Stuck Like Ghosts Made to Disappear
When I was about twelve years old, I started hating life. Everyday seemed to add more time to life then take it away. I Always thought at that point, turning eighteen would bring more delight and freedom than living at home. I Was A Little More Wrong than I Would of thought.
Sure life at Home wan't all that great, being adopted at three and End up being the Middle Child at nine, and getting treated like Shit because I was adopted; My Brothers and Sisters would give me shit because of it. "It's Not My Fault" is what I would always say when they did that. Then My Parents Started "Grounding." They Would Ground Me fore MONTHS at a Time... at Nine. But from Twelve, It seems I never had any friends Because of it, then that's when I confronted them.
All they did was ground me until I grew a pair of balls (I was About Seventeen) Grounding Would Go as Far as Eating Only sandwiches and Plain Bread, Having to Sleep on the Floor For about a Year with out a Pillow or Blanket; Only a Sheet. One Time I tried to Used Some Clothes as Extra Comfort and Pillow, and they Took them and Burned Them; Catering for Them: Like Cooking For them and Cleaning Up Messes and Dishes;I Couldn't Even Have What They Were Having! I Couldn't Write or Draw, or Even Go Outside When I pleased. At 17, is when I finally started Rebelling. I would Say Fuck You and Do it Anyway, or Fuck You!Do it Your Self, but Even that Eventually led to a Dead End.
They Started Calling the Cops When I said No and Would Break Stuff in the House and Say I broke that or I Hit Him or Her, Whenever They Had a Bruise and I'd Refuse to Do something. At that Point I Started Thinking about Death, and Running away. Running Away didn't Work, so I Overdosed, but Even that didn't Work. I Had to Wait Through Hell, and Take Anything that Came my Way with No Comments nor actions. I was a Damseal in Distress.
Being an Adult From Age Twelve was my Dream, but Even That Sucks. It's Better having a Little Bit of Judgement over things you can Do Though. But I'm Curious...
What Was Life Like for other AP users Growing Up if You want to Share? And was Adulthood anything like what You Thought it'd be?