sergiohhh
03/15/07, 11:01 AM
random musings from the 12am club.
as of now im standing on my car in an empty parking lot shouting to no one in particular:
1.I want to transcend this scene. And all its trappings. So what if it means losing out and so what if it means stepping back. I haven't lost sight of expression. To even acknowledge such a thing seems crazy. But in order to truly grow. You need to know who you are.
2. dont listen to me because you think I have it all figured out. if anything Im more confused than any of you. but im willing to take a chance. at what? I dont even know anymore.
3.
Im still holding onto things in some small way. Ill catch it everynow and again without even realizing. Only in passing moments do I think about _____. That's just something I don't have an answer to yet. And I won't lie. im really trying. But when you don't know where youre headed and you find yourself falling back on those old familiar crutches. What do you do? That's the question ive faced myself with. Not because I need to right now. But because I will. Because its something that will be reality very soon. To let it catch me off guard would be more of a sin than anything.
3 1/2. I cant let the art write itself. There must be a conduit. well its right on my fingertips. ill do everything I can to roll it off. ill sit in cold cars with cold hearts until then.
4. a parade over stars. uneasy thoughts in the dark. theres love from afar and a home without guard. so freshly inspired by thoughts I conspire. with only a liar whose truly caught fire. from rubbing his words with constant desire.
5. good things to me wont last more than a minute - I promise I promise I just wont let it.
6. I just changed and you realized it. something I said was so true that I didnt even care to hide it. it was your look that let me know. you turned to me so quickly and out of the corner of my eye I watched it. and we both knew that I've changed. I dont mean to scare you if I'm not scaring myself. im just happy.
(november.)
as of now im standing on my car in an empty parking lot shouting to no one in particular:
1.I want to transcend this scene. And all its trappings. So what if it means losing out and so what if it means stepping back. I haven't lost sight of expression. To even acknowledge such a thing seems crazy. But in order to truly grow. You need to know who you are.
2. dont listen to me because you think I have it all figured out. if anything Im more confused than any of you. but im willing to take a chance. at what? I dont even know anymore.
3.
Im still holding onto things in some small way. Ill catch it everynow and again without even realizing. Only in passing moments do I think about _____. That's just something I don't have an answer to yet. And I won't lie. im really trying. But when you don't know where youre headed and you find yourself falling back on those old familiar crutches. What do you do? That's the question ive faced myself with. Not because I need to right now. But because I will. Because its something that will be reality very soon. To let it catch me off guard would be more of a sin than anything.
3 1/2. I cant let the art write itself. There must be a conduit. well its right on my fingertips. ill do everything I can to roll it off. ill sit in cold cars with cold hearts until then.
4. a parade over stars. uneasy thoughts in the dark. theres love from afar and a home without guard. so freshly inspired by thoughts I conspire. with only a liar whose truly caught fire. from rubbing his words with constant desire.
5. good things to me wont last more than a minute - I promise I promise I just wont let it.
6. I just changed and you realized it. something I said was so true that I didnt even care to hide it. it was your look that let me know. you turned to me so quickly and out of the corner of my eye I watched it. and we both knew that I've changed. I dont mean to scare you if I'm not scaring myself. im just happy.
(november.)