Nobody deserves to be alone with their thoughts. It isn't fair that someone should have to put themselves through that. No one should have to analyze themselves so deeply. If everyone looked hard enough at themselvs, analyzed every single detail, the entire would probably be depressed. I think we have a tendency to look at negative things and blow them far out of proportion for the sake of doing it. It doesn't accomplish anything. Unfortunately, this weekend i subjected myself to this experience, thinking that it might be therapeutic. I was wrong about this. I started by taking what we talked about in sociology (even though it technically shouldn't apply because those rules really only apply to groups and not individuals) and using it to try and analyze my actions, what I ended up with was a list of things that I did in the past month or so that I had no good reason for doing. After this I continued to look at myself from the inside and try tofigure out why I did those things. Coming up with no answer only further proved that most of what I did had no driving force behind it, and ultimatley I ended up listening to a lot of Dashboard Confessional. But I made it through this weekend, and I feel fucking great about that.