Waking Up

[to kill this]

Today I saw my life through the mirror
It danced around the edges of my face
I watched it grow before my eyes
and it exploded in little bits of light
See, I'm growing older and nothing's the same
I try to hold on, try to grab something solid
but even brick can slip right through your hands

I built it all up and around me
I nested in false promises and
the water i was washing myself
out and away in, so shallow, so thin
And here I float, out of body and into enlightenment
I watch me walk away from everything that matters
just to watch it go, and i never said goodbye
no, i didn't even try

This is my last chance
one more time to make it right
i'm looking in the glass
and i'm gonna change
what i'm getting back

Tonight I find myself awake
and staring at my legs
i'm moving, but i'm standing still,
laying flat on my back
I count the dreams I remember
maybe they're real, childhood memories
or just more fantasies of what I could have done,
who I could have been, but I'm becoming so much more
Now that i see, and see me for who I am.

This is my last chance
one more time to make it right
i'm looking in the glass
and im' gonna change
what i'm getting back

next time i fix my hair,
i'm gonna see that familiar stare
that set of blue, and i'll prove it to you
and i'll prove it to me that i can be
something worth remembering