Quitting it all

[TokyoCity]

I feel really bummed out lately. I have been kicked out of my school and I fucked up so bad I now need to make up 8 credits. Life's been so boring and I feel so numb to everything. I just want to quit marijuana, alcohol and cigarettes because it has consumed every aspect of my life, but i just dont know how to do it.

This is something I wrote today but it isnt intended to be a poem or even good, just my thoughts:

I need a new high while still maintaining sober. I want to stand on mountains , see beauty for what it is and feel awesome. I dont want to have to smoke to feel good or be able to talk to others. I want to be high, but high on life. I want to sing a melody and put everybody in bliss. With a clear mind I will see and I will breathe without a wheez. I want to live my life, Im finished with destroying it. I put myself here and I'll bring myself out, for me and for anybody who gives two shits about me.

So yeah, that's how I've been feeling lately. Any suggestions on what I should to make a change and quit my "drug" use would be awesome.

[JustAnotherPoet]

writing. i fucked myself up a couple times doing things that at times i think about regretting, but i used that emotional stress and angst to turn into poetry, lyrics, whatever. when you feel like you're headed for a serious break down a pen and paper will be your best friend. best of wishes to you.

[atthegates]

Find something you really enjoy doing besides drugs. I used to do drugs when I was a freshman in high school but I got into music and learning the guitar. Pretty soon, all I cared about was getting better at guitar that I forgot about drugs. My advice would be to occupy yourself with something you really enjoy.

[llwilliamsll]

although the writing isn't the best, it's definitely similar to my writing style when i was around your age. I'd keep up with it because it has a lot of potential. just get your shit together in all honesty. get back in school and do what you need to do...you'll get through this. just take some time for figure your shit out.

less drugs, more hugs

[ascitiesburn101]

eh, i've tried staying away from stuff, but it never really works. last time i relapsed was with oxy and i felt like shit afterwards. i haven't smoked herb since january though. damn UA's. Just pick up an instrument, that's what I d.

[nonamesleft]

yoga! sports! get a job? occupy yourself! make new friends! woo. at the start, don't quit everything 'cause it will be really hard. take baby steps and it will be much easier

[CellarGhosts]

although the writing isn't the best, it's definitely similar to my writing style when i was around your age. I'd keep up with it because it has a lot of potential. just get your shit together in all honesty. get back in school and do what you need to do...you'll get through this. just take some time for figure your shit out.

less drugs, more hugs
Good advice, espically the bolded line. I was really depressed near the beginning of the schoolyear, and I turned to a friend whom I really trusted, confided in her, and she really helped me out. I began writing more, listened to the music I love, and so forth.

It'll all work out man, and hopefully you do get all your shit together soon.
cheers

[TokyoCity]

although the writing isn't the best, it's definitely similar to my writing style when i was around your age. I'd keep up with it because it has a lot of potential. just get your shit together in all honesty. get back in school and do what you need to do...you'll get through this. just take some time for figure your shit out.

less drugs, more hugs

The writing was just thoughts...
Thanks for the suggestions everyone, very much appreciated.

[llwilliamsll]

The writing was just thoughts...
Thanks for the suggestions everyone, very much appreciated.
well writing down your thoughts help sometimes

[theguilt engine]

You're young, and a lot comes with being young. Overcoming anything that you've gotten use to is incredibly difficult. Just tell yourself you can.

[HangsLikeHeaven]

what school do you go to, TokyoCity

[TheByrus]

you might as well start letting men have their way with you.


it's all downhill from here.

[TokyoCity]

what school do you go to, TokyoCity
Not really comfortable with saying that, but I will say i live in maple. (Paramount Canada's Wonderland, Vaughn Mills etc.)

[TokyoCity]

You're young, and a lot comes with being young. Overcoming anything that you've gotten use to is incredibly difficult. Just tell yourself you can.

Yeah I think that's what it is, im so used to smoking the ganja everyday when I dont get it I feel like shit.

[TokyoCity]

you might as well start letting men have their way with you.


it's all downhill from here.

Very funny :-/ . I know im not doing anything fuckin' intense like heroin, but it's still taking its toll on my life.

[Chancetobe]

Why don't you try to do your thoughts? Find some way to go stand on a mountain.

[AshleyO']

don't feel bad, i've fucked up so many times completely sober.

[XTaintedxRoseX]

I admire you for doing this. It's really one of the best things you could do. But as far as advice goes, it's all willpower. Ya just got to believe in yourself (no matter how fucking corny that sounds) but I know from experience that that shit fucks up your life.

[Black_is_Art10]

i know I'm only 15 but I've felt self destructive too. Pick up a pen and paper and write/draw whatever comes to mind. Make that negative energy positive!

[NormaJoel]

quitting is the best step you'll ever take.

listen to some really positive music.
or some edge music, haha.

[ascitiesburn101]

haha. i always used to listen to casey jones when i was high. oh, the irony.

[sarah.exkore]

You sound like you've got determination to get out of all that stuff. I've had friends who've tried to quit smoking before, and have always said "I'm never smoking ever again, I'm quitting for good", but a week later they're lighting up again. Their problem is they've gone about it the wrong way - and of course, they don't have the drive that you do. Just say to yourself each day "I'm going to stay sober for today, and I'm not going to smoke a cigarette" - that's much more achieveable than saying that you'll never do it again in your lifetime.

[musicroxmysox]

well the most important thing is that it sounds like you want to quit like what they said above me^^ but definitely try to write things down you don't even have to turn it into poetry or lyrics but just write your thoughts down to clear your mind a bit. you could read this book called a million little pieces, it's about a guy who is really fucked up and does basically every drug you can think of and then goes into rehab.it could give you some insight on what could happen if you don't stop and maybe that'll help. i can't think of anything else to tell you as i'm 15 (not 18 i know my thing says that but i'm 15) and i've never been through anything like this

[ascitiesburn101]

well the most important thing is that it sounds like you want to quit like what they said above me^^ but definitely try to write things down you don't even have to turn it into poetry or lyrics but just write your thoughts down to clear your mind a bit. you could read this book called a million little pieces, it's about a guy who is really fucked up and does basically every drug you can think of and then goes into rehab.it could give you some insight on what could happen if you don't stop and maybe that'll help. i can't think of anything else to tell you as i'm 15 (not 18 i know my thing says that but i'm 15) and i've never been through anything like this
fraud!


anyways, I'll actually contribute some information. Try your best not to war-story and read up about drugs and people doing them. Try not to hang out with your using friends, that can be a big trigger. Rehab is a long and agonizing process, but if you're really dedicated it could help a lot. I would recommend Outpatient if you choose to go down that route; inpatient = hell.

[musicroxmysox]

fraud!


anyways, I'll actually contribute some information. Try your best not to war-story and read up about drugs and people doing them. Try not to hang out with your using friends, that can be a big trigger. Rehab is a long and agonizing process, but if you're really dedicated it could help a lot. I would recommend Outpatient if you choose to go down that route; inpatient = hell.


haha i know and there's no way i can change it too it's stuck like that:-)


definitely i forgot to say something about that.