Torn in two

[Mercy Medical]

I'm not really looking for advice here, I'm more or less just venting...but feel free to put your two cents in if you so desire. :)

Basically I feel torn in two. I go to school in Ft. Wayne, IN, but am originally from Ferndale, WA. A distance of about 2,400 miles seperates these two places. I've realized it before, but maybe not as much until now how horrible it is at times. On one hand I have the love of my life and my best friend living in one half of the country and my family living on the other half of the country. I hadn't been home for a year until this Christmas because I stayed in Michigan with my best friend last summer. I had gotten so used to being away from home I forgot what it felt like to be home. It was awkward at first and I really wanted to leave, but now I've gotten so used to it that part of me wishes I could stay. The whole wile I'm missing my best friend that I love so dearly so much right now and wishing she was here with me. One half of my life is there and the other half is here. When I'm at school I miss my family, when I'm at home I miss my best friend. When I graduated I have no clue what I'm going to do. Michgan or Washington? It just sucks. I wish I could have both in one place. :(

[Love As Arson]

Honestly, I think that distance from "the love of your life" could do you some good.

[Lueda Alia]

Honestly, I think that distance from "the love of your life" could do you some good.
I think so too.

Are you back together or... ?

[mondeoman]

Hmm yeah I can sortof sympathize here. All my friends I love dearly are here in Arizona but I also love my Oklahoma friends. That probably didn't do shit but good luck.

[Mercy Medical]

Honestly, I think that distance from "the love of your life" could do you some good.
I know. But I mean, even as a friend I miss her so much. Even the first year I knew her before anything happened it was so hard to go home and be away

Eda - No, we're not back together and it doesn't look like we'll be getting back together anytime soon. :(

[Tyler Revolution]

Hmm yeah I can sortof sympathize here. All my friends I love dearly are here in Arizona but I also love my Oklahoma friends. That probably didn't do shit but good luck.

Haha, Erich always gives the best advice... especially when he ends it with, "That probably didn't do shit but good luck." Haha.

[Love As Arson]

I know. But I mean, even as a friend I miss her so much. Even the first year I knew her before anything happened it was so hard to go home and be away

Eda - No, we're not back together and it doesn't look like we'll be getting back together anytime soon. :(
Take this oppurtunity to assert your independence. The independence that you said you desire.

[Mercy Medical]

Take this oppurtunity to assert your independence. The independence that you said you desire.
Did I say I desired independence? I don't remember...haha

Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. I'm so back and forth on that whole situation. There's days where I'm okay with things and then there's days that I want to be back with her so badly. This whole process is going to take a while. :/

Thanks for the advice though Dom, I love it when you're not a jackass. :)

[mondeoman]

Haha, Erich always gives the best advice... especially when he ends it with, "That probably didn't do shit but good luck." Haha.
hahaha I never said I was good at giving advice did I?

[Love As Arson]

Did I say I desired independence? I don't remember...haha

Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. I'm so back and forth on that whole situation. There's days where I'm okay with things and then there's days that I want to be back with her so badly. This whole process is going to take a while. :/

Thanks for the advice though Dom, I love it when you're not a jackass. :)
From what I can tell, you need independence. You depend way too much on her. Distance will force you to become independent, and it will be for the best. Live for yourself, not for something that is over.

[Mercy Medical]

From what I can tell, you need independence. You depend way too much on her. Distance will force you to become independent, and it will be for the best. Live for yourself, not for something that is over.
I know...I am too dependent. I've gotten better while I've been here and I've been trying to not let certain things bother me. I've talked to her just about everyday on the phone though.

[Love As Arson]

I know...I am too dependent. I've gotten better while I've been here and I've been trying to not let certain things bother me. I've talked to her just about everyday on the phone though.
Stop talking to her everyday. It is only enabling your dependence.