i am the worst person ever

[burntpaper]

i have been with my boyfriend for about a year, we've been through so much together. he is the most understand and amazing guy. i have a problem though, i tend to push people away and act like i don't care to my friends. i love him more than life, so much it actually hurts. i'm pushing him away from me and hurting him but i can't live without him. i'm scared he's going to leave like my dad did. i care too much to cope with that. i don't really know why i hurt him when i love him so much. i want to stop. i'm scared it's too late. i hurt him last night with things i said and he was throwing up and really upset. his friend text me to say how much i hurt him and i can't live with myself. i'd give my life to take back everything because he's so amazing and i can't take him hurting because of me. i'm trying to apologise and make things alright but he's sleeping right now. i hate myself and i just want him to be happy. do you think he'll forgive me? how can i stop being so awful?

[burntpaper]

anyone? i really need some help

[burntpaper]

thank you. i am meeting him later to talk. i'm so scared of losing him but i only have myself to blame. i believe in honesty so will tell him how i'm feeling and hope he holds me in his arms rather than turning away.

[HeavenSent]

I'm exactly like you. I'm scared guys will hurt me because my dad did. You probally just need to apoligize to him and tell him why you push him away, thats the best thing I can think of

[specialgirl87]

i have been with my boyfriend for about a year, we've been through so much together. he is the most understand and amazing guy. i have a problem though, i tend to push people away and act like i don't care to my friends. i love him more than life, so much it actually hurts. i'm pushing him away from me and hurting him but i can't live without him. i'm scared he's going to leave like my dad did. i care too much to cope with that. i don't really know why i hurt him when i love him so much. i want to stop. i'm scared it's too late. i hurt him last night with things i said and he was throwing up and really upset. his friend text me to say how much i hurt him and i can't live with myself. i'd give my life to take back everything because he's so amazing and i can't take him hurting because of me. i'm trying to apologise and make things alright but he's sleeping right now. i hate myself and i just want him to be happy. do you think he'll forgive me? how can i stop being so awful?

your not the only one who pushs people away, it takes time to let people in, you should probly tell him everything you feel, apoligize but more importantly change, cuz an apology is just words, and actions speak louder, good luck :lol2:

[colorsarenice]

maybe its not the you or the dude.. maybe its the fact that your dad left

[[Brendan]]

Tell him exactly what is going on, otherwise you are putting on a false facade.
Yes I agree this is what you should do.

[burntpaper]

thanks guys. i think we've sorted things out and i am working at being a better girlfriend.