afraid to love...

[ohreak gurl 08]

Need for love but afraid to have it


Thoughts of understanding
Rendering to the mind
Afraid to be felt
But more afraid to be left behind

Not wanting what I need
I push away willingly
I'm ignorant in doing so
Because inside it's killing me

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Thoughts of you


The lamp glow seems to fade
The cool wind blows
Thoughts of you drift through my head
But no one ever knows.

You haunt my dreams willingly
With the simplest of ease
Toying with my dreams
Coming and going as you please.

To love me is one thing
But to toy with my heart is different
You tore my heart into oblivion
And that's what i deeply resent.