned a hole through seven eyes
Shadows still remain.

Watch it fall like snow, a thing of beauty, a bride in black.
Sip like wine, in moderation. But hide your eyes, never let it back.

[The Nephilm]

oh and whoever notices the biblical references gets a cookie.

[sigh]

have u read the da vinci code? good book.

[theused_FSF]

Originally posted by The Nephilm
oh and whoever notices the biblical references gets a cookie.


seven eyes, the number seven, bible reference


where's my cookie

[The Nephilm]

Originally posted by theused_FSF
seven eyes, the number seven, bible reference


where's my cookie

meh.... not really... there is a much more apparent one....

[sigh]

i have a hunch it has something to do with the wine

[theused_FSF]

wasnt jesus a wine maker?

[Doolittle]

i think he was a carpenter

[theused_FSF]

ohh ok

[neb nawoc]

Originally posted by The Nephilm
I've gone through so many shitty things in my life in the past few months, and to cope with the pain that I have been feeling I've been writing.... i have a word pad document that is 120 pages long... this is a small portion of some things in there....

Is the whole 120 pages poetry and/or songs? and how come you chose to use word pad, and not just word? im just curious.

[lollirot]

I like it.

[neb nawoc]

possible biblical references:

omnipotence or latent life fell from the sky could be a jesus thing.

[The Nephilm]

Originally posted by neb nawoc
Is the whole 120 pages poetry and/or songs? and how come you chose to use word pad, and not just word? im just curious.

121 pages of poetry now...

and yea i guess it is in word...
however this is the only one i'm sharing with anyone... the others are way to personal.

[BleedingMe]

Hey man, I know how you feel. My life has been shit since I was born. Just when things seem better, something really shitty happens. Thats life I guess.

[The Nephilm]

Originally posted by neb nawoc
possible biblical references:

omnipotence or latent life fell from the sky could be a jesus thing.

incorrect....

[charly horse]

Originally posted by theused_FSF
wasnt jesus a wine maker?
he turned his blood into wine

[charly horse]

Watch it fall like snow, a thing of beauty, a bride in black.
Sip like wine, in moderation. But hide your eyes, never let it back.?

[Suprhatch614]

Originally posted by amberb182
Hey man, I know how you feel. My life has been shit since I was born. Just when things seem better, something really shitty happens. Thats life I guess.


I'm not trying to be an ass here, but really how bad can you have it...you probably live in some suburb in Ohio, with your parents and their minivan with your dog, you're parents get mad when you get a c on your report card, you hate it when you don't have warm water for your shower, and when you have to pay for your own gas on your car....ok this may be a little extreme, but the idea i'm getting at is so many people think there life is so shitty...if you're life is so shitty....quit crying and bitching about it and do something to change it

[ifeelused]

Originally posted by Suprhatch614
I'm not trying to be an ass here, but really how bad can you have it...you probably live in some suburb in Ohio, with your parents and their minivan with your dog, you're parents get mad when you get a c on your report card, you hate it when you don't have warm water for your shower, and when you have to pay for your own gas on your car....ok this may be a little extreme, but the idea i'm getting at is so many people think there life is so shitty...if you're life is so shitty....quit crying and bitching about it and do something to change it

good job.. just what i was thinking

[charly horse]

Originally posted by Suprhatch614
I'm not trying to be an ass here, but really how bad can you have it...you probably live in some suburb in Ohio, with your parents and their minivan with your dog, you're parents get mad when you get a c on your report card, you hate it when you don't have warm water for your shower, and when you have to pay for your own gas on your car....ok this may be a little extreme, but the idea i'm getting at is so many people think there life is so shitty...if you're life is so shitty....quit crying and bitching about it and do something to change it

can i have your babies? of course after i have the_grey_race's

[Suprhatch614]

Originally posted by alsublimereject
can i have your babies? of course after i have the_grey_race's

Well that depends...is your lack of pubic hair by choice, or cuz puberty hasn't quite caught you yet?

