It's one in the morning on Saturday, I'm sitting at my computer with a large list of personal and professional things I'd like to get done this week.
Ask out Irina
Write Forgive Durden review
Write Person L review
Decide whether to Write Anthallo/The Love Willows Reviews
If yes, write those reviews
E-mail FD's manager and lock down interview
If interviews get's set up, start to prepare
Finish typing up Kevin Devine Interview
Do all of my homework
Until the first one gets done, nothing besides the last one will. This situation is consuming my entire being. I have a lot of things to get done, but every time I try to put my focus on working, it turns into a secluded self-destructive thought session. I'm hoping that once I ask her out, the tortured thoughts will disappear and I'll be able to sit and think without putting my mental health on a platter for hungry dogs.
Even though it's been a shitty personal week, school and work wise it's all been pretty good. I've gotten some good stuff this week. As I get more acclimated with people and labels things will start to come easier, but the highbeam's small size makes some of these albums hard to get. In the last week though, I've gotten a few big releases through managers that I've worked with or new people. It's always exciting.
Hopefully that first paragraph will change into something positive and my personal world will be filled with happiness. At this point, I'm not even nervous anymore. I've thought about it so much that anything I would think of right before I asked would have already been over-analyzed to nothingness anyway. Razia's Shadow has really helped me this week. The storyline has given me something to think about and analyze besides my own life for a few hours, it's refreshing.