possibility

[fallingintoyou]

Don't know why I'm full of doubt
Full of lost hopes and forgotten dreams
Hoping and praying for my day to come
My day to shine and blind you all
Right now....today....is not that day
I'm trying
Trying to rekindle old friendships
Trying to come to grips with the ones gone but not forgotten
It's hard, so hard
I'm feeling the old burning sensation and tingling in my skin
The neverending battle with myself to try to stop
Try to stop the bad
Stop the vil that's tearing me apart
I feel it
I feel it ripping into me, itching to get out
To break free of it's shell, of me
Ready to rip me from limb to limb, neck to sternum, ear to ear
I won't let it go
I've become stronger, but I don't know how much longer I can hold out
An accumulation of bullshit
Fuck it all
All the drama, pain, gossip, egos
Fuck it all