When I first heard My Chemical Romance I was 13. I was just beginning to enter Middle School and having a rough time, all the people I thought were my friends in elementary entirely abandoned me for cliques, and at the time I wasn't very out going. When I hit middle school it was like starting back at square one, and I started to become really depressed and afraid I would never make any new friends. Some of the first people I met had similar views and likes in music that I did, and a friend suggested I check out this website that had a bunch of interesting music. I logged on and found the song "Honey, this mirror isn't big enough for the two of us," and instantly I wanted more. The way the music sounded, was as angry as I felt when people talked about the way I dressed, or how I looked. And to be frank, in Middle school I didn't give a fuck, but I did. When I finally saved up the money, I ran out and bought "I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love." And when I first listened to it I didn't know what to think, so I placed it on my mantel and waited until it felt right. About a week later I stopped doing much of anything in my classes, and I stopped talking to the people I was starting to make friends with. I started to become deeply depressed and couldn't make myself feel better unless I cut myself, or painted all of my feelings out. One night I locked myself in my room and began drawing, I was in what felt like a spiral of never ending depression, over the loss of my grandfather, having no one I felt I could confide in, and knowing that eventually I would have to give up art to become something my parents wanted me to be. That night I decided something had to give, I was either going to get over this and make something of myself, or this was my last drawing. I left all of my brushes on top of my mantel in an old cup, and that's when I found "I brought you my bullets." I placed it in my cd player and started to violently attack the paper. I didn't care what I was making I just knew that somehow everything bad in me had to come out and the music helped me find where it was hiding. That night I fell asleep with "Demolition Lovers" on repeat in my headset. The next day, I had started to draw in my math class, because I wanted to be an artist and didn't see the point in it, and that's when some one next to me said "Hey I like your art!" I turned and saw a girl who was also doodling in a sketch book. We quickly became friends, and it wasn't long before we were inseparable, but she was also going through some deep emotional issues. We confided in each other and talked about as much as we could together. We both became huge My Chemical Romance fans, and soon enough people were calling us names again, thinking back we shouldn't have let this bug us, but it did. One night I went to her house and we just started blasting music and creating art, no one said anything. "I brought you My Bullets," had just played through and her cd's changed, and that's when I heard "Adam's Song" by Blink 182. I had heard Blink before, but I wasn't familiar with their older music, and this to me was one of the first times, I ever listened to Blink. She and I blasted Blink and MCR the rest of the night and drew out everything, until we eventually couldn't draw anymore.
We stayed close into high school and we both still listened to MCR and Blink. We were both active members in the MCRmy as well. She and I had both seen MCR many times and every time I would see My Chemical Romance I would hand paint a custom design just for that show. I had entered as many things into my MCRmy log as possible, living in a small town meant that hardly any one knew who the bands were, let alone care about anything that wasn't country music, but we both still tried. Then one day I went home and checked my e-mail and saw a congratulations e-mail. I began to read it and all I could do was scream! I had been awarded a meet and greet with My Chemical Romance during the Black Parade tour. The only thing I could do was cry, because every member in the band was my hero. They also allowed my best friend to go with me to the meet and greet and all we could do the whole time was smile. My best friend and I are still close even though we are so far away. She went on to do music, and I went on to do art. I am now in my Senior year at art school, and will be graduating with a focus in Industrial Design. I can honestly say, that with out My Chemical Romance, Blink 182, and my best friend Nikki, I wouldn't be alive today, and I wouldn't be doing what I really enjoy.
Thank you for everything MCR and Blink182, and thank you for your time.
(attached is the t-shirt design I hand painted when I got to meet My Chemical Romance, a picture of my best friend Nikki as Frank and me as Gerard for Halloween when we were in Highschool, and a picture of me 2 years ago as The Rumor for Halloween)