Can anyone tell me what's wrong with me?

[MADSTA]

For the past half year or so, I've gone through these sort of "stages". It goes on and off, but recently I've hit a really long "on".

I have no motivation to do anything. I get hungry, but I don't realy eat. The only reason I still shower and get dressed in the morning is because it's become so routine. Nothing really seems worth doing anymore, and nothing makes me happy. And all the time I just feel like screaming at everyone or throwing things, but I don't even know why. Like today in Biology, while I was listening to my teacher talking about hemoglobin cells, I suddenly felt like throwing my desk at the wall at running out to just sit in the snow. But instead, I went to the bathroom to try to calm myself down. So far, I've been able to keep myself from exploding, but I don't know how long that will last.

Anyone have any idea what's wrong with me?

[popdisaster00]

What is your family and friends and/or romantic situation like these days? What would you like to see differently in your life?

I had the exact same thing in high school. But things change. I actually went on Prozac for 6 months and I got a lot better. I'm not thanking prozac though, I think I just motivated myself to find new hobbies and change the things I wanted to see different in my life.

College will be coming for you soon, yes? My life has been so much better since I left for school.

[xvszero]

Sounds like depression and/or anxiety to me.

[MADSTA]

My family life is fine. No issues there. Romantic situation's fine... I don't have a boyfriend or like anyone but I'm not really worried about any of that.
As for my friends, not that great. I'll hear them making plans right in front of me, but never include me. And then later they'll tell me what an awesome time they had doing whatever while I was at home by myself. And there are a bunch of little things that get to me about them that make me feel worse.

Example:
In my biology class, I have three good friends. Let's call them Monica, Lucy, and Jenny.
Me and Monica get a drive to school together as well with another friend of mine. And one day we were both late. We had bio first thing that morning, so me and Monica walked up to our class as our other friend went a different way. When we walk in, Jenny yells "MONICA!" and Lucy says "Monica, you look really pretty today." Not a word to me.
And I find things like this are happening more and more.

But I don't think how I'm feeling is only affected by this. Because this started a while before the things with my friends did.

[MADSTA]

Oh, and I still have a year and a half left of high school.

[vixsummer]

hey :) im really sorry you're feeling this way. it sounds a lot like what i went through in the beginning of hs too. it sounds to me like you're depressed. talking to a therapist or your guidance counselor will probably help, even if you think you have nothing to say. the worst thing you can do is ignore this, because it probably wont go away on its own.

as for your friends - they sound sort of crappy, but they're probably acting like that because you're not being much fun or like your 'old' self right now. but you know that - you're not having fun with you either. maybe they're too shallow to understand that ignoring the 'downer' friend isnt going to make her bubbly and superfuntastic. don't let that get you down though. talk to them if you think they're worth it, if you explain your situation, maybe they'll make more of an effort.

good luck & feel better sweetie.

[4N6 science]

Sounds like depression and/or anxiety to me.

bingo...just learned this in psychology..

[lovely864md]

You sound like you're depressed. Depression doesn't always (and often doesn't) have a single cause. I'd suggest going to your school psychologist or guidance counselor and talking to them about this, or letting your parents know that you'd like to see a psychologist. Trust me, its the best thing you can do for yourself right now.

If you want to, another good idea might be starting a journal or diary and writing down how you're feeling. Let it out.

[TakingBackDowd]

yeah, your friends have alot to do with your problems..
things like that will lower your self-esteem to the point where you are now and worse. its a terrible feeling as i went through it last year. small things like that put me into deep depression and i had serious issues at a young age and im still trying to climb back out of that.

if you can make new friends and keep your old ones at a safe distance, you might feel better. do things with different people is my advice
feel better

[biodegradable]

i would suggest depression/anxiety as well.

the anxiety would be your wanting to all of a sudden 'fuck shit up' (basically what i want to do sometimes. there really isnt a certain "thing" it's just shit, and i want to fuck it up.)

the depression pretty much covers your lackluster emotions, ect. i know exactly how you feel. i'm sort of going through the same thing.

except i get that 'fuck shit up' feeling all the time. for no good reason. it's pretty scary.

