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Alright. I have a problem.
|Alright. I have a problem.|
06/30/11 at 03:01 AM by troublelovesme
|I don't like Jacob or Tony or Adam or Joseph in any romantic way, but they're so much fun to talk to and it's gotten me in trouble. |
I was interested in this friend of a friend, but seeing as how now he only wants to hang out after 10:30, I'm trying to brush him off.
Tonight I realized that I've been crushing on someone from work, and that was wayyyy too late or else I could have made something out of it. So I say, oh well.
Yesterday started off kind of bad, and slowly progressed into alright, and then into "thank God for this life."
It might be because I haven't gone to sleep yet, but I'm very happy. I feel blessed, even though I'm still waking up with a small lump in my throat.
I'm happy because I'm taking more of the chances given to me. I don't think that I was ignoring them before, I just think I can see them more clearly now. I've narrowed down my perspective. I'm going with good shit and bad shit and skipping over the could be.
Every night that I come home at 6 or 7am, I feel so proud of myself, because I feel like I'm doing what everyone else has been doing since we were 15 years old.
And right now I just feel so accepted. Right now I feel like I have a place and it's the right one, and it's good and will continue to be good.
And now I don't know if I should try to go to sleep or not. I have to get up and get ready for work in two hours. I don't now whether I'll feel worse with zero sleep or with two hours sleep.
I'm thinking two hours.
I also want to stay up for a whole 24hours to see what that's like.