[BleedingMe]

Originally posted by Suprhatch614
I'm not trying to be an ass here, but really how bad can you have it...you probably live in some suburb in Ohio, with your parents and their minivan with your dog, you're parents get mad when you get a c on your report card, you hate it when you don't have warm water for your shower, and when you have to pay for your own gas on your car....ok this may be a little extreme, but the idea i'm getting at is so many people think there life is so shitty...if you're life is so shitty....quit crying and bitching about it and do something to change it

I appriciate you not being an ass, but you know shit about me. Columbus is a decent-sized city, its not all suburb. (Not bitching or complaining) - Try having your parents divorcing when your 4, then going through endless custody battles. Try having a drug addict/ drunken mother who would rather buy drugs than buy her kids food. Try having a father who took you to some small hick town where you couldn't see anybody in your family for 4yrs. Then to top it all off, having a bitch step-mother who hits your little brother and totally turns your dad against you. Then moving back in with your mother whom you haven't even talked to in 4yrs and trying to rebuild a relationship. I have to go to a new school next year, and its my senior year, I don't get to finish with my friends. I just moved back to the city in May. My dad hasn't even given me my clothes, he told me not to call his house again. My dad chose some bitch over his kids. My older brother ran to the military to get away from it all. Luckily, my aunts bought me clothes. I am fixing it, I'll be the first one out of my entire family to go to college. Ohio has some massive ghettos! Tyr living in one where people do drive-bys every night!

[charly horse]

Originally posted by Suprhatch614
Well that depends...is your lack of pubic hair by choice, or cuz puberty hasn't quite caught you yet?

choice defantly . . .

[OscarMurder]

Originally posted by amberb182
I appriciate you not being an ass, but you know shit about me. Columbus is a decent-sized city, its not all suburb. (Not bitching or complaining) - Try having your parents divorcing when your 4, then going through endless custody battles. Try having a drug addict/ drunken mother who would rather buy drugs than buy her kids food. Try having a father who took you to some small hick town where you couldn't see anybody in your family for 4yrs. Then to top it all off, having a bitch step-mother who hits your little brother and totally turns your dad against you. Then moving back in with your mother whom you haven't even talked to in 4yrs and trying to rebuild a relationship. I have to go to a new school next year, and its my senior year, I don't get to finish with my friends. I just moved back to the city in May. My dad hasn't even given me my clothes, he told me not to call his house again. My dad chose some bitch over his kids. My older brother ran to the military to get away from it all. Luckily, my aunts bought me clothes. I am fixing it, I'll be the first one out of my entire family to go to college. Ohio has some massive ghettos! Tyr living in one where people do drive-bys every night!



shed a tear emo kid

[Suprhatch614]

well i'm not going to argue with you...that does suck

[Suprhatch614]

Originally posted by alsublimereject
choice defantly . . .


Damnit...you're way to old for me....I'm 20 and i like to dominate....little girls are easy to dominate...





















wow i'm going to hell

[BleedingMe]

Originally posted by Suprhatch614
well i'm not going to argue with you...that does suck


Yeah, it does, but I still have fun. I have cool friends who like the same music as me and have the same problems I do. All I have to say is... I'm gettin' the fuck out of OH!

[OscarMurder]

Originally posted by Suprhatch614
Damnit...you're way to old for me....I'm 20 and i like to dominate....little girls are easy to dominate...








wow i'm going to hell



lmao now i wanna have your babies

[charly horse]

it sucks but mostly everyone goes through that shit . . . i dont think you can find many people who havent had some shit go on in their life... in your case its just lasted longer . . . i know that my parents divorced when i was 2 and i didnt even remember my dad until he came back into my life when i was 5 or 6 . . then last yr my mom finally told me why my dad and her got divorced and i was cuz he did coke . . and well now he does it again . . my step mom is totally cool and i have a little brother down in sc with him and he's doing coke again . . . its total crap and my mom is a bitch and so is my step dad . . . . but yea . . IM ONE HAPPY MOTHERFUCKER!

