Okay, so I missed a post yesterday because I spent half the night talking to an ex from yeeears ago, who i also spent most of tonight talking to coincidentally...i haven't spoken to her in a very long time, and i expected our conversation to be pretty monumentally awkward. Surprisingly...it wasn't! We reconnected just like we used to all those years ago when we were together! Don't misunderstand, she is now very happy with a boyfriend, and I couldn't be happier for them. But all this talking to her has made me not only revisit my past memories of her, but also wonder about my latest ex: will I being going through the same thing with her years from now? There is a part of me that thinks its not worth the shit I will go through just to talk to this girl, but the part of me that still loves her and harbors hopes of winning her back is fighting back with absolutely no credibility...but is putting up just enough of a fight to make me listen. I suppose it doesn't make much sense without explaining what happened between us, but I am just too drained and too strung out to tell it properly...so the question this time is: What is it that makes us want something we can't have?