I don't really know what to expect in the upcoming months in my life. I'm looking back on places I've been and things I've done and I'm really regretting a few things. I regret not finishing audio engineering school fully. I really could be doing something interesting with my life. I had one too many metal breakdowns though, and being away from home at that time was not healthy for me. I want to get out on my own and experience more things. Right now all I do is work at a dead end crappy restaurant, hang out with my chick, and record music whenever I seem to have time. I'm really behind on recording too. I wanted to get my album out by May, but that doesn't even look possible. I think I'm just thinking way too much about things. A lot happened in the past that I wish I could take back. I want to apologize fully to a lot of people for things I've done, but I also rather leave it in the past and just move forward with my life. Blah I'm all sorts of confused.
I'm going on a road trip to California this Summer. I have family out there I want to visit, and do some soul searching. I also want to stop in Arizona and look for a place out there. I would just go back to my old apartment that I had out there, but I need something different. I need to shape a new life in a way. I'm not ditching anyone, but I want to ditch some personal traits I've developed over that past year and a half.
This is just a rant. Me thinking way too much when I should be sleeping. Hope everyone else is having a goodnight.