[immorehxcthanu]

sounds like shit I was going trough when I was your age. turns out it was depression and anxiety. meds helped me a great deal and now I'm doing fine without them, just hang in there and talk to someone.

[meliisssaaaa]

yeah it does sound like depression or anxiety. not to sound cliche but you should talk to someone. you shouldn't keep it all bottled up inside or else you really will exlode.

[redsand62]

It's high school, everyone feels like this :shrug:

[SteveBraybray]

Hmm, its it only around the winter season that this happends?? I know alot of people including myself get something called S.A.D. Season depression, due to the cold weather and lack of day light hours, its common amoungst many teens.

[Intertwined]

Depression. Maybe teenage angst? We all go through it differently.

[popdisaster00]

My family life is fine. No issues there. Romantic situation's fine... I don't have a boyfriend or like anyone but I'm not really worried about any of that.
As for my friends, not that great. I'll hear them making plans right in front of me, but never include me. And then later they'll tell me what an awesome time they had doing whatever while I was at home by myself. And there are a bunch of little things that get to me about them that make me feel worse.

Example:
In my biology class, I have three good friends. Let's call them Monica, Lucy, and Jenny.
Me and Monica get a drive to school together as well with another friend of mine. And one day we were both late. We had bio first thing that morning, so me and Monica walked up to our class as our other friend went a different way. When we walk in, Jenny yells "MONICA!" and Lucy says "Monica, you look really pretty today." Not a word to me.
And I find things like this are happening more and more.

But I don't think how I'm feeling is only affected by this. Because this started a while before the things with my friends did.
Do you ask them if you can join? Or how about YOU make the plans and invite THEM?

[ImAwakeNow]

Its just life. Nothings wrong with you. It happens to every teenager. Ive had this happen to me before where i just dont see the point in anything and that i just want a escape from it all. Just hold in there and dont give up and this will all pass. Just know that everything is goin to get harder before it gets easier. Thats just life.

[MADSTA]

Do you ask them if you can join? Or how about YOU make the plans and invite THEM?
The majority of the times I try to make plans with anyone, they'll be working or have some other commitment or something will come up. And I figured that if they really wanted me to be there, they'd turn around and ask me, since I am always two feet way or less.

[SubrosaSeductiv]

Yeah it could be depression I wouldn't worry about it. And as far as the whole "I STILL HAVE 1 YEAR AND A HALF OF HIGH SCHOOL ZOMGZ," you need to cut that shit dude. High School is one of the funnest times you should have in your life. College is cool but be happy where you are. I mean I'm stoked being half a year away but I know I'm going to miss this like crazy. So don't rush it.

[oneswiftmotion]

I remember on some other thread you were talking about how you needed new friends. I think it's your friends as well. I mean if you don't have somebody to lean on, what are you going to do with all your problems, keep them in? I think that's why you probably feel like exploding and letting out all these emotions you cannot even confide in with you closest "friends."

Solution: Find new friends. How? Talk to other people who are in your classes, and you may find you share interests. Or join some sort of club or sport that you've never tried and you'll meet new people. Oh, and don't completely drop your friends, just keep a good amount of space between them and you.

Hope it helps :)

[seesky?fly.]

For the past half year or so, I've gone through these sort of "stages". It goes on and off, but recently I've hit a really long "on".

I have no motivation to do anything. I get hungry, but I don't realy eat. The only reason I still shower and get dressed in the morning is because it's become so routine. Nothing really seems worth doing anymore, and nothing makes me happy. And all the time I just feel like screaming at everyone or throwing things, but I don't even know why. Like today in Biology, while I was listening to my teacher talking about hemoglobin cells, I suddenly felt like throwing my desk at the wall at running out to just sit in the snow. But instead, I went to the bathroom to try to calm myself down. So far, I've been able to keep myself from exploding, but I don't know how long that will last.

Anyone have any idea what's wrong with me?
I'm going through the exact same thing, seriously
I listen to a lot of music to help blot it all out. It upsets my mum cause she hates seeing me like it, and that makes me angry and upset with myself even more, but music seems to be my cure. It sounds kinda cheesy saying music is the cure, but it really does help. I also sing a lot which helps me bring out my emotions. If you want to chat some more p/m me, cause you're not the only one.

