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I Exist As I Am
Welcome to my Life
01/25/11 at 09:28 PM by owiseone35
So while Ashley sleeps I’ll try recounting what the heck I’ve been up to (as if anyone cares in the first place bit I digress). First off, I can’t live with Ashley next year because her parents don’t want her living with just me. Which she’s more bummed out about than I am. She practically lives with me wherever I am at anyway, so I bet things aren’t going to change all that much. Secondly, I may be able to graduate in 4 years which excited my parents. I’ve been looking up internships like crazy and will take anything I can get. Ashley’s been looking up some internships as well and hopefully she’ll get one in DC and possibly live at my house for the summer. I’d love to introduce her to some of my high school friends for once.

Last night Ashley and I wound up going to dinner with her friend Britney who realized she’s pregnant. I didn’t know Britney very well, but I had to go and meet Britney’s baby’s daddy, Jay. Before heading out to dinner Ashley gave me a couple tips about what not to say. Well in awkward moments I ended up asking those questions, and thank goodness Britney and Jay were so open about that stuff or I would’ve gotten grilled when I got back home.

One conversation I remember from last night happened when Britney went to the bathroom and Ashley awkwardly refused to accompany her. Isn’t it against some female code for a girl to go to the bathroom by themselves? Anyway, being a guy I had to know if Jay used a condom or not. With a twisted face he said, “Nah, man I didn’t have one so I just…well you know.” In disgust Ashley just shrugged her shoulders and called us imbeciles. I then proceeded to ask him what his mindset was when he heard Britney was pregnant. With a puzzled face he said, “I cried, but then I was happy..weird feeling you know? Imagine just all your dreams being put on hold because of this, it’s rough dude.” After a couple moments of silence and only me bringing up the vanishing act that Britney pulled, Ashley had to ask Jay, “You think you love her?” The dude reflected the question and asked me, “You ever love anybody?” Ashley interrupted (she saved me) and changed the conversation to the Ultimate Frisbee tournament my team lost this past weekend. Britney ended up coming back with tears in her eyes and mad make-up running down her face. Ashley says Britney didn’t even go to the bathroom but just needed to cry her emotions out. Dinner then ran smoothly. Jay tried comforting Britney, Britney declined and said she was alright and Ashley just gave me dirty looks every time I opened my mouth.

That evening we kind of went to a congratulatory, “Hey You’re Pregnant Party.” The party was a total disaster. All the girls cried. Jay, some Asian kid and I were the only guys there and we just chilled watching TV. I tried comforting Mrs. Ashley but she hates when I try being her shoulder to cry upon so I just walked away. Sitting on the couch with the 2 boys, some blonde girl with white hair and blue eyes starts crying and sits on the Asian kids lap. The short blonde girl is balling, and I can’t look away. The blonde girl eventually tells me to stop staring at her but I can’t. I look through my phone to find the name of the girl I grew up with that looks exactly like her, I look at the phone number (that I know by heart by the way because I’ve been calling it since this chick I grew up with first got it). Scroll up from the S’s to text Ashley with something just as simple as a heart. She then walks in the room laughs and says, “We are leaving.” On the ride home she giggles and says, “you better get me something good for Valentine’s day then.”
Maybe everything really is right in front of me.
Tags: Life, College, Fun
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I Just Don't Look Good in Black
11/04/10 at 08:19 PM by owiseone35
You know I remember when I first came to this site and was one of those people that hated on pop music and bitched about mainstream artists being being covered on this site. Thank goodness I'm not that kid anymore. While I still visit this site for news I barely post anymore just because I feel like somehow 20 is pretty old on this site. I also come here for the laughs. I mean come on a kid who lists Miss May I and A Day to Remember as their favorite bands giving crap to people who like Lady GaGa and Taylor Swift, I mean really? Not to say I am judging at all, it's just odd.

Maybe since I was never socially awkward I don't understand some of the people on this site and their choices of favorite bands. Don't take that as a dig at anybody.

