I don't really know what to expect in the upcoming months in my life. I'm looking back on places I've been and things I've done and I'm really regretting a few things. I regret not finishing audio engineering school fully. I really could be doing something interesting with my life. I had one too many metal breakdowns though, and being away from home at that time was not healthy for me. I want to get out on my own and experience more things. Right now all I do is work at a dead end crappy restaurant, hang out with my chick, and record music whenever I seem to have time. I'm really behind on recording too. I wanted to get my album out by May, but that doesn't even look possible. I think I'm just thinking way too much about things. A lot happened in the past that I wish I could take back. I want to apologize fully to a lot of people for things I've done, but I also rather leave it in the past and just move forward with my life. Blah I'm all sorts of confused.
I'm going on a road trip to California this Summer. I have family out there I want to visit, and do some soul searching. I also want to stop in Arizona and look for a place out there. I would just go back to my old apartment that I had out there, but I need something different. I need to shape a new life in a way. I'm not ditching anyone, but I want to ditch some personal traits I've developed over that past year and a half.
This is just a rant. Me thinking way too much when I should be sleeping. Hope everyone else is having a goodnight.
I got a new digital camera today. I actually just went to a pawn shop and bought it. It was cool. I got a better camera for $40. My other camera cost me $200 and it didn't take nearly as good photos. Why was I bummed?
I wrote you a love note on the park bench
just in case you ever go back there again
and all the lines spell out to "I've said this before;
so here's just another little reminder."
and I'm sorry for not saying anything sooner
but trust me I don't think I quiet understood
all of the words I wish I could stop and say
as I drive through your neighborhood.
Just one last time.
and I never see your car
did you get up and move away?
just like I'm about to do
because I can't stand to be in this place
and I hope that you're happy
because lord knows you deserve to be
I guess I'm just sorry
and I hope he's a better man than me
I wrote you a love note on an old photograph
I submitted it to a publisher, so keep your eyes open for it
if says "I miss you most on cold winter nights
where the golf course was the only place we could hide
and I'd give you my shirt to keep you warm
even if I froze to death I was happy to have you in my arms."
Just one last time.
and I never have the guts
to find out how you've been
it's all been word of mouth
through all of our mutual friends
and I know that you're happy
because you wouldn't allow yourself to be
any less than that like I am
but I know that he's better than me
so please just take the time to listen
to words I still write for you
though we've grown into separate paths
these vines over grown right back to you
and I'm sorry for all of the pain that I've caused
I didn't ever want to see you pick up those drugs
because you were better than that
you were always better than that.
but I'm going to bite my tongue
and sing these words alone
no one needs to hear my sob story
of this terrible mistake I've done...
So I got that Mac a little bit ago. Well it's an iBook G4 and it had a really small hard drive (40 GB) and all that stuff. Well I ordered a new hard drive with bigger capacity (250 GB) and I had a computer guy install it for me. I also ordered a new key as well Well everything cost me about $240 and now I'm on the computer getting ready to find iLife. It was on here before. Well apparently the computer guy upgraded the computer, but forgot to put iLife on here. Now I'm pirating a copy of iLife '08. I don't have the money to buy a copy. I just spent $240 already (which was out of my budget). I still have 2 GB left to download. Estimated time frame is a day. Wish it had more seeders.
So there's this band called The Devil and The Lion. They're really fucking good. I recommend everyone to listen to them. They sound like Brand New mixed with Manchester Orchestra. Enjoy it!
Matt Butcher - Me and My Friends (www.myspace.com/mattbutchermusic) Good Old War - Only Way To Be Alone Jack's Mannequin - The Glass Passenger Manchester Orchestra - I'm Like A Virgin Losing A Child Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism
Busted out some old ones. I suggest you do the same. Also listen to Matt Butcher. The dude is local and he's awesome.
So recently I've started a vinyl collection. I've been getting more and more into vinyl. I bought a record player two days ago to finally start listening to some of these records. Right now I'm currently listening to Say Anything's ...is a real boy. Sounds quite nice on vinyl. I also know how rare this album is on vinyl, that's why I own more than one copy. Only one copy is for listening pleasure. The first record I listened to on my new record player was Death Cab For Cutie's Narrow Stairs. That album sounds soooo good. You hear so much more. It's very nice. I think I'm going to see how Panic At The Disco's latest album sounds after Say Anything is up.
Anyone have some good vinyl recommendations? I'm interested in the new Cold War Kids and Ryan Adams latest. I also thought about the newest UnderOATH as well as Anthony Green.
They're going to be playing with The Academy Is... and We The Kings over at House Of Blues. I can't wait. I have to stop by Park Avenue CDs on my way to pick up Say Anything ...is a real boy, on vinyl. It'll be my second one. I opened my other one. This one will remain sealed.
My hair was getting way too long. See pic above (not the one with my family). It was touching my shoulders for the most part so I cut it all off. I feel like I'm less weighed down, if that makes any sense. Feels good.
I spent the day listening to So Young, So Insane by You, Me, and Everyone We Know. I really, really like it. It's different, but yet it's still them. "Happy Birthday" is a great song. I jammed it for about 30 minutes straight. I'm waiting the days until I can see them. 19 days to go!
How's everyone's day going? Any music you would recommend anyone listening to?
I recommend everyone checking out a young man by the name of Ben Talmi. His songs are great, and perfect for the season. Check out "Glam Girls". Great fucking song. Keep your eyes out for his debut album Forget, But Not Forgive.
I also recommend the following:
Capital Lights - What An Outrage!
Forgive Durden - Razia's Shadow: A Musical
This Providence - The Bright Lights EP
Ludo - Ludo
Say Anything - ...is a real boy/...was a real boy
I'm also going to recommend the following songs:
Fall Out Boy - What A Catch, Donnie
Paul Simon - You Can Call Me Al
Landon Pigg - Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop
I want to also recommend staying healthy by drinking lots and lots of water! This past week I was told I have a kidney infection and kidney stones. I've been in pain for over a week and that's what I found out after going to the doctor. So everyone, ditch the soda. Drink water and cranberry juice!
I'm stoked to finally record my full length album. After countless songs, song ideas, demos, I've finally gotten 16 songs to record. I'll be releasing an EP this December for Christmas and then I'll release the full length in the Spring. I'm thinking March or April. 12 songs will be on the album, and 5 will be on the EP (one song will be from the album while the others are b-sides so to speak). I'm gathering up friends to help me with this album for back up vocals, gang vocals, and people who know how to play instruments that I don't. I have two drummer for the studio and I have some people that play strings and some others that play horns. All Guitar, bass, and keys I'll be doing along with vocals. After everything is done, I'm hoping to hit the road to support this thing.
So my buddy over at Best Buy gives me a call today and told me to go to Best Buy today to buy a 160 GB iPod. Apparently they've been discontinued, and Best Buy was selling them cheap just to get rid of them. I paid $150 bucks for it. Not bad at all I must say. Pretty spontaneous purchase on my part. The phone bill can wait.