[anamericangod]

Really sounds like depression and anxiety. It's easy to say "oh that's just life." That's not always the case. I can really relate.

I think your last line sums it up, and really shows you have something deeper going on. "So far, I've been able to keep myself from exploding, but I don't know how long that will last."

Trust me, you don't want to leave things to chance and see what happens when things get to that point. It's worse than you could imagine. Go talk to a professional about how you feel. Pretty please.

[B00GINA]

emo?

[andrew4045]

For the past half year or so, I've gone through these sort of "stages". It goes on and off, but recently I've hit a really long "on".

I have no motivation to do anything. I get hungry, but I don't realy eat. The only reason I still shower and get dressed in the morning is because it's become so routine. Nothing really seems worth doing anymore, and nothing makes me happy. And all the time I just feel like screaming at everyone or throwing things, but I don't even know why. Like today in Biology, while I was listening to my teacher talking about hemoglobin cells, I suddenly felt like throwing my desk at the wall at running out to just sit in the snow. But instead, I went to the bathroom to try to calm myself down. So far, I've been able to keep myself from exploding, but I don't know how long that will last.

Anyone have any idea what's wrong with me?


You might want to attempt to stop smoking the reefer.

[iwasahero]

Holy shit.

Lately, I have felt the exact same way.

[rikfrommf]

bingo...just learned this in psychology..
Sounds like depression and/or anxiety to me.
i would suggest depression/anxiety as well.

the anxiety would be your wanting to all of a sudden 'fuck shit up' (basically what i want to do sometimes. there really isnt a certain "thing" it's just shit, and i want to fuck it up.)

the depression pretty much covers your lackluster emotions, ect. i know exactly how you feel. i'm sort of going through the same thing.

except i get that 'fuck shit up' feeling all the time. for no good reason. it's pretty scary.
Depression. Maybe teenage angst? We all go through it differently.

Word of advice: don't take medical advice from a website. By someone saying it "sounds like depression" you will rule out anything else it could be. That being said, depression is a frequently diagnosed disorder and you should see a medical professional. Also monitor your diet and water intake as their is a correlation between health and depression. Consider also the exercise you get and what changed at the onset of the feelings. just to prove you shouldn't take advice from the internet here are possible diagnoses that could be made, each as credible as the last:

Depression, PTSD, low electrolyte levels/ dehydration, diabetes, various neurological disorders including cancers, and aneurysms, blood disorders, rabies, poisons/toxins, PMS and the list goes on. My advice, if its bad see your FP. He is a lot smarter than anyone on here as far as medicine is concerned.

cheers and keep your head up.

[apoemtothedead]

You've come to terms with the fact that you're a failure. :shrug:

[seesky?fly.]

You've come to terms with the fact that you're a failure. :shrug:
no, it doesn't mean people are failures by being depressed

[thetrueblood]

For the past half year or so, I've gone through these sort of "stages". It goes on and off, but recently I've hit a really long "on".

I have no motivation to do anything. I get hungry, but I don't realy eat. The only reason I still shower and get dressed in the morning is because it's become so routine. Nothing really seems worth doing anymore, and nothing makes me happy. And all the time I just feel like screaming at everyone or throwing things, but I don't even know why. Like today in Biology, while I was listening to my teacher talking about hemoglobin cells, I suddenly felt like throwing my desk at the wall at running out to just sit in the snow. But instead, I went to the bathroom to try to calm myself down. So far, I've been able to keep myself from exploding, but I don't know how long that will last.

Anyone have any idea what's wrong with me?

take zoloft.

[PadraicPrincess]

Probably because, like me, you live in Halifax.
No, actually probably not,
but it's nice to know someone on here also lives in the small village

[PadraicPrincess]

Yeah it could be depression I wouldn't worry about it. And as far as the whole "I STILL HAVE 1 YEAR AND A HALF OF HIGH SCHOOL ZOMGZ," you need to cut that shit dude. High School is one of the funnest times you should have in your life. College is cool but be happy where you are. I mean I'm stoked being half a year away but I know I'm going to miss this like crazy. So don't rush it.

it REALLY depends what kind of school you go to.

