in the empire business
Female - 23 Years Old
Time helps in the sense that you don't wallow in pity every single day. Unfortunately, you get used to them not being there and that makes it easier. Speaking from experience here, so I'll explain.
My cousin was raised along side me as a sister and only 15 months younger. We did everything together and our lives really revolved around each other, from family functions to friends (same friend group, same college). She was my other half for 18 years. Inseparable. I can't really put our relationship into words, but goddamn she was my other half.
She died 2 years ago and I'm still not fully functional. Time helps in the sense that you don't wallow in it and cry every second and you can go back to normal activities. I can feel happiness again. I know it's not my fault. I know now that no matter how much time I spent with her, it never would have been enough. However, I'm still plagued with thoughts of what we SHOULD be doing. We should be living together right now, she SHOULD be turning 21 in two weeks, we SHOULD be together every day. But we're not and she isn't here. It's normal to be sad sometimes. It's normal to be angry or have bad days.
Acceptance of it does come, you just have to let it. Personally, I've just sort of numbed myself to life and that's how I deal with it. It's not what I recommend. But a grievance counselor could help you A LOT. Also, if you're religious, that can bring you extreme comfort. Talk to your family and lean on them, you all need each other. Summer was not long ago, it is normal that you're still sad. I'm so sorry for your loss, it's not fair.