just got back from the eye doctor's office. i was hoping the worst part of it would be my guilt over circling "single" under marital status. because i'm married, but not legally here, so i went with how i file (and will file) my taxes. still didn't feel very good, but that's not the point of this.
for the better part of this year, my eyes have gotten incredibly bloodshot when i wear contacts, even for a very short period of time (sometimes as little as 2 hours). it's gotten progressively worse throughout this year, to the point where i'm waking up the next day with completely red eyes. i look like one of the infected from "28 days later." i've never experienced anything like this, and i've worn contacts for more than a decade now. though i will admit my contact usage has dropped dramatically in the three years i've worked for GI, because it's so dry in there, and my eyes get tired after hours of reading.
so i went in for my eye test today and mentioned it all to the doctor, thinking maybe i had some kind of underlying infection and the contacts were just making it worse. they did the battery of normal tests, numbing drops, poking the eye, "which is better one or two," dilating my pupils. he flashed the bright lights at me, made me look up and down, writes a few things on my chart, etc.
he tells me that my prescription hasn't changed a bit. GREAT news! then he says, "stephanie, you have extremely dry eyes." oh okay, not too big a deal, right? he says that this happens more with women, but i'm showing the signs a bit earlier in life. okay, still not too big a deal..."this usually shows up in women in their late 30s, early 40s."
WHAT THE FUCK??? THAT'S NOT A BIT EARLY, THAT'S REALLY FUCKIN EARLY. like by a decade or so.
basically, my eyes are so dry that every time i wear my contacts it rips the outer layer of skin off my eyes, hence the super bloodshot eyes, and also why the right one stays a bit bloodshot in the mornings. people who wear contacts need enough moisture so the lens slides around, and i obviously don't have that. so he says that for the next month, he's putting me on some kind of extreme moisturization program, drops in my eyes 4 times a day, and in a month he'll check me again. and then maybe my eyes will be moist enough so that i can wear contacts again in my life. otherwise, no dice.
so i am upset, very very upset, because although i do not wear contacts often, there are times where i need to wear them (in the ocean) and/or want to wear them (hello, my wedding). i blame my work environment for this, for at least exacerbating this condition, because the whole reason i stopped wearing contacts regularly is because this place dries them out to the max. the more i think about it, many many people here wear glasses...so right now, the last place i want to be is here, in the desert that is my cube. i'm going to talk to the GM about it, to see if there is anything she or i can do to make it better in here.
this really, really sucks. i hope these fucking drops work.