polkadotpunk3
08/16/04, 04:09 PM
Some of my poems ..
:different blue:
Its hard to be yourself
When everyone else isnt
You want to be different
But the risks are just too high
The day you dont act perfect
Is the day that you loose it all
People start to hate you
Because you dont fit into the mold
Some say its all in jealousy
That others wish they could do this too
Its hard to live hard to breath
And your worlds a different blue
:dress up game:
the meaning of my smile
is nothing that is joy
its simply a little magic
a trick i know too well
ive done this so many times
that no one even knows
youll never see a frown on me
because it doesnt look good
so instead i act like a little girl
and play dress up everyday
:it is life:
Its like a question without an answer
Yet it is still asked
Its like an action without a reason
Yet it is still completed
Its like the sun rising every morning
And the moon rising every night
Its a gift, an adventure, a burden
Yet it is only what we make it
Its our lives which we must live
Regardless of what happens
:always best friends:
Two young girls
Best friends
Depressed
Lost in a world
Of dead ends
And no rest
Made a promise
To live life
Without regrets
I promised not
To cut myself
Just to see
The blood flow free
You promised not
To pop the pills
Just to see
The bottle empty
You broke your promise
You popped the pills
You finally found the end
So now it's my turn
To break mine too
Because we'll always be best friends
:sunrise:
Once upon a sunrise
My body didnt wake
I looked down at my closed eyes
And realized my mistake
I tried to breathe
I tried to wake myself up
But this state i couldnt leave
My soul finally gave up
:friend discovered:
ive got a friend who i never knew
he was always there through and through
i never really noticed how much he meant to me
never let the friendship be all that it could be
i never took the time out to tell him how that i care
and i never was a good friend i know that its not fair
i know that i should be better and i really want to
if only you could know what its like to be me looking at you
:memory:
what is a memory
but a piece of time
forced upon our minds and souls
either good or bad
what is a memory
but something to be remembered
for all that it has caused
and all that it resulted from
what is a memory
but a faded peice of the past
that reminds us why were us
and why it is were alive
:feeling:
The most wonderful feeling
Is hard to explain
It's the look in your eyes
That makes me this way
It's how you can manage
To make all the tears go away
It's the curve of your smile
That brightens up my day
:not worthy:
why should i take a breath
im not worthy
someone else deserves this
no matter what i try
its never good enough
all i want is to be myself
but i cant because myself is wrong
they say were all different
but then why am i the only one
who can be herself
yet be shamed upon
nothings different
when you live in this world
:judgement:
I say one word
And youre quick to judge me
You think i care
But i have no response
You shake me
Try to wake me
But you cant break me
You wonder what the hell is wrong with me
I dont care say what you want
Im not asleep not even close to dead
And anything that you see wrong with me
Is a problem inside your own head
:loss of innocense:
you say ive changed
as you look me up and down
from head to toe
you say im cold now
i say no
dont you know
the worlds lost its innocense
and ive jsut grown up
:discovery of a smile:
these scars on my wrist
remaninces of my past
a dark time for me
the just lay there
like clothes that dont fit
and remind me oh who i was
im no longer that girl
and ive finally discovered a smile
:broken mirror:
i look at you
youre glaring back at me
i wonder why you wont smile
youre always frowning
you start to yell
im yelling back
im such a mess
tears roll down your face
we always seem to fight
i stop yelling
you stop too and turn the other way
once again i realize
youre only my reflection in the broken mirror
resembling this life
:in your eyes:
everyone tells these lies
that they think will make everything right
even if they make it right for the moment
they can leave unhappiness for a lifetime
like the lies these people tell me
of them caring about how i feel
it might make the tears stop then
but at night i just keep crying
go ahead and tell me you hate me
i can see it in your eyes
sarah fay*
:different blue:
Its hard to be yourself
When everyone else isnt
You want to be different
But the risks are just too high
The day you dont act perfect
Is the day that you loose it all
People start to hate you
Because you dont fit into the mold
Some say its all in jealousy
That others wish they could do this too
Its hard to live hard to breath
And your worlds a different blue
:dress up game:
the meaning of my smile
is nothing that is joy
its simply a little magic
a trick i know too well
ive done this so many times
that no one even knows
youll never see a frown on me
because it doesnt look good
so instead i act like a little girl
and play dress up everyday
:it is life:
Its like a question without an answer
Yet it is still asked
Its like an action without a reason
Yet it is still completed
Its like the sun rising every morning
And the moon rising every night
Its a gift, an adventure, a burden
Yet it is only what we make it
Its our lives which we must live
Regardless of what happens
:always best friends:
Two young girls
Best friends
Depressed
Lost in a world
Of dead ends
And no rest
Made a promise
To live life
Without regrets
I promised not
To cut myself
Just to see
The blood flow free
You promised not
To pop the pills
Just to see
The bottle empty
You broke your promise
You popped the pills
You finally found the end
So now it's my turn
To break mine too
Because we'll always be best friends
:sunrise:
Once upon a sunrise
My body didnt wake
I looked down at my closed eyes
And realized my mistake
I tried to breathe
I tried to wake myself up
But this state i couldnt leave
My soul finally gave up
:friend discovered:
ive got a friend who i never knew
he was always there through and through
i never really noticed how much he meant to me
never let the friendship be all that it could be
i never took the time out to tell him how that i care
and i never was a good friend i know that its not fair
i know that i should be better and i really want to
if only you could know what its like to be me looking at you
:memory:
what is a memory
but a piece of time
forced upon our minds and souls
either good or bad
what is a memory
but something to be remembered
for all that it has caused
and all that it resulted from
what is a memory
but a faded peice of the past
that reminds us why were us
and why it is were alive
:feeling:
The most wonderful feeling
Is hard to explain
It's the look in your eyes
That makes me this way
It's how you can manage
To make all the tears go away
It's the curve of your smile
That brightens up my day
:not worthy:
why should i take a breath
im not worthy
someone else deserves this
no matter what i try
its never good enough
all i want is to be myself
but i cant because myself is wrong
they say were all different
but then why am i the only one
who can be herself
yet be shamed upon
nothings different
when you live in this world
:judgement:
I say one word
And youre quick to judge me
You think i care
But i have no response
You shake me
Try to wake me
But you cant break me
You wonder what the hell is wrong with me
I dont care say what you want
Im not asleep not even close to dead
And anything that you see wrong with me
Is a problem inside your own head
:loss of innocense:
you say ive changed
as you look me up and down
from head to toe
you say im cold now
i say no
dont you know
the worlds lost its innocense
and ive jsut grown up
:discovery of a smile:
these scars on my wrist
remaninces of my past
a dark time for me
the just lay there
like clothes that dont fit
and remind me oh who i was
im no longer that girl
and ive finally discovered a smile
:broken mirror:
i look at you
youre glaring back at me
i wonder why you wont smile
youre always frowning
you start to yell
im yelling back
im such a mess
tears roll down your face
we always seem to fight
i stop yelling
you stop too and turn the other way
once again i realize
youre only my reflection in the broken mirror
resembling this life
:in your eyes:
everyone tells these lies
that they think will make everything right
even if they make it right for the moment
they can leave unhappiness for a lifetime
like the lies these people tell me
of them caring about how i feel
it might make the tears stop then
but at night i just keep crying
go ahead and tell me you hate me
i can see it in your eyes
sarah fay*