I don't dislike this band, I've just been greatly disappointed in them in the past so I've been very weary of them. and you're right, I don't know what the personal meaning behind it is, but this song makes me not want to care at all. the band has been singing all too similar tunes for a while now and it's getting very tiring.
look at eminem, sure his new albums are meaningful to him and I don't know what they're all about because to me, eminem's music hasn't progressed in any way and/or lacks anything interesting (i.e. he's a one-trick pony that refuses to learn new tricks that are anything worthwhile). same thing with this band, I really can't care about the meaningfulness of their new songs like I did with northern lights or permanent rain because they don't sound like they're going anywhere with their music. and I don't care how meaningful this song is because I don't care about the song itself - the instruments, the aesthetic, the histrionic singing that sounds forced.
I'll use anberlin's *fin as an example, sure the song is incredibly significant to the band/singer, detailing the singer's personal experience and struggle with religious convictions, etc. and now say that I didn't care for the song at all (which I do, just using this as an example), are you going to expect me to care about any of that? you shouldn't. and you should definitely expect me to think he's being overdramatic in his impromptu outro.
Fair enough, thank you for providing a more in-depth explanation. I personally don't think it's worth trying to judge a piece of art if you don't care about it and you're not willing to invest anything in it, but I understand that you want this band to progress and, since they haven't done that, you have a hard time getting past the surface of the music to appreciate what's underneath.
That said, I am genuinely surprised that you think "Northern Lights" and "Permanent Rain" were the sound of aband going somewhere when the later material lets you down so much. For all my love of Reach for the Sun, it's a pretty one-note affair from a musical standpoint. The layers in those songs peel away because of the lyrical content and AJ's emotional delivery, the very things you are rejecting here. I can understand there being a law of diminishing returns for something like that when it's done repeatedly, and maybe you were in a place when you first heard those songs that made them really resonate with you, whereas it all feels kind of hollow now, but I still think it's weird that you no longer care about a band that, I gather, once actually meant something to you.