I will, in theory, be going into first year university next year when I enter grade 12.

I don't want to be a little whiney bitch about my school, but I'm just saying, obviously not all highschools have the same curriculum, therefore not all highschools have the same level of
"fun-ness"

[OveriseFan]

A thread that made it a page and a half without a joke in PERSONAL LIFE!?

Now I've seen everything...

[SubrosaSeductiv]

it REALLY depends what kind of school you go to.

I will, in theory, be going into first year university next year when I enter grade 12.

I don't want to be a little whiney bitch about my school, but I'm just saying, obviously not all highschools have the same curriculum, therefore not all highschools have the same level of
"fun-ness"

I go to an all boy, Catholic, college prep school. Ther curriculum is pretty intense. There are no class levels lower than advanced or honors and if you do not take like 5 AP courses you are retarded. So I'm sure the "fun-ness" level isn't dictated at all whatsoever by the curriculum, or school. I have a fucking blast everyday and my school is kind of ridiculous.

[PadraicPrincess]

I go to an all boy, Catholic, college prep school. Ther curriculum is pretty intense. There are no class levels lower than advanced or honors and if you do not take like 5 AP courses you are retarded. So I'm sure the "fun-ness" level isn't dictated at all whatsoever by the curriculum, or school. I have a fucking blast everyday and my school is kind of ridiculous.

Well obviously it does. It also depends how seriously you take assignments or exams. It also depends what your standards are. It also depends what you do for fun. And it also depends on your ability to comprehend things naturally, a leeway for multi tasking.
I don't know what AP is. I'm on IB, and just because you take 5 or more classes doesn't automatically make things more intense.. wouldn't it depend on the significance and difficulty of the class?
I'm just saying.. don't generalize.

[oneswiftmotion]

Well obviously it does. It also depends how seriously you take assignments or exams. It also depends what your standards are. It also depends what you do for fun. And it also depends on your ability to comprehend things naturally, a leeway for multi tasking.
I don't know what AP is. I'm on IB, and just because you take 5 or more classes doesn't automatically make things more intense.. wouldn't it depend on the significance and difficulty of the class?
I'm just saying.. don't generalize.

AP= Advance Placement, counts for college credit. & I agree with you, it depends on how much effort you put yourself towards school.

[SubrosaSeductiv]

Well obviously it does. It also depends how seriously you take assignments or exams. It also depends what your standards are. It also depends what you do for fun. And it also depends on your ability to comprehend things naturally, a leeway for multi tasking.
I don't know what AP is. I'm on IB, and just because you take 5 or more classes doesn't automatically make things more intense.. wouldn't it depend on the significance and difficulty of the class?
I'm just saying.. don't generalize.


Hahah what?

I don't take my classes seriously at all. In fact, I don't take life seriously. I still manage though, trust me.

I comprehend things without the use of studying decently, or naturally as you put it.

I do alot of things for fun. This could be your problem. Get out more.

Yes taking 5 AP classes would make your high school experience way more intense, trust me. If you mistook that for a positive social thing I'm sorry, its not at all. It definitely has its benefits intellectually, however it does make your academic life extremely stressful, or intense.

[MADSTA]

Well obviously it does. It also depends how seriously you take assignments or exams. It also depends what your standards are. It also depends what you do for fun. And it also depends on your ability to comprehend things naturally, a leeway for multi tasking.
I don't know what AP is. I'm on IB, and just because you take 5 or more classes doesn't automatically make things more intense.. wouldn't it depend on the significance and difficulty of the class?
I'm just saying.. don't generalize.
We have two things in common now. Living in Halifax and taking the IB program. Weird.

[PadraicPrincess]

We have two things in common now. Living in Halifax and taking the IB program. Weird.

Haha, fuck yes. Isn't it a bitch? What are your courses?
Mine are: HL Bio, HL History, HL English, SL Math, SL French, SL Chem

You must be in the IB program at citadel? Fuck me if you actually go to my school...

[PadraicPrincess]

Hahah what?

I don't take my classes seriously at all. In fact, I don't take life seriously. I still manage though, trust me.

I comprehend things without the use of studying decently, or naturally as you put it.

