I really don't know where my head's at.

[CLAPSAYsike]

I tried to fit in, a lot. I always have. 2 months until I am 18, on my last year of high school. I tried all this time to be something bigger, to be well known, well liked, for a long time, I just wanted to make a name for myself. And all I ended up with was a bad reputation, if even that. I feel like no one really knows me still. But I don’t care, because I had fun doing it. And even though I never got recognized like I wanted, I’m still happy, and I’m leaving this city real soon.

High school was supposed to be me getting another chance to be someone. To be important and leave my mark. I’m moving more and more towards the end, and I’m okay knowing that I never got what I wanted.

I know everyone thinks that they don’t belong, but I’m starting to think I’ll never really fit in anywhere.

There are so many people out there I love and never told. Who changed me so much and don’t even know it. Who I never got to kiss twice, or even once. I know there is one person who I will never get to tell them how I really feel about them. I hate knowing I will be leaving them soon.

I don't wash my jeans. I don't iron my shirts. I bite my nails and play with my hair when I’m nervous.

I keep it real. Ask for my number, and holler at a player if you’re ever in the 262.

[atticus1492]

Uh, cool?

[burnsobright]

ily ryssa

[chelseatine]

this was weird.

[chelseatine]

highschool is kinda sucky though.

[CLAPSAYsike]

ily ryssa
ilyboo

this was weird.
I was just venting. How is that weird?

[llwilliamsll]

i'm so lost

[chelseatine]

ilyboo


I was just venting. How is that weird?

it was just kinda random... I didn't really get whatever it was you were trying to say with all of that. You should tell the people you love you love them, and i wouldn't try meeting random people off the internet when you havn't been here but for a little while haha.

[CLAPSAYsike]

it was just kinda random... I didn't really get whatever it was you were trying to say with all of that. You should tell the people you love you love them, and i wouldn't try meeting random people off the internet when you havn't been here but for a little while haha.
Point was - I have no direction in life. Little sense of self.
How am I trying to meet random people off the internet?

[and we whisper]

with two months left, do what you want to do. you'll never see those people again after two months. do anything you've ever been scared to do with those people you have spent your whole life with. two months and they're gone. keep on keepin it real.

[thatwasamoment]

You took high school too seriously.

[chelseatine]

I tried to fit in, a lot. I always have. 2 months until I am 18, on my last year of high school. I tried all this time to be something bigger, to be well known, well liked, for a long time, I just wanted to make a name for myself. And all I ended up with was a bad reputation, if even that. I feel like no one really knows me still. But I don’t care, because I had fun doing it. And even though I never got recognized like I wanted, I’m still happy, and I’m leaving this city real soon.

High school was supposed to be me getting another chance to be someone. To be important and leave my mark. I’m moving more and more towards the end, and I’m okay knowing that I never got what I wanted.

I know everyone thinks that they don’t belong, but I’m starting to think I’ll never really fit in anywhere.

There are so many people out there I love and never told. Who changed me so much and don’t even know it. Who I never got to kiss twice, or even once. I know there is one person who I will never get to tell them how I really feel about them. I hate knowing I will be leaving them soon.

I don't wash my jeans. I don't iron my shirts. I bite my nails and play with my hair when I’m nervous.

I keep it real. Ask for my number, and holler at a player if you’re ever in the 262.


i just figured that was what you meant.

[CLAPSAYsike]

You took high school too seriously.
I didn't take high school too seriously. At all.

i just figured that was what you meant.
I didn't mean that as "hey, cool. who wants in my pants." or anything.
There's a lot of cool people on AP, people I wouldn't mind hanging out with.

[Hot Damn]

what about the 414?

[CLAPSAYsike]

what about the 414?
That too!

[thatwasamoment]

I didn't take high school too seriously. At all.
I tried to fit in, a lot. I always have. 2 months until I am 18, on my last year of high school. I tried all this time to be something bigger, to be well known, well liked, for a long time, I just wanted to make a name for myself. And all I ended up with was a bad reputation, if even that.

[CLAPSAYsike]

I tried to fit in, a lot. I always have. 2 months until I am 18, on my last year of high school. I tried all this time to be something bigger, to be well known, well liked, for a long time, I just wanted to make a name for myself. And all I ended up with was a bad reputation, if even that.
I guess I meant amongst friends, friends of friends, etc.

I don't know, I really don't. ++ I was just venting. You don't need to criticize me.

[*crying stars*]

High school isn't the high point of your life; that's what people are missing.

[swirlofhues]

er, i don't know. it's not that big of a deal. high school is so boring, i'm surprised people still care about being popular after middle school. anyway, i see senior year (as of right now) as constant hanging out/wasting time to leave until fall. it's nice to be well liked, but these people will mean nothing after this year.

