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11/24/11 at 12:44 PM by billyboatkid
|I should be spending this with her. It doesn't even feel like thanksgiving. This is the worst. I have never been this miserable in my life. |
I can honestly say all I want is to be with her, all I want is to be happy again.
I fought and waited for 9 months last year and almost two this fall. That should show you how much love I have for this woman. She is literally everything I've ever wanted in a significant other. She's everything that I think is perfect in my eyes.
I'd never take my own life or even think about that. That's just ridiculous and selfish. But I can honestly say that if something were to happen I wouldn't care.. That's how down I am about this and life right now. She is my world and it's been taken away. I don't have much left. I've never felt like this or wanted too. I just want to run away. All I think about all I care about. It feels like my life has stopped in it's tracks when she left. I'm just reliving the worst day of my life everyday.
I literally just want to go into hiding. Move away. Anything..
Mayday Parade - "Miserable at Best"
There are a lot of Mayday Parade songs that relate right now to me, but this one is probably the best or Jersey or One Man Drinking Game.. Who am I kidding. all of them.
I just need a sign.
Fuck whoever thinks I"m being over dramatic. Give someone everything you have, expect to spend your life with them and have it all taken away and then tell me you wouldn't be as broken as I am right now. I've lost it.