jason this is gonna be a random question but how many girls did you date before you finally got married? did you ever think "this is the one" and just had things not work out?
Shit, do I want to answer this on the internet? Hahaha. Nah, it's cool - I am a pretty open book about things.
I looked at relationships in a pretty unhealthy way for a long time. I was searching for a type of connection, and self-destructively thinking that faking "romance" and passion was a way to feel connected to someone. Anyone. Took a lot of soul searching, and help, to get out of that pattern. I did have a few times where I thought I was maybe
in a relationship that could be "the one" - but the timing was never right. Timing plays a big role. And in hindsight, I was mostly trying to convince myself in those situations. I wanted to just not feel alone - that I accepted things, and the way people treated me, that I shouldn't have. When it all finally came together ... I knew in a way I never did before. But it took a lot of work on my end to get to the point in my life where I could be that person ...