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The Defining Phrase - Chapter 1: Complacency
|The Defining Phrase - Chapter 1: Complacency|
11/14/08 at 08:35 PM by cassusriff
|This is a story. A romance novel. A drama. A story of happiness and elation as well as disgusting actions and sad dispositions. As much as it may seem like it should be on a daytime soap, this story is actually just my life.|
We start off on a Sunday afternoon in late September of this year. I was watching football, happily chilling in my apartment with my brother. I had been single for almost a year, dating a few girls here and there but not getting serious with any of them. I was happy. My brother, being the semi-youtube celebrity he is, was watching a video of another person on youtube that has quite a good following. I noticed the girl in the video and immediately found her attractive. My brother mentioned that he talked to her regularly and I said, half seriously and half jokingly, "give her my screen name".
He did end up doing that, and he gave me hers. Her name was Lizzy. She started watching and commenting on my much less interesting and less quality videos and it made me very happy. On this particular sunday I finally saw her get online so I decided to IM her for the hell of it. What ensued was an awesome conversation that lasted hours. We both found each other attractive and interesting. We continued talking as the days went on. We talked on the phone and the internet. We video-chatted and IMed and texted. It was a lot of fun and we started to get really close.
Now, this is the part where we admittedly got a bit too close. Lizzy was planning on coming to LA at the beginning of November, so I decided I'd drive down that weekend and meet her and see what happened. We marked this day on our calendars and were extremely excited. About 4 weeks into us talking and whatnot, we started to get way too deep into our feelings for each other. We initially wanted to avoid boyfriend/girlfriend and "I love you" until we met and knew for sure... but we kind of fell into all of that because we both were so infatuated. Despite my following in this blog and the people I've become friends with through this site, I'm still very new into the whole internet friendship/relationship thing. I've only once met a girl from online, she lived in Davis and we dated for a few weeks until she went crazy and stopped talking to me. Besides that, I'm a very outgoing guy who enjoys the internet but has a very very busy life otherwise.
So I don't know if it was the fact that we both had just gotten out of long relationships and were in need of reinforcement or if we just really wanted to be in a relationship again or if we actually were that crazy about each other. But we got to this point where it was just too serious. But we figured that meeting each other would qualify all those feelings.
Then things started to unravel. We started to argue about ridiculous things. We both were incredibly touchy about anything the other would say. Things were peachy most of the time... but at some point every day things would just go to a really bad place. Again, I figured that we were just getting anxious about seeing each other. And after all, at this point we were only about 2 weeks away from meeting. So I figured that even if things were going south, I might as well see how it all plays out.
But then I met her...
To Be Continued