whats wrong with me

[Blue Mouse]

okay this may sound weird but hear goes:
i finally finished high school and im going to college in september, most of my friends are trying to keep in touch with everyone, as you would, but i dont want to. a part of me does but a bigger part of me wants to leave them behind. does this make me a bad friend? near the end of school i felt like i was drifting apart from everyone anyway.

this may be completely unrelated but i thought i should add it:
recently i've felt like im, well sinking ( i know that doest make sense)
i never feel like talking or eating or even going outside. my parents try to get me to talk but i just push them away. one of the few people i used to love talking to is moving away ( australia ), so he wont be around much longer.
i feel like screaming or crying in frustration most of the time.

whats wrong with me

[houstoncalls!]

Nothing wrong with the first bit.

I've finished year 11 and I can't help but feel there's more than my little group of mates that I always see, there's loads more I want to do; loads more I want to see.

Everyone's moving on and the fact is you're not going to be able to keep in touch with everyone, just keep in touch with those you really want to and forget about the rest.

[Blue Mouse]

and i suppose you dont have any extra word of wisdom for my second bit do you?

[houstoncalls!]

I'm not really sure.

About a year and a half ago I was told I was depressed, I'd gone through a bit of bullying at school and I just didn't want to go anymore. I couldn't be bothered and I was just lazing around.

My school really helped me through that, they set me up with someone to talk to each day and they'd make sure I came into school and more importantly I was actually doing things, getting out the house.

I know what it's like not wanting to talk to your parents, mine would always try and sit me down and have "the talk", but I just didn't really feel that close to them. I found it really helps having someone else to talk to really, even if your parents may not understand why you won't open up to them.

Maybe it's just one of those things, everyone around me's growing up at the moment and we're all going through changes, things are becoming different.

Just try not to get into a routine of doing nothing.

[ForeverInADay]

okay this may sound weird but hear goes:
i finally finished high school and im going to college in september, most of my friends are trying to keep in touch with everyone, as you would, but i dont want to. a part of me does but a bigger part of me wants to leave them behind. does this make me a bad friend? near the end of school i felt like i was drifting apart from everyone anyway.

this may be completely unrelated but i thought i should add it:
recently i've felt like im, well sinking ( i know that doest make sense)
i never feel like talking or eating or even going outside. my parents try to get me to talk but i just push them away. one of the few people i used to love talking to is moving away ( australia ), so he wont be around much longer.
i feel like screaming or crying in frustration most of the time.

whats wrong with me

How is that possible if you're 15? You LIAR!

[Blue Mouse]

How is that possible if you're 15? You LIAR!

my birthday is in august so yes i left high school when i was 15! you FOOL

[Blue Mouse]

I'm not really sure.

About a year and a half ago I was told I was depressed, I'd gone through a bit of bullying at school and I just didn't want to go anymore. I couldn't be bothered and I was just lazing around.

My school really helped me through that, they set me up with someone to talk to each day and they'd make sure I came into school and more importantly I was actually doing things, getting out the house.

I know what it's like not wanting to talk to your parents, mine would always try and sit me down and have "the talk", but I just didn't really feel that close to them. I found it really helps having someone else to talk to really, even if your parents may not understand why you won't open up to them.

Maybe it's just one of those things, everyone around me's growing up at the moment and we're all going through changes, things are becoming different.

Just try not to get into a routine of doing nothing.

how are you so wise? we're the same age !
and
thankx
but talking to my parents isnt a good idea they'll just tell me the same stuff
'' grow up and stop feeling so sorry for your self''
and other related comment that do a teenage girl no good

[burnsobright]

You go to college when you're 15/16 in the UK?

[Blue Mouse]

You go to college when you're 15/16 in the UK?

no when your 16/17 i'm just young but i'll be 16 for college but only just

[emerypearl]

the same thing thats wrong with me
except i moved out of the city, not finished highschool

[Blue Mouse]

so what happened ?
i cant get rid of this feeling . its like an emptyness its strange i cant explain it

[emerypearl]

I know, I just moved on.

[livethesounds]

http://www.acc.umu.se/~zqad/cats/1161382095-1160262190890.b.jpg

[Zieb]

Do you feel like a grain of sand in the world right now?

[love_american_style]

anal.

[ForeverInADay]

no when your 16/17 i'm just young but i'll be 16 for college but only just

my birthday is in august so yes i left high school when i was 15! you FOOL

.... it's 17/18 here.