I am 20 years old and seriously when I see a kid in college these days with an Attack!!! Attack!! shirt on, I literally think that kid is trying to ostracize himself.

This realization just came to me when a friend and I went to Lydia's farewell concert. I was probably the second oldest guy there. The crowd was full of 12-17 year old boys all draped in black. To say I didn't fit in with this crowd of people was an understatement. The oldest guy there was probably a good 3-5 years older than me and looked like he just walked out of his mom's basement. He had the typical emo look: long swooping black hair, jeans that were ripped and that had the stupid chain coming out of the pockets, nose ring, and gauges in his ear. Now if I ever looked like that, how would I expect myself to get a job. Is it a phase, do people actually take music as a sort of lifestyle and fit into those standards? Walking away from that concert I asked myself, "Are these kids for real?"

Now I am all for self-expression but is there a certain way I should dress just because I listen to punk/indie/rap music? Of course not, so why the hell do people deliberately do that? It really does befuddle me.

Does music mean a lot to me, kind of but as I grow up I realize music isn't as important to me as it used to be. It was nice that my friends back in the day would listen to one song on my IPOD before putting in the Kenny Chesney CD. So thanks guys. I'm pretty proud I was never that EMO kid in the corner of class that bragged about how he found the coolest band in the world, only to denounce them once they got famous.

Sorry I do this more for me than I do for the people that read this.

Listen to how catchy this song is:

Now tell me how this doesn't sound like something that could've been on Nothing Personal ? (except for the obvious girl singing). The melody and lyrics would be strikingly similar.
Tags: life, realization, Ke$ha
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Just Putting Down Some Thoughts
10/14/09 at 06:46 PM by owiseone35
  1. My CD player in my car ended up breaking so I ended up listening to Paramore's brand new eyes for a straight 2 hours. Hey, it was probably better than whatever the hell was on the radio. In my opinion it's a really good CD not much growth from Riot to this but it is still pretty catchy and fun listening. Misguided Ghosts is still pretty cringeworthy but every other song is above average.
  2. Cartel, Cartel O how i wanted to love thee. I really tried to like Cycles, I forced myself to enjoy Cycles much like everyone did with Daisy, but I couldn't get into it. Deep South is my jam though and the only other song I really enjoyed was See Me Now. Totally kidding about kids forcing themselves to enjoy Daisy as well .
  3. Even if the Browns put Brady Quinn on the trading block who is going to want him? Kyle Orton has proved himself in Denver as a capable quarterback, even though some of the defenses he has faced are pretty bad I think under McDaniels he will be just fine. I'm not even a Bronco's fan.
  4. This Time Next Years' newest CD is hopping. Definitely will be purchasing this the day it comes out.
  5. I'll definitely be having some major changes on my Top 10 Albums of the Year list. Including Sleeping At Last's Storyboards probably taking the #1 spot. Also look for Propagandhi's Supporting Caste to be on there.
  6. Life is pretty good very laid back, met some new friends here in college and have been chilling with them a bunch. I realized I really need to start lifting more, for I am getting fat. Im 5"6 and 147 pounds trying to bump that down to 144 by Halloween.
  7. Been watching tons of Futurama getting ready for the new episodes on comedy central. Easily one of the best Cartoons to ever be on TV. Seriously Futurama>Simpsons (first 8 seasons)> Family Guy (before Cancelled) > Simpsons (other seasons)>" New" Family Guy.
  8. This Time Nexy Years newest CD may be the last one I buy for the year. I've spent a lot more money on music this year then I have in other years. Half of that might have to do with finally becoming a full fledged citizen here on AP.Net.
  9. Being an English Education Major is awesome.
  10. The only three CD's I'm really looking forward to next year (2010) are Frightened Rabbits, The Wonder Years and The Gaslight Anthems.
Tags: life, thoughts, emotions, lab.
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