The fucked up thing is that I'm completely in denial. All I can think about is how to fix everything. I need to see her.. I can't even fall asleep right now, so sleeping on it is out of the question.

I really do appreciate everything you just said though. I feel a teeny, tiny bit better haha

Alright, the first thing to remember is that just because she's gone, the changes she's inspired don't need to go away too. It sounds like you're saying she changed you for the better, so take that, and keep getting better, and eventually putting your all into everything you do will lead you to someone even better.

This said, you are still completely entitled to confront the pain head on. It hurts and you hurt and you need to feel that, explore it, and understand it until you're ready to move on. If you need to talk to somebody, I'm here, and I'm sure the other old bro-circlers would be glad to help you out too.

Also it might be beneficial to pursue some closure on your breakup with her; from your relation of the story it seems like it was a rather sudden phone break-up and you don't have the inside track on why it occurred so there are ways you could confront Taylor about that along the line that would probably bring you considerable peace of mind.

I'm sorry this happened to you; your relationship with Taylor was sort of the paradisiacal bedrock of many of our romantic imaginations here: you were kind of our Clark Gable and Carol Lombard. Just so you know, Gable was still the man after that relationship ended, and mate, so are you.

Who am I kidding.. she was the best thing that ever happened to me. After I met Taylor, I got my shit together. Started making better grades, quit partying, started thinking about the future. It just came out of nowhere. One day everything is fine, the next she's calling me crying because she "knows that we can't be together right now." I couldn't talk her out of it. I tried calling her today, and she said "Please don't call me for a while, I already feel like a piece of shit, but this has to be done."

I'm sick of lying to everyone, telling them I'm fine and pretending it doesn't hurt.

exactly right. besides, what an interesting way to begin 2011. happy new year yo

I'll be alright. Easy come, easy go, right?

holy shit, dude. you alright?

Taylor broke up with me today. I'm not sure why I'm telling you this, but I'm quite upset about it and I feel like telling someone.

whoa! i can't believe i didn't see your message from two days ago until today. hope the seventeenth's dream girl had a great birthday yesterday dude

I'm doing quite excellent. Trying to plan with my girlfriend where I'm going to take her for her birthday tomorrow, she's being a woman about it and can't make up her mind haha

yea man
actually the only reason i'm on the computer is i am doing my sister's homework
it's good times though
how is my favorite elwood dowd

I feel like I've heard that somewhere before... haha
What have you been up to, I assume you went home over break?

Hi, Alex. You're attractive!