[BleedingMe]

Originally posted by alsublimereject
it sucks but mostly everyone goes through that shit . . . i dont think you can find many people who havent had some shit go on in their life... in your case its just lasted longer . . . i know that my parents divorced when i was 2 and i didnt even remember my dad until he came back into my life when i was 5 or 6 . . then last yr my mom finally told me why my dad and her got divorced and i was cuz he did coke . . and well now he does it again . . my step mom is totally cool and i have a little brother down in sc with him and he's doing coke again . . . its total crap and my mom is a bitch and so is my step dad . . . . but yea . . IM ONE HAPPY MOTHERFUCKER!


My step-mom is an ex-cokehead. Life is great though, theres lots of things to live for. I love to go to concerts, that makes me happy.

[ifeelused]

Originally posted by amberb182
I appriciate you not being an ass, but you know shit about me. Columbus is a decent-sized city, its not all suburb. (Not bitching or complaining) - Try having your parents divorcing when your 4, then going through endless custody battles. Try having a drug addict/ drunken mother who would rather buy drugs than buy her kids food. Try having a father who took you to some small hick town where you couldn't see anybody in your family for 4yrs. Then to top it all off, having a bitch step-mother who hits your little brother and totally turns your dad against you. Then moving back in with your mother whom you haven't even talked to in 4yrs and trying to rebuild a relationship. I have to go to a new school next year, and its my senior year, I don't get to finish with my friends. I just moved back to the city in May. My dad hasn't even given me my clothes, he told me not to call his house again. My dad chose some bitch over his kids. My older brother ran to the military to get away from it all. Luckily, my aunts bought me clothes. I am fixing it, I'll be the first one out of my entire family to go to college. Ohio has some massive ghettos! Tyr living in one where people do drive-bys every night!

*tear*

[SnowintheSummer]

wow. that is really fucking good! im dead serious, thats amazing. you should submit it to magazines and shit, get some money off it, bet you could. or start a band and use it for lyrics lol. its really, really amazing though. the imagery...its.. sooooo amazing, i cant find words. i looked at it again trying to find an example of my favorite but then i was like fuck, theyre all amazing. but ill say bride in black because its last and really, really good.

[The Nephilm]

Originally posted by SnowintheSummer
wow. that is really fucking good! im dead serious, thats amazing. you should submit it to magazines and shit, get some money off it, bet you could. or start a band and use it for lyrics lol. its really, really amazing though. the imagery...its.. sooooo amazing, i cant find words. i looked at it again trying to find an example of my favorite but then i was like fuck, theyre all amazing. but ill say bride in black because its last and really, really good.

it's not for everyone but for those who understand, i thank you.

[the1spaz]

Originally posted by The Nephilm
I've gone through so many shitty things in my life in the past few months, and to cope with the pain that I have been feeling I've been writing.... i have a word pad document that is 120 pages long... this is a small portion of some things in there.... i'm sharing it with you because I need to share it with someone... and there is no one in my immediate presence that I feel comfortable enough with to show them...

I could scream a scream to end all tears
A haunted voice of misery
Listen close and you shall hear
An empty shattered soul
Omnipotence replaced by fear
A dark shroud surrounds me
Malevolence is now my dear
And yet I have to reason

A latent life fell from the sky
It burned a hole through seven eyes
Wings dissipate without air.

What force of wind blew the cloud
That blocked the vine of light
Or was a seed even to be found
To grace my life that night

A latent life fell from the sky
It burned a hole through seven eyes
Shadows still remain.

Watch it fall like snow, a thing of beauty, a bride in black.
Sip like wine, in moderation. But hide your eyes, never let it back.

i quite liked it....very good keep writing dude...i also find it as a outlet

[MaybeOneDay]

yeah neph, good fucking job. you've got some serious writing skills. keep it up. good therapy.