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Happy New Year.
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01/13/12 at 02:00 AM by jump start
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This time, I wrote about certain people and how they've changed recently. The girl who was my close friend, but now considers me her worst enemy. The guy who spent several months telling me he didn't want a relationship, but that he's now in one with another girl. The other guy, who actually promised me a relationship, but stopped speaking to me less than a week later. And worst of all, I can't even go to someone who is supposed to be one of my best friends with my problems anymore.
And then I went on to say that I've changed the most because I didn't care that any of these people weren't in my life before. That in the past, I'd be bothered by the fact that they deserted me, but now I'm perfectly happy without them.
And it was all complete shit.
Who am I kidding? Nothing has changed. Not at all. People will never change, as much as you'd like to hope they are. They'll always be terrible to each other.
That girl despises me because her pseudo boyfriend wants me more than her, and I'm a threat to their "relationship." That guy put me through months of making me feel like I was never quite good enough, and that I was only ever going to be second best. The other guy just plays games with girls and doesn't actually give a shit about them. And my best friend is convinced that everything bad that has ever happened to me is no one's fault but my own, no matter what the situation is.
Things don't change because it's a new year. Things never change.