[CLAPSAYsike]

er, i don't know. it's not that big of a deal. high school is so boring, i'm surprised people still care about being popular after middle school. anyway, i see senior year (as of right now) as constant hanging out/wasting time to leave until fall. it's nice to be well liked, but these people will mean nothing after this year.
ehhhhh. overall, yeah, it's a waste of time. i just wish i did some things differently.

[swirlofhues]

yah, it's weird to reflect back on the last four years in your life, but what's cooler is the person you are now.

[chelseatine]

I didn't take high school too seriously. At all.


I didn't mean that as "hey, cool. who wants in my pants." or anything.
There's a lot of cool people on AP, people I wouldn't mind hanging out with.

yeah i'm just warning you. Young pretty girls can get into dangerous things. You have only been here a few days and while there are a lot of awesome people on AP, you don't know them very well at this point i would guess and a lot of online relationships are superficial to a point. Just be careful.

[CLAPSAYsike]

yeah i'm just warning you. Young pretty girls can get into dangerous things. You have only been here a few days and while there are a lot of awesome people on AP, you don't know them very well at this point i would guess and a lot of online relationships are superficial to a point. Just be careful.
Thanks, mom. :-)

[googirl8907]

why do you care what people think of you? you won't see most of those people ever again

[chelseatine]

Thanks, mom. :-)

it would be a shame, don't worry i will refrain from giving you advice next time.

[thejetstolehome]

advice for anyone still in or just starting high school: don't strain yourself there. there's realisitcally only so much growth you can do there. wait til you get to college to really let yourself out. you're going to be much more free to do so--and in college, you will be encouraged to do that, unlike high school.

[atticus1492]

Look on the bright side-you are very pretty.

[summerstars19]

Just keep eating skittles and you'll be stellar. But seriously, college is a whole different ball game. In high school I didn't necessarily try hard to fit in and be liked and such, but I didn't exactly let myself completely out. I had no problems making friends or anything, but I was a lot less...open (for lack of a better word) than I am now. Once I got to college I really realized that there's absolutely no use in caring what other people think about you. Trust me, you'll learn a hell of a lot about yourself and others in the next few years. I know I sound like an old lady, but they go by super fast, I swear. I can't believe I already graduated...so take petty things with a grain of salt and just look forward to what's to come.

[iwasahero]

X513x

[TxRepresent]

jesus how do you have 700 posts already? I barely have 200 something and ive been on here a couple of years. But high school sucks college is far better.

[CLAPSAYsike]

Look on the bright side-you are very pretty.
Thank you.

Just keep eating skittles and you'll be stellar. But seriously, college is a whole different ball game. In high school I didn't necessarily try hard to fit in and be liked and such, but I didn't exactly let myself completely out. I had no problems making friends or anything, but I was a lot less...open (for lack of a better word) than I am now. Once I got to college I really realized that there's absolutely no use in caring what other people think about you. Trust me, you'll learn a hell of a lot about yourself and others in the next few years. I know I sound like an old lady, but they go by super fast, I swear. I can't believe I already graduated...so take petty things with a grain of salt and just look forward to what's to come.
:-) I'll keep eating skittles. All except the green ones.

jesus how do you have 700 posts already? I barely have 200 something and ive been on here a couple of years. But high school sucks college is far better.
I'm a godess.

[Scuba Chris]

Just keep eating skittles and you'll be stellar. But seriously, college is a whole different ball game. In high school I didn't necessarily try hard to fit in and be liked and such, but I didn't exactly let myself completely out. I had no problems making friends or anything, but I was a lot less...open (for lack of a better word) than I am now. Once I got to college I really realized that there's absolutely no use in caring what other people think about you. Trust me, you'll learn a hell of a lot about yourself and others in the next few years. I know I sound like an old lady, but they go by super fast, I swear. I can't believe I already graduated...so take petty things with a grain of salt and just look forward to what's to come.

I'm a godess.

It's true.

On a more serious note, Daniela is right. College is a whole different ball of wax.
And at the very least it is a chance to start over.

[summerstars19]

It's true.

On a more serious note, Daniela is right. College is a whole different ball of wax.
And at the very least it is a chance to start over.
Its funny how when you're younger, all you want to do is grow up. I had a ton of fun in college but I would get so irritated by things, classes, papers, professors and so on that I thought I couldn't wait to graduate. Now that I've graduated and lead a bullshit life in corporate America, there's nothing I wouldn't do to go back to school and deal with the stupid papers, classes etc. I still keep in touch with my roommates and we go out and this and that, but it will never be the same. I wish I didn't take those 4 years for granted as much as I did. /sappy bullshit.