I do alot of things for fun. This could be your problem. Get out more.

Yes taking 5 AP classes would make your high school experience way more intense, trust me. If you mistook that for a positive social thing I'm sorry, its not at all. It definitely has its benefits intellectually, however it does make your academic life extremely stressful, or intense.

Hahah what?

That whole example of "learning naturally" was coming from my personal reference point. I'm not naturally able, plus my school's fucking psycho, therefore I have to work twice as hard. AND therefore proving my point that not all high school experiences are a "breeze". And no, the natural capability to learn something is not the same thing as studying decently.

Haha, way to go. Insult my social life. Even if that was true, wouldn't "going out more" eventually make school harder..? I mean, obviously except for someone like you.

How could I take that as a positive social thing. Obviously I know that taking more classes would, in most cases, be harder. But shouldn't you base it on what the class actually is rather than the fact that it is another class?

Look, I don't know where you are or I am going with this. You just said high school was such an amazing time. Maybe for you, but that doesn't mean it is for everyone.

[MADSTA]

Haha, fuck yes. Isn't it a bitch? What are your courses?
Mine are: HL Bio, HL History, HL English, SL Math, SL French, SL Chem

You must be in the IB program at citadel? Fuck me if you actually go to my school...
I'm in HL English, HL French, HL Theatre, SL Math, SL Histoire (in french), and SL Bio. And no, I go to the West.

[PadraicPrincess]

I'm in HL English, HL French, HL Theatre, SL Math, SL Histoire (in french), and SL Bio. And no, I go to the West.

I seee I didn't know they had an IB program.

[dannytheschid]

This stage last like two years for me in high school. I gotta be honest, whenever teenagers get really depressed like this, usually there must be some feelings you have about your family that you're not addressing. I also thought my family was just fine when i was in high school and all depressed. I grew up and realized that my family was anything but fine. Take a long hard look at your family and your place in it. And if your 'friends' aren't making you feel wanted, call them on it or just make new friends. you deserve better.

[killyourtv]

Yeah. I think I'm going through the same thing. Except, I'm an epic failure. I'm great at everything I hate but I'm horrible at everything I love. I'm not completely interested in English and History but I'm extremely good at both of them. I love Science and math, but I'm failing them completely. My whole life seems to work out this way. So I've decided not to care anymore. I'm just going to take my 2 years at community college and then try and get into a respectable university and spend my life in the Navy.

But I'll probably end up getting shot or something unlucky before that happens.

[killyourtv]

This stage last like two years for me in high school. I gotta be honest, whenever teenagers get really depressed like this, usually there must be some feelings you have about your family that you're not addressing. I also thought my family was just fine when i was in high school and all depressed. I grew up and realized that my family was anything but fine. Take a long hard look at your family and your place in it. And if your 'friends' aren't making you feel wanted, call them on it or just make new friends. you deserve better.

That's so fucking true. My family is a complete mess. And I love my friends. They make me feel wonderful when I'm around them; but they all have jobs. I don't have a job. Or a car. And I don't go to the same school as them. So I'm just stuck sitting in my room smoking a pack and getting drunk and ending up passing out in my garage. But for the the 5 hours I spend with them I feel like I can do anything in the world.

I really want that feeling more often.

[SubrosaSeductiv]

Hahah what?

1. That whole example of "learning naturally" was coming from my personal reference point. I'm not naturally able, plus my school's fucking psycho, therefore I have to work twice as hard. AND therefore proving my point that not all high school experiences are a "breeze". And no, the natural capability to learn something is not the same thing as studying decently.

2. Haha, way to go. Insult my social life. Even if that was true, wouldn't "going out more" eventually make school harder..? I mean, obviously except for someone like you.

3. How could I take that as a positive social thing. Obviously I know that taking more classes would, in most cases, be harder. But shouldn't you base it on what the class actually is rather than the fact that it is another class?

4. Look, I don't know where you are or I am going with this. You just said high school was such an amazing time. Maybe for you, but that doesn't mean it is for everyone.

Okay...