[burnsobright]

no when your 16/17 i'm just young but i'll be 16 for college but only just

Oh. K.

[LV03]

for the first part, thats just natural. There are a few close friends that i still keep in contact with from high school, and the rest i just facebook and see at the bars every once in a while, but they're more acquaintances if anything.

also for the second part, i would say that you're 15 and a lot of people your age feel that way. I would push my parents away and would prefer to be alone when i was a teenager too. I feel like thats kinda normal...you'll grow out of it eventually.

[apoemtothedead]

Cancer, probably.

[kickinthemouth]

the first bit is pretty normal. when i left school i realised that i was only mates with certain people becasue i had seen them everyday, for 6 hours, for 5 years or more. however don't push all your mates away. friends are always good no matter if they are close or not. don't cut them off entirely.

the second bit is just you feeling down. i bet its subconsciously a result of the first part. everything is changing but i bet inside you kinda wish you could go back a year or so and carry on as normal? me and a few of my friends are or have been in the same situation. I'd describe it as feeling kinda distant from everything else?

everyone gets like that now and again. just concentrate on what you enjoy. look forward to college and meeting new people, and maybe spend the summer tying things up with your old freinds and just having fun.

i've found talking to your parents when you are young doesn't help at all, becasue they almost always over react and go to the other extreme trying to cheer you up. just find a good friend you can chat with if you feel the need. i'm pretty sure once you start college next year you'll instantly be a lot happier.

[yoyoninjagirl]

wow you guys finish high school young in the UK

[drumerish]

well add them to msn (or any instant chat) and if after sometime u choose to talk to them cuz u miss em just start a conversation and while u dont want to just block em or dont log just once everyday but what u are feeling now is prolly just a phase and tell ur friend moving to australia to open an MSN (or any instant messaging program) account for u talk with videochat or just writing

[houstoncalls!]

how are you so wise? we're the same age !
and
thankx
but talking to my parents isnt a good idea they'll just tell me the same stuff
'' grow up and stop feeling so sorry for your self''
and other related comment that do a teenage girl no goodI know, I never ever told my parents anything to do with my problems.

Obviously any educational place is not really going to be able to help seeing as I'm guessing you don't have anything to with it until September?

[Blue Mouse]

Do you feel like a grain of sand in the world right now?

if by that you mean tiny and un-important then yes

Cancer, probably.

gee thankx!

[deapcutz]

Okay- Nothing is wrong with you. First of all your 15 so you are going through cahanges. You're trying to find your self, trying to fit in, trying not to fit in. You feel like shit one day and then you're walking on cloud nine the next. i know because I've been there and sometimes i still go there. Your life will figure it's self out and if it does'nt then you can start worrying.

Okay- about you friends don't trip about it, your heart will do that work for you. If you really want to keep in touch with these people then your heart will lead you to that. If it does not do that then that part of your life is over and it is time to move on. (and no it does not make you a bad friend, it makes you human)

[Khaos]

nothing wrong with u at all

[myantiyou]

Answer: you're 15

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[Vanilla Bear]

http://www.acc.umu.se/~zqad/cats/1161382095-1160262190890.b.jpg

i seriously am going to explode if i see this in the forums again...you're so lame dude.

[altemose09]

just do what you feel. but don't be an asshole to your friends just try more or less to avoid them. you may need them in the future and if you tell them off now you may never get them back.

[dejaxentendu]

spin out of control and get addicted to pain killers and then when you go to rehab and realize all of your horrible life mistakes you can write a book and tour middle schools and pull kids out of depression and say "HEY YOU i was you and i can show YOU the light" but you need a microphone like garth brooks to pull it off http://www.netusa1.net/%7Epater/pictures/jpeg/garth.jpg
with out a headset microphone the one shown above you will live in a card board box and never get laid

[Blue Mouse]

spin out of control and get addicted to pain killers and then when you go to rehab and realize all of your horrible life mistakes you can write a book and tour middle schools and pull kids out of depression and say "HEY YOU i was you and i can show YOU the light" but you need a microphone like garth brooks to pull it off http://www.netusa1.net/%7Epater/pictures/jpeg/garth.jpg
with out a headset microphone the one shown above you will live in a card board box and never get laid

hahaha so i should become an inspirational speaker but it will only workout if i have a headset microphone? wow great advice!

[Blue Mouse]

thanks to everyone who gave me some helpful advice:-D

i'm sure you know who you are