I'm tired of wearing a mask to please others. Maybe I enjoy being an asshole, and hate being a "preffered being."
Where the problem comes in is that, I have to be someone else other than who I am in order to keep all who've been close to me stay there, or I end up pushing them away. It's hard to not snap off with sarcasm or a douche comment when someone says something obvious, stupid, or completely irrelevent.
I want to be an asshole when someone ask me to get them something that's right next to them when their too freaking "busy" to move an arm.
Shit like that pisses me off, but when I even try to confront them, I'm an asshole.
My conclusion is, that, in order to make everyone happy, I have to be a push over and overly nice person.
I want to just say fuck them all, but I care for them (Family, Friends, etc.) so that I don't want to lose them.
I know asking for help on ap.net is like asking a bunch of 2 year olds which apple is which, and only a few will be helpful, but I am giving it the benefit of the doubt.
Any HELPFUL suggestions or stupid comments? Feel free to relate and/or share experiences.
You have to do with what feels right. If you don't feel like being fake in order to maintain your social circle is right....then your correct. And follow through with your feeling. At the same time you need to put some thought into the whole thing. Trust your instincts man, they don't lie.