jade-allyson

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson. <3 I'll always remember you.

music. i write and play my own music. i've never played a live show before except for stupid little school talent shows, and i never did any of my own stuff. i like photography and journalism. i'm hoping to major in those subjects in college. if canadian idol was still on the air, and it didnt suck so much that nobody ever watched it, i would SOOO audition when i got old enough, but.. i guess we dont have very many good singers in canada. or else the ratings would probably have been better.

I lived in Florida for the first six years of my life, when I moved with my family to Canada to support my dying grandfather. Not long after we settled in, he passed away from pancreatic cancer. I spent seven years in the same house in Pickering, and I am now living with my mom and grandma due to a financial crisis... sucks. I started cutting myself when I was eleven years old, and was diagnosed with major depression disorder when i was twelve. I am now fourteen and it's something that i still struggle with. But i would say that i am much better now than i was about a year ago, with three attempts at suicide under my belt and a wickedly premature addiction to drugs and alcohol. i've cut back on my use of street drugs and my drinking significantly. it really can't get any worse than it was, so i guess i'm just moving up. it's all very confusing.