Greg
12/01/06, 11:10 PM
this belongs on a livejournal... but i dont care
anyways, here goes, this is what is bugging me.
basically a guy from my church became a really good friend of mine. people around here would say he was my leader at the church. you could also use friend/mentor/counselor/etc. basically he helped me get through a ton of crap. more than i want to get into with this post. but basically he was the freaking man. and we would see each other 4 times a week usually and we always had good times. we had been through a lot together. we were great friends for just over 2 years.
during one point i was having a hard time. i think it was a couple months after my brother had died and it was the 6th year since my dad died. and i was just feeling really down. and (this is so cliche im sorry haha) i put the lyrics to Boulevard of Broken Dreams in my AIM away message. more importantly i had the words... "sometimes i wish someone out there will find me." in there.... and he responded "cliche line of encouragement then 'consider yourself found brother' " and 3 months later he quit his job at the church.
which would be fine. you dont have to have to same job forever. but when he quit... he deleted his AIM (he told us this himself), only appeared at a few grad parties in June, and wasn't seen again until new years eve when he had us over for a lil visit. then he disappeared again. he randomly hung out with us in late May. then in early June i got a call from him which involved "hey man. can you watch my dog tomorrow?" which honestly i would have done but i was going to FLorida the next day. but looking back... it really bothered me the only time he had called me in a year was to watch his dog.
now you may be thinking... "well Greg, did you try calling him?" the answer is: yes. many times with never getting a return call. i even tried email to no success.
and all this is constantly on my mind the past month or more. for various reasons. and then tonight i was watching videos of all the times we have spent together. i am just so bummed out right now. i try to figure out how someone i repsected and admired and loved so much could just walk away from me. i'm not saying it was easy for him.... but damn man, freaking respond to your emails atleast.
i don't know what to do. sorry for this being so freaking long. i just needed to get it out. i think i'm going to call him tomorrow. and just try to forget that he walked away. try to mend things. i don't know.
anyways, here goes, this is what is bugging me.
basically a guy from my church became a really good friend of mine. people around here would say he was my leader at the church. you could also use friend/mentor/counselor/etc. basically he helped me get through a ton of crap. more than i want to get into with this post. but basically he was the freaking man. and we would see each other 4 times a week usually and we always had good times. we had been through a lot together. we were great friends for just over 2 years.
during one point i was having a hard time. i think it was a couple months after my brother had died and it was the 6th year since my dad died. and i was just feeling really down. and (this is so cliche im sorry haha) i put the lyrics to Boulevard of Broken Dreams in my AIM away message. more importantly i had the words... "sometimes i wish someone out there will find me." in there.... and he responded "cliche line of encouragement then 'consider yourself found brother' " and 3 months later he quit his job at the church.
which would be fine. you dont have to have to same job forever. but when he quit... he deleted his AIM (he told us this himself), only appeared at a few grad parties in June, and wasn't seen again until new years eve when he had us over for a lil visit. then he disappeared again. he randomly hung out with us in late May. then in early June i got a call from him which involved "hey man. can you watch my dog tomorrow?" which honestly i would have done but i was going to FLorida the next day. but looking back... it really bothered me the only time he had called me in a year was to watch his dog.
now you may be thinking... "well Greg, did you try calling him?" the answer is: yes. many times with never getting a return call. i even tried email to no success.
and all this is constantly on my mind the past month or more. for various reasons. and then tonight i was watching videos of all the times we have spent together. i am just so bummed out right now. i try to figure out how someone i repsected and admired and loved so much could just walk away from me. i'm not saying it was easy for him.... but damn man, freaking respond to your emails atleast.
i don't know what to do. sorry for this being so freaking long. i just needed to get it out. i think i'm going to call him tomorrow. and just try to forget that he walked away. try to mend things. i don't know.