mirtizzle
09/12/04, 12:12 AM
do you ever wish that you had just never met someone? even if they happen to be one of your best friends? i'm not asking for advice or anything, but i just needed to rant... really, really bad.
one of the girls i'm living with now... i've known her since 7th grade, and she's basically attached herself to me since sophomore year of high school and proclaimed she was my best friend. she hasn't made any friends since we started college except for our other roommate, who she met through me. so basically, she not only lives with the both of us, but pretty much hangs out with just us because she won't go anywhere unless one of us is with her.
i didn't want to live with her, but my roommate from last year and i were planning to live off campus and we needed a third roommate, and then she was already living off campus with her sister but her sister was finished with school so she was moving out of gainesville so she needed a place to live.. and we couldn't say no.
she's one of those people you have to constantly walk on eggshells around, because if you say the wrong thing it'll piss her off, and if she's in a bad mood, she's a raging bitch. also, she's extremely insecure and does things like make snide comments about me in front of people to make me look stupid, or is always talking about how fat and ugly and how small her boobs are and how no guy wants her, and that she feels stupid because she's a junior in college and still a virgin, and if she's not talking about that, she's so overly cheerful like she's trying to prove to everyone that she's happy, and it's like living with a fucking cheerleader.
and the thing is, she's got lots of problems, she has a glass eye from having cancer when she was little, her brother committed suicide right before we started college, her parents marriage isn't doing so well now, her last boyfriend cheated on her... and i've always been there for her, but she's so dependent on me that it's suffocating me and she has horrible moodswings and takes everything so personally that being around her puts me in a bad mood, but i can't just be like "i don't like you!"
she's had horrible alcohol fueled emotional breakdowns where i've basically had to play babysitter for an entire night and deal with her in a bathroom, drunk as shit and beligerent to no end, numerous times. at least a good 10 or 11 times. then the next morning she doesn't remember anything. if she's not having an emotional breakdown, she's just extremely annoying, and lately she hooks up with one of our guy friends, and by hooking up, i do mean that she gives him head and gets nothing in return. he's basically degrading her and it pisses me off that he's taking advantage of how unstable she is and it pisses me off that she's so attention starved that she's letting him take advantage of her. then she either gets pissy because our friends make fun of her about it, or she bats her eyes and smiles and says, "i'm sweet and innocent!" in a really annoying voice... and i just want to shake her and tell her that if she didn't want people talking shit about her, to not act stupid, and that just because she's not having sex doesn't mean she's not acting like a dumb whore.
so... basically, i just wish she wasn't around. or at least that she didn't think i was her best friend. and.... i'm a bitch. but i'm glad i got all that out. the end
one of the girls i'm living with now... i've known her since 7th grade, and she's basically attached herself to me since sophomore year of high school and proclaimed she was my best friend. she hasn't made any friends since we started college except for our other roommate, who she met through me. so basically, she not only lives with the both of us, but pretty much hangs out with just us because she won't go anywhere unless one of us is with her.
i didn't want to live with her, but my roommate from last year and i were planning to live off campus and we needed a third roommate, and then she was already living off campus with her sister but her sister was finished with school so she was moving out of gainesville so she needed a place to live.. and we couldn't say no.
she's one of those people you have to constantly walk on eggshells around, because if you say the wrong thing it'll piss her off, and if she's in a bad mood, she's a raging bitch. also, she's extremely insecure and does things like make snide comments about me in front of people to make me look stupid, or is always talking about how fat and ugly and how small her boobs are and how no guy wants her, and that she feels stupid because she's a junior in college and still a virgin, and if she's not talking about that, she's so overly cheerful like she's trying to prove to everyone that she's happy, and it's like living with a fucking cheerleader.
and the thing is, she's got lots of problems, she has a glass eye from having cancer when she was little, her brother committed suicide right before we started college, her parents marriage isn't doing so well now, her last boyfriend cheated on her... and i've always been there for her, but she's so dependent on me that it's suffocating me and she has horrible moodswings and takes everything so personally that being around her puts me in a bad mood, but i can't just be like "i don't like you!"
she's had horrible alcohol fueled emotional breakdowns where i've basically had to play babysitter for an entire night and deal with her in a bathroom, drunk as shit and beligerent to no end, numerous times. at least a good 10 or 11 times. then the next morning she doesn't remember anything. if she's not having an emotional breakdown, she's just extremely annoying, and lately she hooks up with one of our guy friends, and by hooking up, i do mean that she gives him head and gets nothing in return. he's basically degrading her and it pisses me off that he's taking advantage of how unstable she is and it pisses me off that she's so attention starved that she's letting him take advantage of her. then she either gets pissy because our friends make fun of her about it, or she bats her eyes and smiles and says, "i'm sweet and innocent!" in a really annoying voice... and i just want to shake her and tell her that if she didn't want people talking shit about her, to not act stupid, and that just because she's not having sex doesn't mean she's not acting like a dumb whore.
so... basically, i just wish she wasn't around. or at least that she didn't think i was her best friend. and.... i'm a bitch. but i'm glad i got all that out. the end