[Scuba Chris]

Its funny how when you're younger, all you want to do is grow up. I had a ton of fun in college but I would get so irritated by things, classes, papers, professors and so on that I thought I couldn't wait to graduate. Now that I've graduated and lead a bullshit life in corporate America, there's nothing I wouldn't do to go back to school and deal with the stupid papers, classes etc. I still keep in touch with my roommates and we go out and this and that, but it will never be the same. I wish I didn't take those 4 years for granted as much as I did. /sappy bullshit.
Yeah that is pretty much how I feel.
I wanted more responsibility and now that I have it, I want less of it.
Although if I didn't have so many damn bills to pay maybe life wouldn't be so bad right now.

[JulieLynn]

Ryssa, you must come to Cali when i get out there.

we can not fit in together!

ILU!!!

[summerstars19]

Yeah that is pretty much how I feel.
I wanted more responsibility and now that I have it, I want less of it.
Although if I didn't have so many damn bills to pay maybe life wouldn't be so bad right now.
No kidding, I made the stupid mistake of boring extra money so I could spend it. My parents told me not to but I thought I knew what I was doing and now I have $186,000 in loans after interest. Moral of the story, sometimes parents really do know what they're talking about.

[JulieLynn]

No kidding, I made the stupid mistake of boring extra money so I could spend it. My parents told me not to but I thought I knew what I was doing and now I have $186,000 in loans after interest. Moral of the story, sometimes parents really do know what they're talking about.

sucks to come to that reality, but its true.

[summerstars19]

sucks to come to that reality, but its true.
I wish I'd realized that earlier...on a lot of things, not just my student loans.

[CLAPSAYsike]

Ryssa, you must come to Cali when i get out there.

we can not fit in together!

ILU!!!
Hopefully, I'll be out there by the end of the year! :-D

[b-thrilla.]

skewl sux s0 much

[CLAPSAYsike]

skewl sux s0 much
Eh. This year really isn't too bad, given the fact that I have a whole two classes. :-D

[b-thrilla.]

Eh. This year really isn't too bad, given the fact that I have a whole two classes. :-D
yeah..i have 7

[CLAPSAYsike]

It's true.

On a more serious note, Daniela is right. College is a whole different ball of wax.
And at the very least it is a chance to start over.
Was that referring to me being a godess? ;-)

[b-thrilla.]

281 represent

[Scuba Chris]

Was that referring to me being a godess? ;-)
sure was.

[AnF1500]

High school was one of the easiest, funnest times of my life. I can see what your trying to say though.

[Flags of Dawn]

well, this makes sense now.

[concernedparent]

This was a while ago. Yeah I've felt like this before. Not that you necessarily feel like this anymore since it was a long time ago.

[immorehxcthanu]

I hated high school..it was unbearable. I barely made it through my senior year, I missed 27 days and still managed to graduate. I think they were glad to get rid of me.:-D

[SonEric84]

How popular you were and what you did in High school has no meaning in the real world. The only people it means anything to are the losers that never accomplish anything beyond how many points they scored on the high school sports team. And this bitch was a fake anyway so why am I even bothering with this?

[concernedparent]

She was fake? What do you mean? What did I miss?!

[SonEric84]

She was fake? What do you mean? What did I miss?!

Yeah dude, they figured it out a while ago. Read and see for yourself: http://absolutepunk.net/showthread.php?t=244678&page=3&highlight=ryssa

[takeweakme]

hahaha this thread is a bit humorous now.

[tambam]

Bahahaha.

[CrazyRockGirl]

"c'mon now people..hidh school is not the end of the world..who you are in high school isn't who you are gonna be for the rest of your life...I mean look at us..we were dorks in high now and now we're on fuckin mtv!"-pete wentz fall out boy

[killyourtv]

You REALLY leave your mark in college.

[concernedparent]

Yeah dude, they figured it out a while ago. Read and see for yourself: http://absolutepunk.net/showthread.php?t=244678&page=3&highlight=ryssa
I don't get how this chick knew she was fake though. Out of nowhere, she just says she's fake and has her myspace and everything..wtf?

[Smash Adams]

I don't get how this chick knew she was fake though. Out of nowhere, she just says she's fake and has her myspace and everything..wtf?

she told her internet boyfriend the whole story
I've never figured out how exactly people here found out about it, I think he texted them for some reason

[SonEric84]

I don't get how this chick knew she was fake though. Out of nowhere, she just says she's fake and has her myspace and everything..wtf?



she told her internet boyfriend the whole story
I've never figured out how exactly people here found out about it, I think he texted them for some reason


Yeah, it had something to do with the boyfriend. (Who I think I heard used to post here? I could be wrong about that though.)

[anamericangod]

This is hilarious.

[AP_Punk]

lolz

[lightcollapse]

haha, i find it funny that she got an appreciation thread in the first place, just based on her profile picture being attractive

[PadraicPrincess]

what? wow.. so she was some other girl (or boy?) that just stole some random girl's pictures and pretended to be her? I'd feel so dumb right now if I was the one who made the appreciation thread.