Frederick, MD Male - 19 Years Old | For me, it was that I never really fit in with anyone, and because I was in high school, I didn't realize at the time that it didn't fucking matter. I was always really quiet and even though I'm smart, I didn't really apply myself that much until my senior year, so I never fit in with the academic kids. On the other hand, because I was quiet and awkward, I didn't fit in with the kids who partied and shit either. Started dabbling in drugs my senior year because of certain friends, and in hindsight, I know it was simply to find a sense of belonging. Add extremely overprotective parents to this and I was a pretty fucking confused and pissed-off high school kid. Never had a girlfriend, never even kissed a girl for that matter, never went to parties, and the list goes on. I did make some great friends throughout my high school years though, ones I hope to never lose touch with as I get older. I would say my biggest regret in high school was being afraid to talk to girls. I still struggle with it, and it makes me very depressed and angry sometimes. Also, I still sometimes think about the kids who bullied me in high school (although I wasn't constantly tormented or anything, like some kids were), and it still makes my blood boil and makes me dream about murdering them all (maybe a slight exaggeration, although it's very slight).
So yeah, basically I fucking hated high school. Ended up going to community college, where I'm in my second year. Transferring in the fall to a school 200 miles from home, hoping to have a sort of fresh start away from everyone I know. |