For A Father

[AlexEnglish]

The low tones set the stage
for a night of shattering
no remorse for my thoughts
your careless calls and words

your switching sides
on and off, on and off
three years without you
did me better that 12 without

your mistakes have let me down
time after time.
i cry, and weep but my hesitation
keeps you out of my life

the bottle, the bottle
its been here so long
but it never gets older
when you read this song
i hope youll think of me one day
and possibly youll regret
all the things you did to me
because ill never forget.

[fishingthe_sky]

I'm really not following this:

"three years without you
did me better than 12 without

your mistakes have let me down
time after time.
i cry and weep but my hesitation
keeps you out of my life"

In the first two lines, you're setting up a contrast, but you don't contrast anything. Instead, you give us 15 years of being without the dad. In the last stanza, I don't understand why you would mention hesitation as if it's a problem. It seems pretty clear throughout the piece that there's a lot more than hesitation going on here, plus the way you've phrased it makes it seem like the speaker is at fault for that, which I don't think is congruous with the rest of the piece.

Also, what do you mean by low tones? It's really not clear what you're trying to say with that.