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I Exist As I Am
|Welcome to my Life
| So while Ashley sleeps I’ll try recounting what the heck I’ve been up to (as if anyone cares in the first place bit I digress). First off, I can’t live with Ashley next year because her parents don’t want her living with just me. Which she’s more bummed out about than I am. She practically lives with me wherever I am at anyway, so I bet things aren’t going to change all that much. Secondly, I may be able to graduate in 4 years which excited my parents. I’ve been looking up internships like crazy and will take anything I can get. Ashley’s been looking up some internships as well and hopefully she’ll get one in DC and possibly live at my house for the summer. I’d love to introduce her to some of my high school friends for once. |
Last night Ashley and I wound up going to dinner with her friend Britney who realized she’s pregnant. I didn’t know Britney very well, but I had to go and meet Britney’s baby’s daddy, Jay. Before heading out to dinner Ashley gave me a couple tips about what not to say. Well in awkward moments I ended up asking those questions, and thank goodness Britney and Jay were so open about that stuff or I would’ve gotten grilled when I got back home.
One conversation I remember from last night happened when Britney went to the bathroom and Ashley awkwardly refused to accompany her. Isn’t it against some female code for a girl to go to the bathroom by themselves? Anyway, being a guy I had to know if Jay used a condom or not. With a twisted face he said, “Nah, man I didn’t have one so I just…well you know.” In disgust Ashley just shrugged her shoulders and called us imbeciles. I then proceeded to ask him what his mindset was when he heard Britney was pregnant. With a puzzled face he said, “I cried, but then I was happy..weird feeling you know? Imagine just all your dreams being put on hold because of this, it’s rough dude.” After a couple moments of silence and only me bringing up the vanishing act that Britney pulled, Ashley had to ask Jay, “You think you love her?” The dude reflected the question and asked me, “You ever love anybody?” Ashley interrupted (she saved me) and changed the conversation to the Ultimate Frisbee tournament my team lost this past weekend. Britney ended up coming back with tears in her eyes and mad make-up running down her face. Ashley says Britney didn’t even go to the bathroom but just needed to cry her emotions out. Dinner then ran smoothly. Jay tried comforting Britney, Britney declined and said she was alright and Ashley just gave me dirty looks every time I opened my mouth.
That evening we kind of went to a congratulatory, “Hey You’re Pregnant Party.” The party was a total disaster. All the girls cried. Jay, some Asian kid and I were the only guys there and we just chilled watching TV. I tried comforting Mrs. Ashley but she hates when I try being her shoulder to cry upon so I just walked away. Sitting on the couch with the 2 boys, some blonde girl with white hair and blue eyes starts crying and sits on the Asian kids lap. The short blonde girl is balling, and I can’t look away. The blonde girl eventually tells me to stop staring at her but I can’t. I look through my phone to find the name of the girl I grew up with that looks exactly like her, I look at the phone number (that I know by heart by the way because I’ve been calling it since this chick I grew up with first got it). Scroll up from the S’s to text Ashley with something just as simple as a heart. She then walks in the room laughs and says, “We are leaving.” On the ride home she giggles and says, “you better get me something good for Valentine’s day then.”
Maybe everything really is right in front of me.
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