As we are heading home from being on the road for 5 months. We celebrated in New Mexico by having a few drinks with some friends. We were shaking off everything that life has thrown us in the last 5 months, but more so, everything life has given us as well. We have deff "been there, done that" since releasing our record LUNA. We toured Canada with Saosin & Poison the Well and while there, our van burst into flames with us in it. We did several trips to Alaska & Hawaii, tour the beautiful US of A multiple times. Watched our bus break on us almost everyday, said screw that for safety reasons and bought a brand new 15 passenger van so we wouldnt have to worry about breakdowns anymore, unless it was the ones we were making on stage "throw in scenester guitar throw of your head move" kidding of course, but hey, had to do it.
Well while having our drinks and reflecting, the scene from SNL came on about more cowbell. Priceless, such a great scene, and song. Shortly after my boy Brett Farve was shown cleaning out his locker. Very emotional for me because that guy is like an idol to me. He is a man of true character. Played the day his father past away and won the game. A true man of passion in life for his family, for his sport, for his fans and his team. Everything I admire and aspire to one day be. We go through our lives worrying about all these bullshit trivial things and I think we find ourselves not realizing that we are focusing to hard inward, and not enough outward. I see it in so many aspects of life, i even see it in me, and I think thats a good start. When you can notice things that are bullshit so you can start changing who you are or how you look at things.
Im a part of a music "scene" if you will but our band is in the world thats a weird parallel and i dont know how it works or why and most of the time i dont question it. Some days we are on a stage with total radio butt rock bands like Evansblue and Red with a punk rock headliner like Joan Jett, some days were on a stage with bands like Me First and The Gimme Gimmes, Saosin etc and others we play face to face for 30 kids stoked to be crammed into a small room.
All of these things put my soul into perspective when you feel appreciate by people from so many different demographics. I dont think our band will ever be on a "success" level of a Paramore, or a My Chemical Romance and were totally cool with that. I think when we found ourselves wanting that kind of success we forgot that we had success in eachother, in our friends, fans and we ran back to what is real to us. If i can get on a stage everynight, regardless of how many kids, and play with the same integrity of a Jimmy Eat World or a local band who drives 8 hours to play a show and doesnt get paid, then i think i feel successful.
I dont know how this rant started but were finishing up 5 months, there is alot more on my chest, were about to head to Japan, then Hawaii...after that South America and a full US tour in Aug/Sept. I am grateful for the little things life brings me... I am stoked that life always wants some more cowbell. I love Brett Farve, ill miss him. I dont know what else to say except I cant wait to kiss the hell out of my dogs, crawl into my own bed tomorrow, hug my friends, play a lil xbox 360, eat a nice leafy green salad and not hear music for awhile. Especially screamo.
Anton, if your wondering if this was that long Iraq/Life blog, its not, that ones coming. That blog ive been writing for the last month, its not a month long, its just, making sure my wording is right because its some emotional stuff etc. Love you guys xo