xstars_fell
01/04/04, 10:13 AM
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watching the sky up with the stars speckled like the wishes failed by those lovestruck teenage girls. who lazily wished, longing for that lost love or the one love that didnt occur yet. watching hoping a star would fall, burning their eyes to find it. but only to look to late. and it fell, without their realization. yet again it went unnoticed. they walked on, in that dark night. watching their breath freeze in midair. like those dreams, as they float far after realizing they would never be accomplished. the headlights in the distance paint the future, recreate the past. forcing memories back into her mind. those nights she just wanted to forget. those nights when she wished in that summer sky on those summer stars that he'd magically come back to her and everything would be ok again. that he still loved her, and with the broken pieces of her heart she'd love him back. but that was too perfect. too dreamlike. it would fail, like those tests that she took at the end of june in the swealtering heat. wondering why it was all her fault that they hated her. that they no longer wanted her as their best friend. she wondered why she wasnt good enough for them. and her mind wasnt on those tests, with questions of numbers and letters that made no sense in her confused mind. nothing made sense. she started aswering herself like a test, knowing she;d always fail. and she gave up. she broke down. she shattered like that glass in that car accident. the car wreck that became her life. like the shards that flew in every direction, she was getting streched too thing. like a rubber band minus the elestic. she was going to snap again. break. shatter. explode. yet she watched those head lights, fighting back those tears that whelled in her hopeless brown eyes. and she looked again at that black sky specked with those stars.. hopeing for that falling star hoping it would all be ok.
:embarasse :
[i know its not the best thing ever, but id like to know what you think.. thanks]
watching the sky up with the stars speckled like the wishes failed by those lovestruck teenage girls. who lazily wished, longing for that lost love or the one love that didnt occur yet. watching hoping a star would fall, burning their eyes to find it. but only to look to late. and it fell, without their realization. yet again it went unnoticed. they walked on, in that dark night. watching their breath freeze in midair. like those dreams, as they float far after realizing they would never be accomplished. the headlights in the distance paint the future, recreate the past. forcing memories back into her mind. those nights she just wanted to forget. those nights when she wished in that summer sky on those summer stars that he'd magically come back to her and everything would be ok again. that he still loved her, and with the broken pieces of her heart she'd love him back. but that was too perfect. too dreamlike. it would fail, like those tests that she took at the end of june in the swealtering heat. wondering why it was all her fault that they hated her. that they no longer wanted her as their best friend. she wondered why she wasnt good enough for them. and her mind wasnt on those tests, with questions of numbers and letters that made no sense in her confused mind. nothing made sense. she started aswering herself like a test, knowing she;d always fail. and she gave up. she broke down. she shattered like that glass in that car accident. the car wreck that became her life. like the shards that flew in every direction, she was getting streched too thing. like a rubber band minus the elestic. she was going to snap again. break. shatter. explode. yet she watched those head lights, fighting back those tears that whelled in her hopeless brown eyes. and she looked again at that black sky specked with those stars.. hopeing for that falling star hoping it would all be ok.
:embarasse :
[i know its not the best thing ever, but id like to know what you think.. thanks]