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So I've been thinking about some current situations in my life and how I feel about certain things. I suppose I'll start off with what's been on my mind the most these couple of past weeks.
What exactly is important in life? This has been bothering me for a while actually. My parents want me to go to college, graduate, and get a job. I'm more inclined to traveling, but also realize the importance of getting a degree early, I also want to. But I've been thinking about saving up and traveling around the world. I've also thought about joining the peace corps, so that I could experience a different culture and help make a difference in the world. My parents would see this as a mistake and a waste of time. I can understand where they're coming from, because I don't want to come back two years later and be finishing my second year(of six) at 20 or 21. But I also feel this would be the only time I would be able to do it. I'm conflicted on what's more in life, experiencing things most people never would, or setting myself up for later in life and perhaps doing those things then.
I've also had this...feeling, maybe thought process is better way to say it, that makes me wonder what is so attractive about people. I ask myself, why is she attractive, she's just skin and bones. What makes me attracted to her, why do I think she is cute. What is cute about skin and bones? And then I ask myself what is the point in relationships, I mean, to have some one? It seems so cheap to me. I don't think I'm capable of handling one person's needs even if I wanted to. All the past relationships have been the same. It has always ended with one of us being fed up with the other person's bitching, troubles, or otherwise boring qualities. Everything just seems so boring to me at this point in my life. Sex is just getting off. Relationships are just not wanting to be alone. Both of them seem completely pointless.
And those two things I've been thinking about are correlated together. I want to experience something new, hope that it can relight whatever in me burnt out. I didn't use to be this way, but I just am now.
Cue the responses: Anal and too long, didn't read.
Your philosophizing, it fails.
No philosophizing intended, but I guess I fail regardless.
PadraicPrincess
10/24/08, 05:35 PM
I'm basically in your position. On the brink of disaster haha. I have no idea what I want to do next year. Definitely want to go to school though. I think you probably need to take a step back, because this is just one fairly insignificant part in your life. I think traveling for a year would be amazing, but I want to head straight to school.
Hope it works out okay!
Hehe, I'm just giving you a hard time. :-) Just go with the flow, man..
Every individual has different paths that are best for them. I went to school for a year, came back for the next semester, and just decided to drop out one weekend, and I did.
This isn't because I'm lazy or unintelligent, it's because I came to a crossroads. I couldn't stand the school I was in, and I couldn't stand that I was paying so much money for something I didn't really want. But the main reason was that I was incredibly unhappy and infinitely unsatisfied with my life. A Jimmy Eat World lyric came to mind:
And the mindless comfort grows,
when I'm alone with my great plans.
And this is what she says gets her through it:
"If I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"
If not now when?
I decided that waiting for life to begin wasn't an option, and I've begun pursuing my dreams. I moved back to Denver and I'm now being courted by a few popular local acts, and my dream of being involved in music seems a step closer.
I think you should do what you think feels right. You only have one life, and you might not want to live with those regrets.
updownleftright
10/24/08, 07:30 PM
So I've been thinking about some current situations in my life and how I feel about certain things. I suppose I'll start off with what's been on my mind the most these couple of past weeks.
What exactly is important in life? This has been bothering me for a while actually. My parents want me to go to college, graduate, and get a job. I'm more inclined to traveling, but also realize the importance of getting a degree early, I also want to. But I've been thinking about saving up and traveling around the world. I've also thought about joining the peace corps, so that I could experience a different culture and help make a difference in the world. My parents would see this as a mistake and a waste of time. I can understand where they're coming from, because I don't want to come back two years later and be finishing my second year(of six) at 20 or 21. But I also feel this would be the only time I would be able to do it. I'm conflicted on what's more in life, experiencing things most people never would, or setting myself up for later in life and perhaps doing those things then.
I've also had this...feeling, maybe thought process is better way to say it, that makes me wonder what is so attractive about people. I ask myself, why is she attractive, she's just skin and bones. What makes me attracted to her, why do I think she is cute. What is cute about skin and bones? And then I ask myself what is the point in relationships, I mean, to have some one? It seems so cheap to me. I don't think I'm capable of handling one person's needs even if I wanted to. All the past relationships have been the same. It has always ended with one of us being fed up with the other person's bitching, troubles, or otherwise boring qualities. Everything just seems so boring to me at this point in my life. Sex is just getting off. Relationships are just not wanting to be alone. Both of them seem completely pointless.
And those two things I've been thinking about are correlated together. I want to experience something new, hope that it can relight whatever in me burnt out. I didn't use to be this way, but I just am now.
Cue the responses: Anal and too long, didn't read.
hahaha this is weird. you may want to question your viewpoint on females in the sense maybe you don't like girls? it also sounds like you've never been in a real relationship before. well, i'm no scholar but, i can tell you that from the one serious relationship i had, it was one of the best things i've ever experienced. wow, never thought i'd actually have to give advice on that.. but it sounds like you're just in a rough patch. just remember, you're young and you still have tons of years so a lot of good can and will happen.