1. Well I'm sorry for you that you have to work a little to remember things. I am lucky I usually retain things as they come to me. I don't really know why you keep addressing your school as so demading. No high school is really that hard. Kids are just lazy. My high school I'm sure would be categorized as "psycho" by you as well. What school do you go to?

2. The second statement wasn't an insult. I'm sure you are more than capable of going out, and you have a solid amount of friends. You were originally complaining about how much you disliked high school. You weren't complaining about the difficulty level of your classes. I suggested something. Sorry. I'm not calling you a nerd or anything.

3. You just kind of proved my point. I said taking five AP or IB courses would be much more difficult than say taking 5 remedial level classes. I don't really know the standards of IB but taking AP anything is really fucking hard. At least, it is in my school.

4. I never said it was an amazing time, I am saying it can be. You need to make it what it is. Good Luck.

[sjb2k1]

For the past half year or so, I've gone through these sort of "stages". It goes on and off, but recently I've hit a really long "on".

I have no motivation to do anything. I get hungry, but I don't realy eat. The only reason I still shower and get dressed in the morning is because it's become so routine. Nothing really seems worth doing anymore, and nothing makes me happy. And all the time I just feel like screaming at everyone or throwing things, but I don't even know why. Like today in Biology, while I was listening to my teacher talking about hemoglobin cells, I suddenly felt like throwing my desk at the wall at running out to just sit in the snow. But instead, I went to the bathroom to try to calm myself down. So far, I've been able to keep myself from exploding, but I don't know how long that will last.

Anyone have any idea what's wrong with me?

Could be a myriad of things, and probably is a combination of things going on in your life. But what's important is that you have recognized that you're not feeling okay. The next step is to talk to someone. Your parents, a guidance counselor, or your primary care physician. The PCP will most likely be able to refer you to a psychologist or some kind of counselor. It's important to get your feelings out so you can deal with them. Because it sucks feeling like that. I've been there. You aren't alone.

I would recommend in the temporary, keeping a journal. That helped me because it turned out that I would get agitated/upset at certain times of day, and then my counselor and I could pinpoint what would set me off. Another thing I'd recommend is making sure you're eating properly, exercising (even a little!) and getting enough rest. Those three things can really affect your disposition.

Just remember that if you had a broken leg, sprained ankle, etc, you'd get it all fixed up. Your brain is no different.

[PadraicPrincess]

Okay...

1. Well I'm sorry for you that you have to work a little to remember things. I am lucky I usually retain things as they come to me. I don't really know why you keep addressing your school as so demading. No high school is really that hard. Kids are just lazy. My high school I'm sure would be categorized as "psycho" by you as well. What school do you go to?

2. The second statement wasn't an insult. I'm sure you are more than capable of going out, and you have a solid amount of friends. You were originally complaining about how much you disliked high school. You weren't complaining about the difficulty level of your classes. I suggested something. Sorry. I'm not calling you a nerd or anything.

3. You just kind of proved my point. I said taking five AP or IB courses would be much more difficult than say taking 5 remedial level classes. I don't really know the standards of IB but taking AP anything is really fucking hard. At least, it is in my school.

4. I never said it was an amazing time, I am saying it can be. You need to make it what it is. Good Luck.
I go to a very small (500 in total) private school.
Yeah I don't think I will ever look fondley back on these 13 years. Maybe some of the people I met along the way. Maybe you'll prove me wrong, but just don't generalize high school experience by you're own.

[williek311]

Get laid.

[SubrosaSeductiv]

I go to a very small (500 in total) private school.
Yeah I don't think I will ever look fondley back on these 13 years. Maybe some of the people I met along the way. Maybe you'll prove me wrong, but just don't generalize high school experience by you're own.

Yeah I got yah. I got to a small private school as well 100 accepted per class. I hope that you are proven wrong and you start enjoying yourself, I think its a great time. Nothing gets easier from what I hear.

[PadraicPrincess]

Yeah I got yah. I got to a small private school as well 100 accepted per class. I hope that you are proven wrong and you start enjoying yourself, I think its a great time. Nothing gets easier from what I hear.

True, I really hope you do prove me wrong ahaha. I'll let you know in a year and a half, sound good?

