I had my first diagnosis at 17, went on antidepressants for a year, stopped for six months and went back on them after a relapse almost two years ago. Ever since I started studying in college, I've been reading a lot of publications on the treatment of depression and discuss them with my therapists. I am now taking antidepressants indefinitely as a buffer against potential relapse, as my early onset puts me at high risk of relapsing.
I am really proud of myself for being able to take care of myself this far, and go into such great lengths to make sure I'm doing better - but to be honest, I don't really feel
any better. I can function
a lot better compared to when my depressive symptoms were at its peak, but as grateful as I am for that, I don't believe I'm getting any happier.
It's hard because there's nobody that I can talk to about this. I've told a couple of friends, but that ended up being something I really regret because they never really end up supporting me the way I wanted them to. They don't really understand the magnitude of all the things I have to deal with - medical bills, doctor's appointments, the necessity of managing my lifestyle and making it as stress-free as possible. I guess most people still believe that depression is something that is all in your head, and it's so hard to convince them otherwise when the line between mentality and a legitimate disorder is heavily blurred.
How does fish oil work? I heard that it helps with concentration, but I haven't heard of it as an alternative treatment to depression. I'm curious :)