School isn't going anywhere. If you want to experience the Peace Corps and it'll make you happy, then it's what you should do.
- internet stranger
hahaha this is weird. you may want to question your viewpoint on females in the sense maybe you don't like girls? it also sounds like you've never been in a real relationship before. well, i'm no scholar but, i can tell you that from the one serious relationship i had, it was one of the best things i've ever experienced. wow, never thought i'd actually have to give advice on that.. but it sounds like you're just in a rough patch. just remember, you're young and you still have tons of years so a lot of good can and will happen.
I do like girls, but...I think I might be somewhat...asexual, if that makes sense. I can't really explain this adequately. I've been in "real" relationships before. One for 13 months and one for 2 and half years, and a couple handful of short ones. None of my past relationships have changed me for the better. And I know I have a lot more years ahead of me, I'm just so unsure of what I want its completely unnerving. Thanks for the two cents though.
School isn't going anywhere. If you want to experience the Peace Corps and it'll make you happy, then it's what you should do.
- internet stranger
I know what I should do, I'm just not sure if it is the right decision. I know that sounds redundant, but sometimes the wrong choice is the right one, know what I mean?
DaveZeroZero
10/25/08, 01:45 AM
You should all study law like I am...
OH, WAIT, IT'S A GRADUATE COURSE OVER THERE!
You should all study law like I am...
OH, WAIT, IT'S A GRADUATE COURSE OVER THERE!
Undergraduate, but close!
brandnew=love
10/25/08, 03:59 AM
I think you should do whatever is best for you... it's not really your parents choice... just make the decisions that will make you happy... instead of worrying about what else anyone else thinks.
and about the girls... :shrug:
4N6 science
10/25/08, 07:42 AM
I've gone through this same thought process. In regards to school/Peace Corps, you have to do what you think is right for you. Make yourself happy. It might upset your parents now but they'll always love you no matter what so don't worry about that too much. As with the relationship/girl thing I'm still trying to figure that out so I can't help much.
nikkidynac
10/25/08, 12:06 PM
So I've been thinking about some current situations in my life and how I feel about certain things. I suppose I'll start off with what's been on my mind the most these couple of past weeks.
What exactly is important in life? This has been bothering me for a while actually. My parents want me to go to college, graduate, and get a job. I'm more inclined to traveling, but also realize the importance of getting a degree early, I also want to. But I've been thinking about saving up and traveling around the world. I've also thought about joining the peace corps, so that I could experience a different culture and help make a difference in the world. My parents would see this as a mistake and a waste of time. I can understand where they're coming from, because I don't want to come back two years later and be finishing my second year(of six) at 20 or 21. But I also feel this would be the only time I would be able to do it. I'm conflicted on what's more in life, experiencing things most people never would, or setting myself up for later in life and perhaps doing those things then.
I've also had this...feeling, maybe thought process is better way to say it, that makes me wonder what is so attractive about people. I ask myself, why is she attractive, she's just skin and bones. What makes me attracted to her, why do I think she is cute. What is cute about skin and bones? And then I ask myself what is the point in relationships, I mean, to have some one? It seems so cheap to me. I don't think I'm capable of handling one person's needs even if I wanted to. All the past relationships have been the same. It has always ended with one of us being fed up with the other person's bitching, troubles, or otherwise boring qualities. Everything just seems so boring to me at this point in my life. Sex is just getting off. Relationships are just not wanting to be alone. Both of them seem completely pointless.
And those two things I've been thinking about are correlated together. I want to experience something new, hope that it can relight whatever in me burnt out. I didn't use to be this way, but I just am now.
Cue the responses: Anal and too long, didn't read.
You're the one stuck living your life, not your parents, so if your doing something were you wake up and have to drag yourself there... that is no bueno. Do what will make you happy. Like someone said, school's going to always be there... and people return to school at way later ages than what you would be.
You think certain types of girls are cute becasue the media tells you what to look for. I mean thnk about the types of girls American's find sexy verses the types Spanish people find sexy Verses French people... it's all in your environment.
buhnANGIE
10/25/08, 02:38 PM
About the whole school/peace corps thing, I think you should follow whatever will make you happier. Like you said, this may be the only chance you have for traveling. Ask yourself, Do you really want to miss out? Plus, your life is yours to live. It's not up to your parents on what you do with your life.
You have to remember, you are living for yourself, not others.
Hermux-Tantamoq
10/26/08, 04:40 AM
Life is like a pile of wet clay. You can sculpt it however the fuck you want.
Skin and bones are sexy. It's what your hormones tell you is what matters. You might want to become a doctor if you're going to keep looking at people like that.
fadedmemories
10/26/08, 05:06 AM
You just need to listen to some Aiden, they know your pain
WakeUpBlondie
10/26/08, 09:59 AM
Nice name change
DaveZeroZero
10/31/08, 05:13 AM
Undergraduate, but close!
Really? My, how things have changed.
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