[SubrosaSeductiv]

I go to a very small (500 in total) private school.
Yeah I don't think I will ever look fondley back on these 13 years. Maybe some of the people I met along the way. Maybe you'll prove me wrong, but just don't generalize high school experience by you're own.

True, I really hope you do prove me wrong ahaha. I'll let you know in a year and a half, sound good?

Sounds great.

[leezer]

Change your routine, do things you didnt do before; it does sound like depression and you shouldn't ignore it.

[lake of tears]

Make more friends ... enjoy your life .. take up a job and study

[bootsydan]

My family life is fine. No issues there. Romantic situation's fine... I don't have a boyfriend or like anyone but I'm not really worried about any of that.
As for my friends, not that great. I'll hear them making plans right in front of me, but never include me. And then later they'll tell me what an awesome time they had doing whatever while I was at home by myself. And there are a bunch of little things that get to me about them that make me feel worse.

Example:
In my biology class, I have three good friends. Let's call them Monica, Lucy, and Jenny.
Me and Monica get a drive to school together as well with another friend of mine. And one day we were both late. We had bio first thing that morning, so me and Monica walked up to our class as our other friend went a different way. When we walk in, Jenny yells "MONICA!" and Lucy says "Monica, you look really pretty today." Not a word to me.
And I find things like this are happening more and more.

But I don't think how I'm feeling is only affected by this. Because this started a while before the things with my friends did.

Get new friends, cause that shit ain't getting any better.

And yes, I know it sounds like a tough ask.

[CandyDistructio]

I had the same thing for a while and then it suddenly stopped for a few months and then randomly came back. I'd tell you what it is but I don't know. But i can pretty much guarantee no ones going to be able to give you an answer here, because we don't really know you.

Seriously think about seeing a therapist, I did but I never liked or trusted mine and so I never told her anything real and lied till she said I was fine and didn't need to come anymore. It's really important to fine a therapist that you like and are comfortable with, or you'll be like me and it just randomly comes back and you don't care enough to go do anything about it.

[[MaleyaJ]]

I'm going through the exact same thing, seriously
I listen to a lot of music to help blot it all out. It upsets my mum cause she hates seeing me like it, and that makes me angry and upset with myself even more, but music seems to be my cure. It sounds kinda cheesy saying music is the cure, but it really does help. I also sing a lot which helps me bring out my emotions. If you want to chat some more p/m me, cause you're not the only one.


man this is weird..
have you been in my brain lately
this is exactly how i feel..
just started too =\.
and music DOES help me!
and the one friend i have...
i love him!
get some new friends.
if only one, still.
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[LV03]

yea i felt like this in high school too...it'll get better

[The Arsonist]

Ever heard of/read "The Secret" or "Psycho-Cybernetics"?

They both have some interesting information on your mind/thought life and how it affects your life and the circumstances around you. Some cool things on the Law of Attraction to. I can go into more detail if you want...just message me or respond.

[daniel.e]

Ever heard of/read "The Secret" or "Psycho-Cybernetics"?

They both have some interesting information on your mind/thought life and how it affects your life and the circumstances around you. Some cool things on the Law of Attraction to. I can go into more detail if you want...just message me or respond.

Shure, the Secret lines up some acceptable arguments. Like, positive thinking often leads to more positive thinking, be thankful about what you have in life, if you get a chance - take it. But otherwise, the book/movie is really ridiculous. I don't think it will help in this case. You will most likely face some crap in life that you don't deserve, that you haven't "attracted".

[Rock]

hey :) im really sorry you're feeling this way. it sounds a lot like what i went through in the beginning of hs too. it sounds to me like you're depressed. talking to a therapist or your guidance counselor will probably help, even if you think you have nothing to say. the worst thing you can do is ignore this, because it probably wont go away on its own.

as for your friends - they sound sort of crappy, but they're probably acting like that because you're not being much fun or like your 'old' self right now. but you know that - you're not having fun with you either. maybe they're too shallow to understand that ignoring the 'downer' friend isnt going to make her bubbly and superfuntastic. don't let that get you down though. talk to them if you think they're worth it, if you explain your situation, maybe they'll make more of an effort.

good luck & feel better sweetie.
You are such a sweetheart.