Happy I get to spend Valentines day with my favorite non profit. They've helped me so much in my life with my self harm and depression issues. They don't know how many times they've stopped me from trying to kill or harm myself. There have been so many time when I've locked my door out from the rest of the world and do something rash, but then I glance up at my wall and see Jamie's face. Then I look down at my wrist and see my TWLOHA bracelets. Then I realize I can do this.

2 months clean of self harm. :)

Hang in there people.....the rocky road is worth it.....good night and happy youknowwhat day!

Originally Posted by lydialovesyou

I'm a uChapter President at Ohio State and in two weeks The Buried Life will be here, with me as one of their ambassadors. <3 dreams really do come true, a few months ago when nothing seemed right and i just wanted to give up, people kept encouraging me and I had to keep remembering what TWLOHA is really all about - and why I'm doing this at all... LOVE. HOPE. RECOVERY. I love TWLOHA and always will. Valentine's Day is something different today, having had to put a restraining order against an abusive and manipulative love interest just a few weeks ago, and still suffering from a stress disorder, this day takes on a whole new meaning for me. Being here with all of you guys is the highlight of the freakin' month. <3 Lydia

Ohhh so you're the random Lydia that added me on Facebook =P

I'm definitely going to apply for an internship, I'm moving back to Melbourne in July so I'd love to work with you all n

Originally Posted by semipunk93

Has anyone else been single forever? =p

Yepp, going on 23 years! This is the first I haven't been bitter about it though, feels pretty great :)

Originally Posted by SnickertheCat

I love how Heavy and Light was on my birthday :D.

However, I'm very depressed right now and am struggling to not cut myself. I'm about to have a breakdown...

We're here for you :)

Originally Posted by Beachbumm12KA

so i got interviewed by my school broadcast today about this thing i did for v day for the campaign. Chloe should i email you pictures? over 300 students wrote about something they love and the papers were all put up along a hall and the point was to get the message accross that "this pink holiday doesn't define you"-Jamie. You are no alone you are loved

Absolutely!! We'd love to see it. You can also add it at the Buzznet group too. :)

what's your biggest fear? what's your greatest dream?

Originally Posted by alexis_liberty

I love that they do this. I've always been single on Valentine's and yeah, it use to suck. It doesn't anymore. Sure, it's not fun to see a whole bunch of couple walking around but I have my computer, good books, and sour gummy candy. It's a pretty good night to me.

Sounds like a pretty good night to us too :)

im a cutter and i write 'love' on my arms every single day, and whenever i look at it, it makes me smile and gives me hope. i think this organization is really great and it has helped me get through some really tough times where i just wanted to stop my life. i decorate my entire arm with 'love.' so thank you for the help :)

Originally Posted by Rachel1031

Jamie, I don't want to be creepy, I don't personally know you, so I'll refrain from asking you to marry me, but you do inspire me, you inspire a lot of people, so I was wondering, will you please, pretty please be my valentine?

: )

Originally Posted by Lizzie9867

ive been through shit this week. a lot. loosing a loved one and what not. almost getting raped.): what should i do??

i just lost a love one too, and its really hard but just be around those you love. It really helps.

@ClassicStarfish, your poem is really really beautiful. Wow. Thank you for sharing it with us!!

Originally Posted by ihatethelettuce

the first time i did a speech about TWLOHA i cried, so as long as you don't do that i'm sure that you'll be fine! but, a good tip is using a statistic as an attention getter. i used "every 40 seconds a person dies from suicide" and people seemed to pay attention to me after that. good luck!

haha, I'm so afraid that I'm going to cry! I'm pretty sure I might shed a few tears, but who knows? lol. And good idea! I'm actually doing that!!! (:

Originally Posted by cmbasile99

This has just been an awful 2 weeks for me. My one roommate/best friend (I have 2) got mad and stopped talking to me and our other roommate when we brought up an issue with our guest policy, so now I'm living with someone who won't even look at me. One of the people that helped start my complete downward spiral 8 years ago (when I began self-harming and not realizing it was an actual problem) came back into my life and has been making everything worse. I'm just never genuinely happy anymore, I'm usually just a constant state of indifference or sadness with some really happy days mixed in (mostly concerts). I just want to be happy with a few bad days mixed in, I'm sick of it being the other way around.
I want to be finally content with myself, but being told that I'm ugly and worthless so many times just made me believe that I am and it's hard to change that way of thinking. All of this just made me start self harming again, as much and even more, than I did at my lowest point 8 years ago.
To top everything off, my grandpa who's young and perfectly healthy had surgery last week but wasn't feeling well after. My Dad flew out to Minnesota to see him and help my grandma with him but when I got back from class my Dad called me and told me he didn't make it. I was shocked, hysterical, and heartbroken because it was completely unexpected and I never had to deal with something like that, especially not on top of everything else. The ironic part was that the morning before (Tuesday) I made the decision (with my 3 friends help) and called Student Health Services to make my first ever therapy appointment which was supposed to be today.
I've been told that I'm worthless just so many times, especially because I don't have a guy in my life, so today is always hard. But this Valentine's Day in particular is even harder because today was the day of my Grandpa's first memorial service and I couldn't be there because I'm at school, and it's just been so hard having my family be all together to support each other but my sister and I are isolated at school all alone.
I want to get better, but I can't help but feeling like I'm not worth it because other people have much worse problems and have been through much worse. I feel like right now, I'm a waste of a life.
One of the only things helping me to convince myself to push on, is watching the TWLOHA videos, and Jamie speaking. Jamie is my inspiration, hero, and the reason why I realized that what I'm going through is an issue and I shouldn't have to deal with it. I keep trying to push on and I made that phone call to seek help/treatment so that I can get better and be able to have the opportunity to meet my hero, Jamie Tworkowski.
Sorry this was so long, I just needed to get it out.

Been told I'm worthless more times than I can count ... it means nothing. Keep your head up - it gets better.