And I don't get the feeling that I use to while I was there. I watched You, Me, and Everyone We Know, Less Than Jake, All Time Low, Lights, Big D and The Kids Table and that was about it. Seriously I just felt out of place being there. I felt old. I was tired two hours in. It was too hot. I feel like I could have spent my money on something better. This tour just doesn't mean the same to me. It doesn't even stand for what it use to stand for. The tour is slowly becoming a joke. Give me my punk rock. I don't want The Maine or Every Avenue. Even worse I don't want Brokencyde or Millionaires. These bands are jokes. I won't be going back to another Warped Tour until they have a better line up, or if the ticket is given to me for free. Needless to say I won't be wasting my money on this again.
I don't really know what to expect in the upcoming months in my life. I'm looking back on places I've been and things I've done and I'm really regretting a few things. I regret not finishing audio engineering school fully. I really could be doing something interesting with my life. I had one too many metal breakdowns though, and being away from home at that time was not healthy for me. I want to get out on my own and experience more things. Right now all I do is work at a dead end crappy restaurant, hang out with my chick, and record music whenever I seem to have time. I'm really behind on recording too. I wanted to get my album out by May, but that doesn't even look possible. I think I'm just thinking way too much about things. A lot happened in the past that I wish I could take back. I want to apologize fully to a lot of people for things I've done, but I also rather leave it in the past and just move forward with my life. Blah I'm all sorts of confused.
I'm going on a road trip to California this Summer. I have family out there I want to visit, and do some soul searching. I also want to stop in Arizona and look for a place out there. I would just go back to my old apartment that I had out there, but I need something different. I need to shape a new life in a way. I'm not ditching anyone, but I want to ditch some personal traits I've developed over that past year and a half.
This is just a rant. Me thinking way too much when I should be sleeping. Hope everyone else is having a goodnight.
So yeah. Last night I was loading up my car on my way to Orlando. Well I put things on the roof of my car when I'm loading it up. I forgot my digital camera up there. Well I remember hearing some hit the roof of my car and thinking maybe it was something out of the trees. Well come to find out it wasn't. I went back right to the spot I remember hearing it at and there was my camera in the road. When I heard the noise it was at around 8 PM. I found the camera at 5:45 AM this morning. My memory card is fine, so I still have all the pictures, but the camera is FUCKED. Well here's my excuse to get a new one now. I'm still bummed. I went to Orlando and back and went home to sleep. I remembered it this morning when my mom needed it for the Daytona 500.
I'm not going to say all women right now, but I am going to say most. They never seem to be happy and they seem to take everything literally. I'm getting so worn down with this crap. I'm stressing out over it and it's taking a toll on me. No matter what I do, what I say, or how I act, I don't think I can ever satisfy a woman. It's never good enough, so what's the point? It's one o'clock in the morning, and I'm getting text messages like crazy that are just insulting me. Do I turn off my phone, or do I not get any sleep tonight? So many questions, and not enough knowledge in this world to figure out females.